So I thought this would be a good time to pick this journal back up as I have made a commitment to myself about 3 weeks ago to run Emperor Q until at least the end of 2020 alongside with the Executive Ultima and Libertine Ultima.
My current rotation is as follow:
2 loops per day of Emperor Q
1 loop per day of The Executive Ultima
1 loop per day of Libertine Ultima
So far what I can say after running about Emperor Q for 3 weeks that I am getting a lot of reconciliation. I know that the sub is digging deep! My subconscious is fighting and my deep seated fears are being stirred! I tend to sometimes “act out” and abuse substances. The context we are all going through with the lockdown and the sanitary dictatorship is posing challenges as well of course as a lot of time is spent in the company of oneself!
Emperor is helping me stick to my workout routine for starters. I have read that on others’ journals as well and I feel more powerful in my body the more I listen to it. I compulsively do pushups, pull ups, sit ups throughout the day even if I have already done my workout routine for the day. I am also prone to making better food choices. Two days in the row now have I stuck to my late morning green-juicing which, although may seem small, had been a pain for me to do in the past as I would be tempted to sit down for a big lunch and regret it when I get the afternoon slump.
I am squeezing the shit out of Emperor Q as I have made the decision to go on my own after having worked as an employee most of my adult life with little to no success. I have yet to really crystallize the idea of what my own business will look like but I have learned to let the “how” up to the universe ( or god).
As far as women is concerned, I am somewhat developing attraction going forth and back with a girl I have met not so long ago ( maybe a month). We are going forth and back on the phone whilst on lock down. I am appreciating things in her such as good conversation, her voice, it is very smooth. I find myself acting like a prospecter looking for the gold in her, evaluating this girl, if she would be a good fit. It is an approach that is new for me.
Anyway, also Emperor is helping me say no to poor choices such as smoking cigarettes for instance. Someone has reported the same thing in the forum. It is definitely effective I would say as the sub I can feel is strengthening my will.
As far as the Executive is concerned. I find a pattern when I listen to it. The first 15 minutes nothing really happens and then as I move past that mark, my urge to get moving and getting shit down is building up and compounding to the point that by the end of the track I want to literally jump up and get on with the stuff I need to do right away. It is like it is building the urge to spring into action. I love it and it’s effect definitely lasts about 4 to 5 hours for me.
As far a libertine Ultima v2 is concerned, I have noticed that when I go to a get together, the women around me are engaged with me at a higher level than they previously were. They find themselves enthusiastically conversing with me, I can see glimpses of attraction in their eyes, getting more tactile as well. I am looking forward to building momentum with this sub as well.
So here is my early progress report. I will keep updating with more precise day to day events. Take care everybody!