Once again I want to say thank you to everyone for replying and sharing your own experiences.
It’s shown me that perhaps all this reconciliation, fatigue, and moodiness (it hadn’t hit before, but oh boy has it hit today), are pushing me towards realizing that the way I live and am now is not compatible with the image of the man I want to be, as Stark dictates I become.
This journey will require a lot more introspection, but I am glad I have the forum to help me through it.
To keep the post on-topic as well, oh boy is Qv2 working fast. In the past my reconciliation came in the form of wanting to change subs or stop using them altogether, but now it seems that the sub is reaching deeper and the reconciliation hooks into actual issues rather than seeping in through the surface over time.