What am I getting at with this whole escapism thing, itās my automatic go to. Itās my emergency off button. When I feel like I canāt handle something, I immediately detach in one way or another.
Luckily Iāve gotten rid of my more toxic way of doing this, but itās still present in my daily life. And I think itās a problem
Reminds me of a funny time when I told @GoldenTiger I would punch him if he ever smokes weed again. He laugh, I didnāt and since then he hasnāt touched weed yet 
Yes Iām a good friend who cares about their health but sometimes people need a little nudge to go in the right direction 
If Iām being honest more then 50% of people in our day in age would be toxic so itās nothing be surprised by. Like I always tell you I have a bunch of people I know and a big social circle but people I really consider friends? That number would be 2 compared to the 20+ people I know and hang out with from time to time because of different values and I know some for a fact weāre toxic in the past. I have one rule and itās been serving me well. If a girl or a friend has ever hurt me in the past (Toxic or otherwise), I will by no circumstances be friends with them ever again even if they changed. Same thing with girls Iāve had girls that weāre attractive in the past and are attractive now but hurt me (And when I mean hurt I donāt mean rejection I mean pain pain) who I will never ever date or even have fun with no matter how much they love me because they had their chance and they decided to play with it so in return I wonāt give them the time of day nor will I care (Most of the time I will just leave them on read or block them).
To some this might seem harsh but in our generation (Gen Z) itās either I trust you and we go through life together and help each other become successful or you hurt me/your toxic and weāre never going to be close ever again even if you say you āchangedā.
Yoo thatās facts,
Exactly, theirs a lot of toxic ppl our age now a days. So many never wanna see you succeed, so theyāll do their best to drag you down (even if theyāre not aware of it). Thatās another big part of my story, people who I thought were my friends all stabbed me in the back, never cared, never reached out when I was clearly not well.
I can count on one hand all my real friends, and I think itāll always be that way
Itās funny, @Vesper mentioned something about smoking not being cool. And it made me ponder what makes something ācoolā?
Then this video popped into my feed, and it explains a lotā¦ things I already subconsciously did.
Itās not what you do, itās how you do it.
If you do any type of smoking itās still not cool
Itās why you do it that matters.
Actually I found a good video that explain this by MPMD (Not relating to smoking but relating to the misunderstood idea of what guys think will get a girl when in reality it wouldnāt):
And this one which goes back to my point where you shouldnāt buy stuff because you think girls will like you for it. If you want to buy something buy it because you truly want it:
Me neither haha
Is it weird that the girl looks like a girl who use to have a crush on me 
Lolll
Forgot to mention yesterday, when I was walking out of the gym. There was a dude standing at the trunk of his car grabbing his gym stuff. When I looked up at him he was already staring right at me in this almost fascinated way. Very strange. He just froze.
Then when I got in my car, I rolled down all the windows, put on my sunglasses and started queuing a few songs on my phone. While I was doing this I looked up and their was a women staring right at me with that same look. She just froze and stared at me like I was an alien. (A hot one 
)
Both happened within two minutes of one another.
Alright gentlemen @Vesper @GoldenTiger
Letās get this out of the wayā¦
In T minus 5 days, weāre going to a music festival. A Latin music festival
That means you better dance (or at least try)
Get in front of that mirror and practise 
Man you guys are so hyped 
So me and my SC twin are going through it:
It was a mix of blame. I had a part to play, and so did they. For years Iāve resented most of these people, but today I forgave them. And in the process, forgave myself. I no longer care about it, Iām grown now. Lifeās too short to hold stupid grudges. If I see any of these people while out and about (and I will), Iām going to be my true self, kind, charming funnyā¦ but this time, Strong, authentic strength and self respect No more Mr. āIām trying to intimidate you so you so
How is your Custom going?
Iām feeling an extremly intense yearning to be with a certain girl right now. One that I canāt quite be with forā¦ well reasons.
Idk why, I randomly thought about her and now I canāt stop. Itās actually messing with my focus at work. Everytime I think of her I get flashbacks of our romantic encounters and it turns my stomach into a mess, a beautiful messā¦if you know what I mean
Wanted, wtf are you doing to me?
I know why this is happening but I shall keep it a secret hehe
Quit playing around with minds eye smh
