Reclaiming my power - A Journal by MatAlexander305

Don’t know who that is but alright bro, Gn

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Hit up cigar lounges if you want to meet guys to network with, their is no better way socializing then some booze and cigars and the convos will flow. An added bonus most of the guys at cigar lounges tend to be higher class, wealthy etc so good connections can be made from these places

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Good idea, I only have one in my area and it’s at a 4 star hotel/casino. Certainly their must be some potential there

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Khan St1 is going great, no crazy recon, no mental breakdowns, everything’s been pretty positive. Though, I wish I had been journaling a lot more. I’ve had so many insights and mindset shifts lately.

One is about curating my reality. The people I’m surrounded by, the media I consume. Everyone is programmed by their surroundings, and I’ve been thinking a lot about how my current surroundings do not support my goals. I want to be rich, smart, high status, confident, strong, good with women, happy, hard working, productive, great social skills etc.

My construction job isn’t conducive to this, being surrounded by miserable double digit iq alcoholics, drug addicts, ex criminals and just generally low value people isn’t helping me. And I spend the majority of my day around these people. So whether I like it or not, I’m being programmed by this environment.

My family, love them to death; are not on the same wavelength as me. They’re content living normal 9-5, get drunk on weekends, watch football/hockey, save money for retirement, drive an average car, relax all the time. I’ve been programmed by this my whole life and it’s not conducive to who I am becoming.

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My social media consumption: I stay away from clown world topics like the Qobid, left wing vs right wing, racism, the rainbow/alphabet people, people who cry about their mental health etc. All it does is drag you down, lower your vibration. And I don’t need that crap in my life.

Even this forum. I did a cost/benefit analysis of every social media app I use and concluded that this forum is a net negative. Reason being is not because of the forum itself, but how I ā€œusedā€ it.

If I just sit around on this forum and constantly read the sub topics and other people’s journals, then they’re programming me; for better or for worse. When they cry and recon post about their deepest struggles, that drags me down. That lowers my vibration, it steals my energy and power. And I’m no saint, I’m guilty of doing it myself. I sometimes read my old post and cringe so hard, the feeling of disgust I have for my past self is hard to reconcile. But it’s a part of my journey and I think it’s an important metric of growth. So I leave it up.

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My journal is very personal to me. I post for me and if someone can find value in what I say then great. If not, whatever. However, I’m going to stop posting negative stuff. Like recon posting, and stuff like that. If I’m going to wine and be an emotional baby, I’ll do it in a private journal. I want to stay true to my beliefs, and if I’m going to curate a reality of positivity and uplifting surroundings, it’s only right that my contributions to this forum follow the same guidelines.

So I won’t be reading journals going forwards. I may check on a few people I know and respect from time to time, but I don’t see and net positive to reading through people’s journals anymore. (Not that I ever did that before anyways lol)

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This also plays into my results with QL. (St2 currently)

I’ve struggled a-lot with social media consumption, mindless scrolling etc. Now, I’m not as bad as most: - I’ve never had TikTok

  • I don’t spend time watching people’s IG stories or Snapchat stories.
  • I don’t play video games,
  • I don’t watch twitch
  • I rarely watch Netflix
  • The YouTube videos I watch tend to be more educational rather than mindless entertainment.
  • I spend less than 5 mins a day on IG

I believe my main issue with social media is that I’m always hungry for information. And the internet contains LIMITLESS information.

Like I need to be learning new things all the time or else I get so bored with my life. So sometimes I’ll seek out information, a lightbulb moment will happen and before I fully implement the knowledge or advice… I’m already onto another topic. And by doing this, I’m only half way implementing these useful mindset shifts, habits, ideas etc. So I don’t get very far. So I think it’s important that Im more conscious of my social media usage. I should focus on one thing and really make sure I implement it before moving on. Use it as a tool, not a feel good, escapist, dopamine addiction.

Back to QL, yesterday I didn’t check social media in the morning. For the first time in a while and I was SUPER PRODUCTIVE. I mean, I didn’t check social media for 5-6 hours. I focused on my online course, did the work and even sat and listened to a related podcast after. Like literally sat there staring out my window listening to a podcast for 40 minutes and didn’t lose focus once. Usually I’d have to be doing something else while listening, or I’d get bored within 5 minutes and start scolding Twitter.

But yesterday I was on fire, despite the fact that I had drank a bunch the night before at thanksgiving dinner (yes it’s thanksgiving in Canada). Usually my productivity is shit after drinking that much.

Now, I did take noopept that day. So it’s certainly the main factor, however the nootropic didn’t make me avoid social media first thing in the morning, it didn’t make me decide to try and work despite being a bit hungover (and sick with a cold), it didn’t make me skip breakfast and fast w black coffee to skyrocket my energy and focus.

Last time I took noopept, I had covid and was stuck inside my room for a week. In that time I wrote over 70 pages of notes for a course on how to grow your online brand, how to create an audience and sell digital products. So despite being sick, I was the most productive I’ve ever been.

Now with QL, it’s been amplified. Noopept with quantum limitless is even more effective. It’s actually unreal. I’m like a completely different person internally. (Khan st1 has a lot to do with this too) It’s like my brain just got a new update and I’ve just taken a quantum leap into a new and improved reality.

I know I’m spam journaling, but I’m in the mood. Guess that happens to me when I don’t journal for a whole week :upside_down_face:

I’ve been thinking a lot about how I’ve been influenced growing up. And I begin to notice a trend. Whoever I’m surrounded by consistently, I began acting just like them. That goes for friends, movies, even music. I would unconsciously copy other people’s mannerisms and add it to my own repertoire of ā€œismsā€.

  • Like my resting ā€œannoyedā€ face, learned behaviour from watching the terminator movies.

  • My intensity in the gym, learned behaviour from watching pumping iron

  • saying ā€œbruh and brahā€ all the time, a learned behaviour from watching 2 fast 2 furious on all my long childhood camping road trips. (S/o Roman Pierce, ā€œlike i said… we hounngy brahhā€ :rofl:

  • My calm, analytical demeanour, from watching Prison break 4-5 times (S/o Michael, I knew you didn’t die after season 4)

  • My sometimes odd sense of humour, a childhood best friend.

  • My playfully confrontational and antagonistic ways, learned behaviour from my hockey teammates and seeing my parents argue my whole life… yeah its not always good :sweat:

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I can confirm, @Matalexander305 doesn’t speak much but when he does it’s a compilation of bruh, brah, bro, i love you, that girl is hot or my favorite of all nah with a gangster voice.

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Yeah like this 24/7

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Anyways, I’ve always been very impressionable. Very programable, for better or for worse. This is due to my very open minded nature. And I’ve began thinking about all the times I’ve taken advice from people and it ended up hurting me. Or caused me to make the wrong decision.

2 common themes:

  1. They’re people I wouldn’t want to be like.

Not to say that i don’t like them as a person. But if you asked me ā€œWould you trade places with X personā€ I’d say ABSOLUTELY MFING HELL NOā€ So why did I take their advice….??? Foolish

  1. Young people.

Young people, especially men think they know everything. They think they have it all figured out. Until 6 months later, and they do a compete 180 on an opinion they had. And that’s okay, but if you went around preaching it to the choir only to pull a complete 180… then you clearly didn’t think it though and shouldn’t have been running your mouth to begin with. Walking around voicing half ass opinions is worse than saying nothing at all.

Young people completely lack wisdom and it only comes with age and experience. You can be 22 and claim to be wise, but you’re not. Now you maybe wiser than your relative age group but that’s not what I’m talking about. Being young is the time to humble yourself and learn from your superiors. It’s what every great man before you did. Success leaves a crumb trail…

So if you’re young, accept that you don’t know anything. (Even me) I say this as a 22 year old. The older I get, the more I shut up and humble myself. That way, I can learn. When I see someone who has what I want, I listen and do as they say. Even if I think I know better, look at my life? What are the results of thinking for myself? Mediocre at best. Every time i’ve humbled myself and did what X person who has what I want says… I get amazing results.

People always say to me ā€œYou’re so quietā€ and I just say ā€œyeah, I don’t know much about Xā€. Most of the time, you better believe I know tons about X. But I know I don’t know enough, and my opinion doesn’t matter unless it’s:

  1. Well thought out
  2. I can properly articulate it.

I cannot walk around with half ass opinions. I need to know everything about X, before I go and run my mouth trying to tell other my opinions let alone give them advice. This one of the reasons I don’t discuss politics, I don’t study it enough. I know tons about it, but not enough. And it’s not a priority for me. So when the topic comes up, I shut up.

More on this…

My physique is one of my greatest assets. I earned it by listening to the best of the best. By doing what they said to do. Not my walking into the gym and picking up random weight and ā€œhmmm…. This machine looks interesting.ā€ ā€œI worked really hard yesterday, I deserve a break todayā€ ā€œVector cereal says it’s high in protein, I’m gonna eat that everydayā€

If I did that, I would’ve failed to build a nice physique. Instead, I built it though blood sweat and tears, through careful study, and deliberate action.

I found the best teachers, people who had what I wanted and I leaned EVERYTHING they knew and did. And what did I do… exactly that.

I talk a lot, you just haven’t seen that side of me yet :wink:

Anyways I’m done spar journaling for the night, needed to write all that down and get it off my mind.

Thanks for coming to my Ted talk

I feel amazing today, my brain is beyond firing on all cyclinders. It’s like I ditched a base model v6 got a brand new V8 under the hood.

My focus is great, my thinking is fast and efficient, I can quickly access learned knowledge at a whim (even things I forgot about), my decisions are quick and accurate. And even my thinking has more depth to it, I have better ideas, better ways of implementing knowledge I’ve acquired. (And I didn’t even take noopept today)

Ql st2 has surpassed my expectations so far. And I’ve only ran 3 loops…

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I’ve begun implementing the idea of being a professional. Coined by Tate of course. The idea is to be competent, do things in a conscious and calculated way and to always know what you are doing. Take the guess work and the randomness out of life.

So say Andrew Tate forgot his keys, he will now punish himself by not driving one of his super cars for the day.

A small mistake, but professionals don’t forget their keys. An amateur does. Which one do you want to be? Which one is more respected? Which one gets the girls? Which one has high status friends and mentors? The slob, or the man who thinks, and knows what he’s doing at all times?