Philemon's Wandering Thoughts

[Philemon]

Starting subs again LB+ is going far deeper than before. I can feel alot of the internal work has been done and is now integrating. Its now moved on and become more external. Not only am getting a stronger love for others, It gives me the idea that I want a deeper romantic relationship rather than just shallow short term stuff.

My Aura has bloomed heavily. I can almost feel the love aura. Walking around yesterday Its like everybody was looking at me. People that looked to be in a bad mood are smiling at me and saying hello as I pass by.

[Philemon]

Also worth mentioning the Essence Joy and happiness module I added in to the major NE is great. I wouldnt call it subtle because its dam powerful but I am doing everything with more enjoyment. I also find myself happy in small moments rather than going straight on my phone. Can be looking at a nice sky, sun on my skin, freshly washed laundry etc etc.

I found myself really enjoying music as if it was the first time I listened to songs I loved. I gotta be carefull what music I listen to while I work cause it makes me want to dance.

[Philemon]

I received “RAIKOV’s eyes” My dual core major name embedded with RAIKOV and Minds eye.

Will start using it my next play day. Really looking forward to this one. The main goal is linked to the RAIKOV script and learning from the charts aswell as modeling traders.

I also have the side goal of. Improving my language, speech, sports skills, improve language ability, adapt to different environments.

I added minds eye because I think they go very very well together. The hypothesis is that I can visualize something or someone and use the RAIKOV method to model it. IE: visualizing a great trader, sportsman and most importantly my ideal self.

I also hope the Minds eye aspect will give me a positive manifestation boost for the rest of my stack.

[Philemon]

What I lie about “RAIKOV’s Eyes” Is that the applications are limitless it just comes down to my creativity.

Play a chess game in my head and improve from that.

Visualize a conversation in a foreign language.

Visualize a speech I am going to do infront of hundreds of people.

Visualize market patterns and absorb them. Visualize past trades and bring out deeper insights.

The possibilities are endless.

Another great thing is that in the past when sub hopping I tried RAIKOV for a while and really enjoyed that it boosted my action taking capabilities. It made doing productive things in general far more enjoyable, aswell as making me consciously observe things and being more in the present. This will just naturally cause me to take more action on all my goals.

[Philemon]

I am getting more and more ideas on how to use RAIKOV’s Eyes. (raikov and minds eye) major NE. The creativity aspect is very fun.

I am visualizing myself a place in the alps (inner spa) while breathing deeply to regulate my nervous system. Becoming someone that is regulated.

Spent 20 min watching videos on trading psychology visualizing past trades where i went wrong and how I should have done it instead.

Reading a french book to practice my french I saw a great synergy that when reading I can visualize what the author is trying to convey far better. Associating the language to visuals and feelings I think will massively increase speed of language absorption.

Playing chess puzels I am automatically noticing patterns much more than before. Its also as if I can see possible moves visually before making them.

RAIKOV also seems to give me a good amount of energy and drive to execute. I want to be modeling and taking action and its far more joyful.

Really enjoying this combo with my two major NE (RICH Trader + C&C) (RAIKOV + Mind’s Eye)

LB + my love bomb major name embeded with essence joy and happiness is really going into overdrive aswell. I am getting moments of deep joy and self love. In these moments I am almost euphoric with gratitude about myself and my life. The aura is really starting to go external aswell.

The new summertime tease is really making me wonder how long I will keep LB. I will atleast go until april but depending on the copy a WDB + Summertime Major NE would be incredible as a replacement for LB+. I do feel I got everything I initially wanted and more from LB but I want to make it as permanent as possible before I change it. Maybe there will be some nice surprises as-well.

[Philemon]

My capacity to process the subs ive been running since start of feb has gone up alot.

I was stuck with lots of recon at 1 min of LB for a while and suddenly I got a big bloom and could play more. I am now up to 7 min with no noticeable recon. I have gotten all the results I desired when starting LB and more. I will be ready to move on to summertime + WDB major name embedded when it releases. I will use LB for sure until the end of march to give it some permanence, With the name embedding it seems like my whole identity and personality has changed past present and future in a great way thanks to this sub.

C&C and RICH Trader name embedded is also up to 7 min with no recon. I dont feel a need to go up any time soon. Would that even be useful? There are so many positive changes I have had with this sub its hard to even write it all down. Many many small things that add up to be massive changes.

First impression of Raikov with Minds eye in a major name embed is great. In RAIKOV there is a perfect amount of focus scripting that helps in taking action but its very smooth. I dont feel wired but instead its made me enjoy productive disciplines more. I am doing these things more as a human behaviour rather than a skill that needs to be developed, and in this paradigm I can see skills develop faster. Visualisation is steadily improving but lots of work to be done there. I do have aphantasia so visual visualization still struggles alot but slowly improving. My ability to visualize concepts though… Dammm this has skyrocketed very fast from my very first loop.

I can instantly see how RAIKOV pairs sooooo well with C&C + RICH Trader. I have found it hard to find enough content (of Quality) to model but when I do spend time to model the sessions are very very productive and I come out of it with lots of valuable information and insights.

[Philemon]

I spent time with someone I am very close too.

He made remarks about how much ive changed positively in the past year. Then proceeded to basically describe the objectives list of LB and the aura of C&C. Very cool to see.

I was really thinking of breaking my stack by removing LB for summertime when it releases. The remarks my friend made makes me want to keep going with LB and I think I will at least for a while. For the first time it feels like the Love aura has spread outwards and has a healing effect on others aswell very grateful for that.

Other than that 7 min of my subs gave me a big spike in recon. Its interesting I got 0 recon on the play day but on my rest day today it hit me quite hard. Taking 2 extra rest days to rest and integrate then going to build back up from 1 min. I think my new sweet spot is somewhere between 4 and 5 min.

[Philemon]

I had a massive recon block I believe from LB in the past few days. Partly from overexposure and partly because I think the sub went deeper than ever before. After overcoming this major recon block I notice I can feel more. As in previously my feeling where very muted perhaps because I saw that part of me as bad or weak whatever it is. Now I love that part of me and allow it be. This also makes me realize the benefits of RICH trader more than before. Just because I feel more feelings now I am still very stoic about it and will not take action on a whim.

The LB aura is growing more and more. I am attracting good people and repealing bad people. (good an bad in the context of me). I am far more open to a deeper relationship than I was before starting the sub.

I realize that during this recon block I had stoped taking lions maine. I find out now from grok the forum says that it helps to reduce recon symptoms.

As for RAIKOV its really doing its job. Its very in the background but its causing lots of small positive changes in all areas of my life. Very cool to see. My mother tongue was very rusty but it is coming back very very quick.

[Philemon]

Ive been running LB for a while now. Since the announcement of summertime I have been debating with myself if I should keep going with it or break my stack.

LB has been amazing. Ive looked back abit at all it has done since I started and it helped me make some massive changes. Recon at first was quite intense as if I was reliving all my embarrassing moments and failures that caused me to not like myself. From that deep healing self love, worthiness etc etc has grown massively inside of me.

With self love it spread to the external world. Loving things as they are rather than because I judge them to be good or bad. I enjoy and apreciate things more, I feel connections to things and people that I did not have before. The aura of LB has even had a powerfull positive effect on the people around me.

In relationships the warmth and glow has helped me deepen relationships to new levels. I also for the first time in a long time am able to see myself in a romantic relationship beyond shallow fun. Ive had multiple manifestations of potential ideal partners from this sub as-well.

Ive gotten all the goals from LB that I wanted and more. Thats why I feel okay to break the stack. I also have an inkling that the deep emotional healing from LB has taken alot of priority over the rest of my stack even though I have gotten great results from all the subs I am running. The idea of a WDB + Summertime major name embedded is just too atractive to miss out on. Now that I am in the best financial and emotional position I have ever been in my life, and so many of the goals I was aiming for since I turned 18 have been achieved. Now is the time to just enjoy it and embrace the journey over the grind.

Its funny alot of the revelations ive had on LB do lead to the conclusion that summertime is the next step. Also before making the decision to break my stack I did reduce exposure alot to make sure I was not in recon haha. Will do a 5 day washout when saint gives the word and make the final decision at the end of the washout.

[Philemon]

Ive not really been keeping up to date with my online journal. Mostly because I have been so busy the past few days. (C&C shenanigans)

I am on day 5 of a washout and it is officially time to retire LB from my stack. It has been a great sub that keeps a special place in my heart. I will definitely come back to it in the future especially if/when it gets updated.
I didnt expect LB to cause so much emotional healing in me. It has been extremely powerful and have improved my life in all areas. The big standout is in relationships. I have been single (meaning no serious relationships) since 2022. I had quite alot of shallow experiences here and there but I was shut out from loving because of “traumatic” experiences in the past. I feel LB has definitely healed “all” of these past experiences through forgivenes and self love. This has shown outwards in my life aswell with lots of incredibly unlikely situations showing me that I am ready to love myself again.
Another big point from LB has been seeing humanity as inherently fallible. I always had high expectations of people and myself and I have let that go being aware that everyone makes mistakes and is imperfect. In fact I see mistakes and imperfections as a beautiful part of me and all of us.

My Dual Core (HFM) Major NE with RICH Trader and C&C has also evolved massively aswell. I have a strong feeling that I am on the precipice of a breakthrough aswell. The standout for me though has been C&C. My network has expanded massively in the past 2 weeks with people I already know encouraging me to meet others usually of high status wealth and competence. In business people come to me for advice far more and I feel that I give far better advice than before. My financial reality has completely changed since I started running C&C from “not great but lots of potential” to now that potential fulfilling itself. On top of existing avenues expanding itself in terms of revenue many new avenues in terms of fortune and physical freedom (with stability) has expanded massively. These avenues I did not even realize where an option before running C&C.

RE (dual core with Raikov and Minds eye) has worked as the copies described. However it has been abit lackluster. I dont think its a question of density in my stack though. I believe its a mix of 2 things. My expectations of the subs where far too high especially RAIKOV. Secondly I have not been taking enough conscious action on it. I notice RAIKOV really doing alot unconsciously IE absorbing language patterns of good speakers around me, overall pattern recognition. But I do need to take more dedicated conscious action on it. Minds eye has significantly improved my visualisation as the sub promised but I am struggling to apply it to my daily life. Ive put an astrix on this sub for the future because I see alot of potential in it however it is not the best time in my life for it. I will definitely keep it in my stack for now.

[Philemon]

Today is the last day of my washout and tomorrow I start a new stack.

New stack:

HFM (Hedge Fund Manager) : Rich Trader + C&C Major Name Embedded.

RE (RAIKOV’s Eyes) : RAIKOV + Minds Eye Major Name Embedded.

and the new addition I am so exited about

DS (Dream Summer) : Summertime + Wanted Dream Boy Major Name Embedded.

After my previous message about my experience with RE I decided I will only be playing it once a week and put focus on the other two subs. I will play it with intention to spend dedicated time to actively using the RAIKOV modeling method in the days of and after the sub.

For the first few loops of this cycle though I will only play DS to put more focus on it. In addition I am happy to give some extra integration time for HFM and RE.

I played WDB in the past and really enjoyed it and summertime just seems like an amazing evolution to use after doing some deep healing with LB.

[Philemon]

Played my First loop of DS (Summertime + Wanted Dream Boy) about 13 hours ago.

Only played DS today want to use it solo for a loop or two.

It feel GREAT! Even with the name embedding I had the initial pump from the sub that made me go straight back to sleep from the nervous system relaxation. Covered this abit in the summertime main thread.

I had two social scenarios today that I saw the subs shinning in.

Firstly summertime when I went to a freezing cold lake with a friend to swim. I was just enjoying the moment and having fun with 0 expectations. My friend had a hangover and was feeling super tired but I could tell my inner state was lifting him up and he was feeling better. It was very flowy just being there in the moment. It was rainy terrible conditions but I was just happy to be there and making the most of it.

Secondly I saw an initial impression of how WDB and Summertime is going to synergies and it is much better than expected. I went to someones house and for a while I was just sitting alone with a girl that was doing some work in the living room. I was just Vibing looking out the window in silence enjoying the view and listening to the music fully in the moment. I could tell she had hesitations and nervousness trying to start a conversation with me, eventually she did and started flirting right away. I had no agenda no expectations almost oblivious to her trying to flirt with me and it made her flirt even harder. When I was leaving she said I am welcome to come see her any time and I barely gave her any attention and replied to someone else that was talking to me haha.