Still at it with playing Emperor Q at least twice a day either in its Masked or Ultrasonic format. I can safely say that I am clearly noticing how easily I do things that I would overthink about in the past. I seem to be much more easily accessing that “flow state” where I can concentrate on a longer period of time on any given activity.
As I am studying for my new internship in eco-building I find myself really devouring new knowledge and I am guessing this could very well be the limitless module included in Emperor.
Yesterday, oddly enough, was the first day I started noticing, from the corner of my eyes, women staring at me and when I look back at them they would be blushing or looking embarrassed. That is encouraging. I knew Emperor had some romance manifestation.
Speaking of romance, I now believe that Emperor not just manifests romance but also manifest romance that fits the new Emperor paradigm. This past weekend, I wanted to have some female company, just to drink at least one beer outside as it was the last day I was spending in my current flat for at least 2 to 3 months, the weather was nice, and, since all bars are shut down in my city due to the government-imposed restrictions, the only option we have is buy beer and take it to drink by the river. To make a long story short, that one girl I had met the week prior, at a party, showed up directly to my apartment.
At first I was quite engaged and pleased with the situation, she seemed to have had dressed up, etc…conversation started to flow but then she took out some of that nose candy! And unleashed the craken! Since I do not touch drugs anymore and I have made a strong commitment to it, my mind started racing…there was no way I was going to have this cokehead in my apartment all night, speaking her gibberish, staying up till the morning cuz we all know the effect it does on staying up for ever and the drinking, etc…
So I rambled my mind real hard until it dawned on me that my neighbours were having a party. Bingo! They have the same taste as hers…I take her down there, two birds one stone, I shoot the shit with them, tell my goodbyes, etc…in the end I leave her there! Go back up to my apartment and go to bed ( it is nonetheless already 2 in the morning). I had to get up no later than 8am to start packing my stuff for my flat move.
Lo and behold, they had continued partying until 8pm the next day, yes not 8am but 8pm. That 24 hours of partying! When I knocked on their door around 12pm the next day to make sure everything had gone ok, she came out to chat with me and thank me for having connected her to “new friends”. My god you would not have believe the shock I had when seeing how disheveled and ran down she looked like. She was cocked out of her mind, dehydrated, no sleep, almost homeless looking. It was bad and I called her out on it jokingly…
Anyway, had I not reacted the way I did, I would have found myself in a world of hurt, meaning I would have had to pay the price of being locked up with a drug addict I barely knew. The moral of this story to me is not so much that I can find a solution to a bad situation but more so that I must be less desperate to spend time with anybody ( especially any female) rather than just say “fuck it” you know what I rather keep spending time alone until I find women who are worthy to be in my presence, that are healthy and would put “me” before their addiction. This was a great lesson. Someone has written that recently in their Emperor journal as well that this Sub helps one put the finger on their areas of weaknesses and help them work on them. The other night was definitely an eye opener for me.
I do not have yet any grandiose seduction or success story to tell you guy but Emperor is breaking down slowly all barriers and they sure will come soon. Until then!