One Journal (Current Stack: Rebirth (ZP) + Chosen From Within (ZP))

Journals - Major Programs
#4

Day 2

Subliminal: Processing Day
Exercise: Conditioning (kettlebell swings and ab wheel)
Reading: Personality Isn’t Permanent (progress: p53 of 192)
Diet: :white_check_mark:
Cold Shower: :white_check_mark:
NoFap: :white_check_mark:

Not a bad day yesterday, I was busy and ended up hungry after dinner but I didn’t eat. I’ve been eating primal foods for over a month and am used to it, but I cut back to two meals, without snacks, to help get in shape.

The book is good, it discusses dealing with the past to avoid it shaping the future and instead use future ideals to influence the present. Rebirth seems like such a good fit, as I do my best to gain an understanding from the book. I have a trick where I read the e-book and at the same time I listen to the audiobook at 1.5x speed to stay focused and absorb the information better.

I’ll be around a bunch of people today, so it will be a good opportunity to take action. Unfortunately, I spent most of last year in a job that you could almost get away with only grunting, plus I worked a lot on my own, so my environment catered to my weakness, which is a social aversion. I don’t expect to do a complete 180 in this regard, but I want to practice pushing myself outside of my comfort zone this year.

I think the combination of subliminals, reading / learning, and taking action is going to work. I also have a strong desire to get in the best health possible, because I know being lean definitely makes everything else in life easier (physically, socially, mentally). Such a long post, I didn’t know I had it in me! Go Daredevil!

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#5

Day 3

Subliminal: Listening Day
Exercise: Circuit (squat, upper pull, upper push and hinge)
Reading: Personality Isn’t Permanent (progress: p66 of 192)
Diet: :white_check_mark:
Cold Shower: :white_check_mark:
NoFap: :white_check_mark:

I had opportunities for socialising yesterday and although I could have pushed myself more, I did have a good day with little anxiety. I did extra exercise, swimming some laps at the pool and late afternoon I had sex with wife, observing some good staying power. I wonder if this comes from Daredevil because I had a similar orgasm control experience in the past when running Sex Mastery X (Qv2). Just imagine how potent a stack of Daredevil, Wanted and Sex Mastery would be.

I’ll take it easy today, stay home and try to do some extra reading because I am getting more into the book. I’ll have to start thinking about what to read next and this year, I will try to link each book’s content to my current subliminal stack. I hope to get back into money making mode, but I need to hold out and see what the governments have planned. I can’t see this year being great, with governments being stricter and crazier than ever in Australia, but I do have personal projects to keep myself busy and the ability to generate an income that maintains a reasonable standard of living.

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#6

That sounds amazing

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#7

Day 4

Subliminal: Processing Day
Exercise: Conditioning (kettlebell swings and ab wheel)
Reading: Personality Isn’t Permanent (progress: p98 of 192)
Diet: :white_check_mark:
Cold Shower: :white_check_mark:
NoFap: :white_check_mark:

I’m still having a lot of dreams on this stack. I remembered a dream I had just before I woke this morning, where I was at a park, possibly with my kids, and there was this blonde lady that I kept looking at. She eventually locked eyes and I could not tell straight away if she was happy or mad that I was staring at her, but she smiled and gave a little wave saying “hi”, in a way that implied she was thinking “why haven’t you come over to talk to me yet?”. I said hi back and asked her how she was going, then I noticed that my parents-in-law were standing next to me, and I could tell they were disapproving. I hesitated and wondered how I could deal with this situation, wishing they weren’t there.

This subliminal stack, I don’t notice much or any reconciliation throughout the day. In fact I have been quite productive. I have been going to bed early and getting most daily goals done early in the morning, such as subliminals, journal writing, stretching and exercise, cold showers, food preparation. I also started this week, a “two a day” list; where I write down two simple tasks in the morning e.g. organise tools, wash clothes, mow lawns, maintenance jobs aka fix what kids break, basically jobs that are not difficult but easy to put off. I feel a sense of satisfaction completing the tasks, as if I am slowly chipping away at stone to create a statue, but more than likely it simply feels good to stay on top of things.

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#8

Day 5

Subliminal: Listening Day
Exercise: Circuit (squat, upper pull, upper push and hinge)
Reading: Personality Isn’t Permanent (progress: p106 of 192)
Diet: :white_check_mark:
Cold Shower: :white_check_mark:
NoFap: :negative_squared_cross_mark:

Yesterday was a good day. I was very talkative, almost manic. Unfortunately, I stayed up late and watched porn, which stole some energy from today. I don’t even like the stuff to be honest, so I’m not sure why I watch it every 3-5 days on average, but I will do my best not to do it again during this stack cycle. It’s the weekend now, I’ll take a few days off workouts and regroup somewhat mentally for next week. I also have a feeling that an extra processing day would be beneficial, meaning one day of listening followed by two days of processing, but I’ll stick to the general instructions for this cycle and consider that later.

#9

Day 6

Subliminal: Processing Day
Exercise: Rest
Reading: Personality Isn’t Permanent (progress: complete)
Diet: :white_check_mark:
Cold Shower: :white_check_mark:
NoFap: :white_check_mark:

I finished reading the book yesterday, and it was a good one. So good, that I’ll start the book’s journal prompts that I believe will build a solid foundation as I reinvent myself. I won’t do the journal writing here, as it will be personal, instead I’ll use a notebook and pen, but I will add the task to the online daily goal list starting Monday (day 8). I’m doing well with the goals and I don’t think this extra one will do any harm as I plan to write in the journal at night after a cold shower and before going to bed. As I work through that, I’m going to re-read “The Obstacle is The Way” because it’s an inspiring book that should gel well with the journal work from “Personality Isn’t Permanent”.

A few other changes for next week: I will cut back workout days from 5 to 3, but still do same work, adding conditioning after the strength. I’m also adjusting the subliminal listening schedule and plan to follow this:

It’s not an officially tested schedule, but I think it will work well, for the reasons that it is a simplified routine, and because I believe it will be a more appropriate exposure level for me. I was meant to run loops again this morning, but my head feels full after many jolting and meaningful dreams last night. This subliminal combination of Rebirth and Daredevil is my most challenging ZP experience yet.

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#10

Title edit:

I changed the journal title because I decided to stick with one journal for all stacks this year (updating part of the title when I switch stacks) and make it more of an action taking accountability log, because that’s where I generally fall flat when I attempt to make change with the assistance of subliminal audio. I self-sabotage and fall back into old patterns instead of pushing forward into new territory so to speak. I think that Rebirth is really kicking my arse this week and making me reconsider where I’ve been, where I’m at, and where I’m going.

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#11

Day 7

Subliminal: Processing Day
Exercise: Rest
Reading: :white_check_mark:
Diet: :white_check_mark:
Cold Shower: :white_check_mark:
NoFap: :white_check_mark:

The final entry for week 1. The extra processing day seemed to provide more room to think clearly. My confidence when talking to people has increased and my general anxiety has decreased - at least for today anyway!

I picked up an A4 notepad for the journal writing that I’ll start tomorrow. I have plenty of A5 notepads, that I use to be organised, but a larger notepad should make a better journal.

Next week is planned out, having stacked goals into a morning (meditation, reading, exercise) and an evening routine (cold shower, meditation, journal). I will do two meditation sessions per day, 10 minutes (guided) each, to help improve focus. Because of this addition - as a way to avoid overload; I’ll check in here weekly, instead of daily. I know web forums become a time sink for me, so I’m best to avoid the internet, at least until all the important tasks are done.

This subliminal stack is definitely weird, it’s like I have the confidence and drive I would expect from Emperor, hell I even want to switch to Emperor, but why should I when this one seems to be working so well?

Normally I’d post this daily report tomorrow, but I want Monday to be a fresh start with less online time. If I somehow PMO tonight or have a binge eating episode, then I will return and edit the checked goals :wink: But I think I will be all OK.

Until next week…

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#12

Thats great man! I do sometimes notice that some early big results are somewhat unstable, but it never takes long for them to really stabilize. So even if it does go away for a bit, dont worry, itll come back even stronger than ever😉.

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#13

Definitely interesting stack. I am sure the results will be insane in a week or two. Can’t wait to see how the daredevil inside of you evolves.

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#14

THIS!!

One of the weirdest effects ever is justifying a subliminal switch because your current stack is going so well.

I switched from mogul to emperor because, and I quote, “mogul is perfect, and emperor has mogul, so it must be even better!”

I got some major benefit out of emperor, but I’m back to Mogul now.

This stack is going really well, keep it up!

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#15

I’m also very interested in doing Rebirth + Daredevil. Primarily because I need a vehicle to apply Primal Seduction but am not chatty or initiating at all due to my past.

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#16

Rebirth + Daredevil

Week 2 Mon Tue Wed Thu Fri Sat Sun
Subliminal :white_check_mark: :heavy_minus_sign: :white_check_mark: :heavy_minus_sign: :white_check_mark: :heavy_minus_sign: :heavy_minus_sign:
Workout :white_check_mark: :heavy_minus_sign: :white_check_mark: :heavy_minus_sign: :negative_squared_cross_mark: :heavy_minus_sign: :heavy_minus_sign:
Reading :white_check_mark: :white_check_mark: :white_check_mark: :white_check_mark: :negative_squared_cross_mark: :negative_squared_cross_mark: :negative_squared_cross_mark:
Journal :white_check_mark: :white_check_mark: :white_check_mark: :negative_squared_cross_mark: :negative_squared_cross_mark: :white_check_mark: :white_check_mark:
Meditation :white_check_mark: :white_check_mark: :white_check_mark: :white_check_mark: :negative_squared_cross_mark: :white_check_mark: :white_check_mark:
Cold Shower :white_check_mark: :white_check_mark: :white_check_mark: :white_check_mark: :white_check_mark: :white_check_mark: :white_check_mark:
Diet :white_check_mark: :negative_squared_cross_mark: :white_check_mark: :white_check_mark: :white_check_mark: :white_check_mark: :white_check_mark:
NoFap :white_check_mark: :white_check_mark: :white_check_mark: :white_check_mark: :white_check_mark: :white_check_mark: :white_check_mark:

:white_check_mark: = Pass
:negative_squared_cross_mark: = Fail
:heavy_minus_sign: = Rest

Hopefully the table meets your browser well, it’s looking good on my end at least. Thanks too for the comments guys, I appreciate the support and it helps me to stay on course.

So week 2…

I hit some strong reconciliation for several days that presented itself in feelings of despair. I pushed through, but I will need to reduce the frequency of some weekly goals, as I feel overwhelmed by them when I hit a rough patch.

I decided to re-read “Personality Isn’t Permanent” while I work through the journal prompts from the book. It’s a lot more in-depth than I anticipated and I want to work through the book and questioning multiple times until my goal and purpose is understood and internalised. The combination of the journal work with the rebirth subliminal is potent to say the least. I have been having crazy dreams, some even violent, that feel like I am shedding layers of old self-beliefs to provide the room I need to grow.

In a way, it’s like this current path has chosen me, more than I chose it. Perhaps that is the ZP magic. Reconciliation aside, my anxiety has been low, and I am releasing the need to care what people think of me on a deeper level. My confidence was sky high on Sunday (second processing day), and it does make me wonder if my earlier thought of a one day listening followed by two day processing schedule could be optimal for me. I like the current schedule for its simplicity and lower frequency, but the loops hit me hard, and on Friday I was not enthusiastic for the final listening day of the week.

My goals for this week are the same, but I reduced the frequency of some to avoid overloading myself, which triggers a desire to give up on the process (past experiences).

Week 3 Goals:

  • Subliminal: 2 days (washout week)
  • Workout: 3 days
  • Reading: 3 days
  • Journal: 3 days
  • Meditation: 7 days
  • Cold Shower: 7 days
  • Diet: 7 days
  • NoFap: 7 days
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#17

Table looks great! See it clear on my end. Nice tracker.

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#18

Oh good stuff.

If anyone is interested, I used this site to generate the table:

https://www.tablesgenerator.com/markdown_tables

I created the table size I needed, entered the data, including emojis, into the cells before saving the table locally to file. Each week, I only need to load the table from file and adjust whatever is needed, before I copy / paste it to forum.

Throughout the week, I keep track of goals with pen and paper in an A5 notebook.

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#19

I missed the week 3 table, but completed the week and washout. It was funny how it all came about because I decided to start a new cycle with “Rebirth + Chosen From Within” and as soon as I ran this, I had no inspiration at all for this journal or anything.

I also decided to go again with the 1 day on, 1 day off, 21 day cycle followed by 5 washout days for this cycle. It’s not as neat for other weekly goal setting tasks, but I guess CFW shows me that making sure all the right objects fit in all the right holes doesn’t matter that much.

CFW is difficult one though, I feel like I am shell shocked most of the time, a little depressed, a weird type of anxiety that I only remember from my teenage years, combining with a complete lack of energy and motivation. It sounds bad, but I can also sense that it is a good thing too.

I’m also doing early daily reading, rather than 3 times per week, of “Personality Isn’t Permanent” and completing the journal prompt questions from the book. It’s a potent combination Rebirth / CFW + the conscious, basically psychology work. I took a break from it today because I needed extra sleep but I am still feeling pretty exhausted from the process.

My new weekly goals are:

  • Wake early
  • Subliminal
  • Reading
  • Journal
  • Meditation
  • Diet

I’m still doing cold showers, and when possible; exercising, but I’m prioritising the list above during this cycle. I’m also restarting NoFap, it’s been a bit of train wreck, lots of PMO relapses probably as a way to deal with the negative emotions. Although it’s not as great as some imagine, I was feeling better on NoFap so I will restart the effort.

#20

I should also recap Daredevil ZP. Compared to the Q version, which I could not run due to the worst reconciliation, this one was a lot smoother. I think I could have got results with it, had I taken more rest days. There were days when the need to care what people thought of me was reduced to zero, but then all the anxieties came back when reconciliation began, and I felt rigid and shut off from people.

So, I ended that experiment because even though it’s a lot smoother in the ZP format, it still does not gel that well with me. I decided, now that I have focus on offline journal work, in an attempt to accept my past and work towards my future, the combination of Rebirth + CFW might be appropriate.

I know Rebirth is working well because last week I was not attaching negative emotions to thoughts from the past. And I honestly did not realise how much I do this, possibly due to a lack of mindfulness, until it stopped. It’s very freeing. This week I have been hammered emotionally since starting the new stack, but it feels more like growing pains than reconciliation.

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#21

Week 1 (Rebirth + Chosen From Within)

I wrote a bunch of waffle but decided to delete it. This stack is a rough ride but it should be worth it. The offline journal work continues, being brutally honest with myself is not easy but I can’t hide forever behind self destructive and self limiting behaviours.

I also decided to take on several 90 day challenges, rather than the weekly goals. I think the challenge aspect will be more motivating.

Until next week…

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#22

Week 2 (Rebirth + Chosen From Within)

Hey again. This week has been all over the place. I still write in my offline journal and face the harsh truths of my past to help stop them from holding me back anymore. I have a time distortion problem running this stack. I know it is one week since I last posted, but a part of me feels like it is months. It’s a strange occurrence that is difficult to explain.

I am looking forward to ending this stack. Not because it’s no good, as it could be one of the best yet. But it is so draining, taking a lot of energy away from other activities. I have however stuck with all the daily goals and am noticing the efforts paying off in small ways. This subliminal combination is definitely not helping my social anxiety, but I’m hoping the inner work could pay off in the long run for the social related issues.

I think sometimes about my next stack. I might give both of these subliminals a rest. I have been running Rebirth in combination with other subliminals for a while now and I think it’s time for a break. I have no idea what to run and I need to delve back into the journal work based on my ideal future self. A part of me wants to run Primal / Wanted just to be the cool guy, another part of me wants to get back into Emperor for the motivation / drive, but then I think that the subliminal which most matches my future self is Chosen. I could even run Chosen on its own.

I will start using the weekly goal tracking table again next stack. I keep hand written notes but as soon as I listened to CFW, I lost the motivation to post the results here. CFW has probably worked on something where I do things to impress others more than to improve myself. I’m working on things for myself now more than ever, CFW is helping to heal some inner issues and it results in me looking after myself better.

One more week to go then I’ll start a 5 day washout. I’m going to finish off strong on this one, keeping the journal writing going and continue working on the other daily goals too.

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#23

CFW has Regeneration program’s elements in it. It might be draining. You could run it once or twice a week, and notice if that helps feel less draining.

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