Quantum Berserker 🗡️🛡️

Journals - Major Programs
#49

Dream results:

When i served at the military iwas very mentally weak, timid and fearful, one of the guys who served with me bullied me really hard for 1 year and i eas scared shitless from him.

In my dream we met all the friends from military and we bumped into each other, i felt kinda of scared for a second and than i thought to myself “tf am i scared of? This skinny ugly mf? I can beat him up if i want to” so i went to shake his hand and he literally avoided me, he couldn’t look in my eyes, i tried to shake his hand again, and again he avoided me.

Weird dream, sometimes i wish i could meet him again and beat him up, more than all of the bullies i had during school, he was the worst, he humiliated me so many times i just wanted to kill myself.

So if i really see him in feal life, i dont know how i would react, will i lash out in anger and beat him up? Will i still be afraid of him? Will i just pretend nothing happened? Will i shake his hand? How will he react to me? Will he keep bullying me? I don’t know.

I hope i never see him again but at the same time i want to see him again.

#50

Bro, i make 9000nis a month, if i eat 1kg of ground beef per day it’s 1400nis a month, than i have 7600nis left a month, i dont have any other expenses other than a little bit of gas money for my sister’s car (we drive together to work) and every few months on supplements.

So even if i eat carnivore i can keep at least 7k every month, so im going to start carnivore probably next week.

4 Likes
#52

Which sub do you think helped with this? Asking because I have very similar problem.

1 Like
#53

Could be QL because of the hormonal balance amd nervous system regeneration + stopping mind chatter but i also think i read somewhere that all new subliminals have sleep support or maybe it was only emperor but i could be wrong.

1 Like
#54

I also noticed an increase in sleep quality since starting emperor

3 Likes
#56

Had a really good dream tonight, in my dream i had sex with the hottest girl in my highschool, during highschool i always wanted her but i was not a guy who could attract women back then.

Probably a KB dream, i wonder what it means.

Now I can’t stop thinking about her, it felt really weird to kiss my gf goodbye this morning and telling her that i love her because i feel like i cheated on her.

Main Disc. Thread - Khan Black: The Crucible (Custom Core Now Available!)
#57

I don’t know what to do with my life, I don’t like to do anything and im not passionate about nothing.

I feel like my life is pointless.

#58

I just realized i reconnected with something i used to do all of the time when i was a child, i strated doodling on a paper at my office and i forgot how much i like it.

I used to draw all day every day when i was little, than I stopped because i draw like shit and I got other interests.

But now im doodling shit on the paper and it’s so fun to just express myself with those drawings.

I don’t feel like it something i will just do at my house when im bored but it’s fun to do during work when there is nothing to do amd already a pen and paper infront of me.

1 Like
#59

I started the carnivore diet today

Daily routine:

  • 1kg Ground Beef
  • 2 caps of MushRex
  • TONS of Salt

Maybe some eggs sometimes

Waiting for my Boron supplement to arrive

2 Likes
#60

My dad gave me a version of the Bible with extreme details of what happened, it’s going to be interesting

#61

Have you ordered your mushrooms from Hyperion herbs?

#62

I will order them when i finish the mushroom blend i have now, it’s probably to high quality like hyperion but I already bought it

#63

But be aware of customs, you may be paying more than for only products.
I do not know about Israel, but here in Europe in my country, everything from the US has to go through customs.
Btw just ordered Mucuna and Gynostemma from there.

#64

The customs in israel are 17% if the package is more than 75$ and if it’s less than there is no customs.

I will probably not order all of the mushrooms i said im going to order, i will start with only 2.

Black ant/Nettle root for testosterone and energy and Reishi/Gynostemma for sleep

Nice, keep me updated on your results :grin:

1 Like
#65

From those, I would choose Black Ant and Reishi for a start.
You can probably buy Gynostemma tea from somewhere closer to you to try some.
I for example bought Gynnostemma leaves 100g for only 11 Eur from my local tea shop. Rn just made a cup and gonna sip it.

#66

Yeah im probably going to order Black ant because it seems more powerful in terms of testosterone and energy and im not sure if i want Reishi or Gynostemma for my first order, i will need to research some more.

And about Cordyceps, i dont think i really need it.

1 Like
#67

So much recon :tired_face::tired_face::tired_face::tired_face::tired_face::tired_face::tired_face::tired_face::tired_face:

Im thinking about ending the cycle today

Im still not sure about KB tho, Emperor have the NRE and scripting for sexual healing, also im getting tons of recon

I think i will replace it for Chosen or CFW

#68

So yeah im going to do a washout because at Friday there is going to be a dinner with the family of mi gf so i want to be recon free.

Also a question for anyone who wants to give his opinion, Friday dinner is also a prayer and at the prayer we need to stand, now I don’t want to stand because i don’t believe in this and last time i was at a Friday dinner with her family i didn’t stand and everyone stood, than the husband of the sister of my gf told me to stand up and i did because i was not confident enough to tell him i don’t want to stand and didn’t want to ruin the dinner with arguments.

The reason i don’t want to stand is because during my childhood i was forced by my father to pray and practically be religious again my will.

What do you think? Should i do what i want or should i let it slide?

#69

Who is he to give you orders?

Look, I´m not familiar with your religion and culture, but anytime we do something against out personal will, we basically betray ourselves.

You´ll have to make a decision what is more important to you, how others see you, or who you want to be.

1 Like
#70

You are right, who tf is he to give me orders

I don’t even need a reason, if i dont want to stand up than I won’t

1 Like