Reclaiming my power - A Journal by MatAlexander305

That’s why I made it 5 parts, to trick your brain into not getting bored…

Maybe limitless is working for you? Hmm :thinking:

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I will be honest and pleas don’t kill me…

I only read the important words from that post. In other words, I sped read it:)

I guess we will never know :slightly_smiling_face:

Woah woah woah, that escalated quickly.

I need some bleach, for my eyes, my ears… and my soul

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Ahhh, I see you’re one of those. I tried speed reading, but I’m too attentive to detail. I can’t stick with it.

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Since when did you become funny?

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Evil laugh

That was plan plan all along muahhaha

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I know you didn’t train abs today, doing you a favour… that’s all

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P.S I did legs :roll_eyes:

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So did I, and I trained abs mwaahahahaha

Excellent story @Plutus i like the narrative. You have excellent writing skills.

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Last night was decent. Every weekday, I’m up at 5am, so when they said we’d be going downtown for 10, I was like ā€œwell shit, this isn’t going to end goodā€.

By the time we got to the bar, it was 11, I thought to myself ā€œI’ll stay an hour then leaveā€. I had 2 drinks, then my friend blacked out and started acting dumb as he always does. So I spent a while looking for him. In the meantime,

These two girls were there, and left. My female friend (the one and only) smirked and told me one of them was looking for me; this one:

I guess wanted is working, this girl seems to be chasing me. But I don’t really want her. My standards are much higher than that. Building on that point, there were two girls sitting at a table in front of us. They were hot asf. Like really beautiful.

Pt 2

(Side note)

These two girls who I previously called ā€œmaddd fineā€. I changed my opinion, they’re not. They’re actually kinda trashy tbh. Funny how quick you standards change when you realize your worth.

So back to the other two ACTUALLY fine girls, I caught one looking at me a few times. Eventually they made their way over to our table. I was sitting next to my female friend who is 1. Freaking gorgeous, and 2. Has a boyfriend who is with us. I guess they assumed we were dating. Anyways they talk to her a bunch and the girl that was eyeing me earlier didn’t even look at me. Everyone besides me talked to her. She introduced herself to me and that was it.

I watched her talk to my friends a bit and grew disinterested. She seemed like that kind of rowdy country girl type, it was very evident, especially when she started singing to a Carrie Underwood song. (lol) Everyone seemed entranced by them, but I was eyeing the bartender. She was a Latina, (ofc lol). I could tell that country girl was watching me, I was the only one that didn’t seem impressed by them. The wanted aura was in full effect.

Anyways, I planned on being home by like 12:30. Obviously that didn’t happen, I got home around 2:00am… and I gotta be up for 5am :slight_smile:

I slept in an hour, got to work late. Oddly enough, I felt pretty good. But time seemed warped, it was a strange experience. Anyways, I’m gonna keep my partying to strictly weekends now :sweat_smile:

Also, I think this is because of wanted. But my face is sore.

And I didn’t even get slapped this time, so? :thinking:

Seems Wanted is working good alongside your Stark Custom.

Their are a lot of famous people who also have an air of mysteriousness. Famous but not well-known.

It is an interesting and attractive combination.

Actually the Stark aura is so inviting, and everywhere I went people knew me and approached me, waved, smiled it has a celebrity effect even those guys you once met but don’t really know tried their best to know you lol

Wanted can add like an edge of mysteriousness to it where you are famous but at the same time an enigma interesting…

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Indeed, I enjoy it a lot :wink:

Can confirm, although I think I subconsciously resist this. I’m not someone that smiles all the time, I have a very serious and almost intimidating look on my face. It’s just how I’ve always been. So when I’m not smiling, people stare but they seem nervous around me.

When I smile, the world just opened up to me.

Wait… who? when?

Right up my alley :slight_smile:

Pt1

My parents are out of town this weekend, so I’ve got the house to myself. My sister worked till 10 yesterday, and since my father isn’t home. I had to pick her up.

On the way back, their was a really slow driver so I passed him safely and legally. As I’m doing it, he starts yelling very angrily at me, then speeds up…

My heart kind of dropped, I’ve never had an experience like that. I thought he was going to follow us or something. Luckily he didn’t. Anyways, I say this because my primal urge to protect my sister came out immediately. Though I was a bit frightened, I still remained level headed and immediately decided my emergency plan on spot.

It was a weird experience, because my initial internal reaction was that of a scared little boy, but I immediately shifted my mindset to that of a protective, strong man. It just made me realize, I’m no longer a kid, I’m not a teenager. I’m a man now. I need to start thinking like one.

Pt 2

I get home, my friends want to go downtown and party. They were about to call an Uber, so I was right on time. Since i was sober at 10:30 pm on a Friday (which is almost never the case lol), I downed a shot of Wray and Nephew (IYKYK), and poured two shots of jack in a can of Coke Zero and walked over.

I get there and I forgot… my dog was at his house
(My parents are split, and my mom has the dog. But I’m at my dads this week. So his dog and my dog had a little sleep over haha)

I get there, chug a white claw with my two friends, bring two more cause booze is f*cking expensive and I can’t spend money like an idiot all the time. We get to the bar, and our ā€œfriendā€ (who’s a chick) has three other beautiful ladies with her.

We sit down, talk, blah blah blah and there she goes again… ā€œHow do you not have a girlfriend? You’re so fucking hot, look at those perfect teeth, you’re funny, you’re smart, what’s not to love?ā€. I swear she asked me the exact same question last week… guess she’s really curious about me. Hmm? Anyways, all her friends thought the same :wink:

At one point, she looks at me while I’m staring off into the distance and says ā€œMat, smile.ā€ You have mad resting (insert derogatory synonym for female dog) face, me and (insert Thomas the tank girls name here) were taking about how it’s lowkey intimidating but it’s kinda sexy.ā€

I recall later that night, one of her friends caught me doing it again and said ā€œyou look like you’re either pissed off or having the time of your lifeā€. Lmao, I think I need to work on this resting (insert derogatory synonym for female dog) face. I think I’d attract a lot more positive attention from women and men this way. Make more friends, meet more chicks etc. I’ll keep this in mind going forward.

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