Philemon's Wandering Thoughts

[Philemon]

Finally motivated to start my first journal.

After learning the hard way that less is more and to stick with subs long term I want to really commit to proper sub usage and I want my journal to keep me accountable.

That being said I just came out of a proper washout and my stack this month will be:

C&C: Priority, I am really looking to take advantage of almost all the objectives of this sub.

LB: Deep self worth work, Internal validation over external, Raise vibration and boost other subs, Synergy with WDB about loving my authentic self.

WDB: Confidence with being my authentic self, synergies with C&C for leadership and social.

My overall goal with this stack is wealth. Ive realized with Zero Point that my comfort zone is working on the internal, I realize ive been like this my whole life. I want to challenge myself and grow by focusing on the external for a while. I want to produce a certain abundance that allows me to focus fully on my internal/spirituality later in my life.

I am waiting for RICH Trader to release and I will add it into my stack. As soon as it is out I will make a C&C and RICH Trader custom. My wealth path is through trading, I have been doing it for almost 6 years, 3 of wich profitable. I also have a business with a “BRO” (IC:BRO reference) doing asset management for private clients.

The reason I added LB and WDB is because I have identified that I have a self worth block relating to external validation that come from childhood events and a breakup when I was younger. I believe this blockage may have diffused into all parts of my life, effecting it negatively. I will run WDB and LB for ATLEAST 3 cycles. When I get my C&C, RICH trader custom I will run that for much longer until I meet a certain monetary goal.

Taking inspiration from @jelly 's Thoughts and Rambles journal I will follow his style of journaling.

[hyperbeam]

Love Bomb & Wanted: Dream Boy looks like a good duo in there.

I am interested to see how this stack turns out for you.

[Philemon]

As soon as WDB came out I got it because i thought it fit my archetype perfectly. Havent played it until my first 30 sec loop today.

Had so many synchronicities that where nudging me towards Love Bomb. I think its something I was really missing in my base. Played 30 sec today and I can feel the letting go of being so outcome dependent straight away. I am slightly worried it will clash with C&C a little but will give it time before I come to any conclusion.

C&C and LB will definitely stay in my stack for a while but there is a good chance I move to a country where I cant speak the language well so I may switch out WDB for polyglot. This would be in a few months anyways.

[Philemon]

Played my subs this morning in the order LB → C&C → WDB with about an hour or 2 break between them.

I could feel around early afternoon when the processing went from LB to C&C.

With LB I was quite relaxed and taking it easy. Not stressed or very driven to achieve anything, in a positive way. There is a sort of acceptance of where and who I am even though its not where I want to be. It felt abit recon like because I felt slight guilt for not being productive and taking it easy. If it was recon it was very very light and lasted about 2 hours. I spent that time doing some “productive recreation” Playing some piano and chess as-well as reading.

Suddenly C&C kicked around 6 hours after playing and there was some positive NSE events with an investor and a strong drive to take action for my goals.

Also with LB I am driven to listen to Coldplay. I suppose its a very “Lovey” type of music.

[Parsifal]

LB is the kind of sub that keeps on giving.
I’ve ran it half a year in 2024, then 3 more month in a custom.
Now I’m on the custom since early January and the effects are there already.

[Philemon]

Im really looking forward to seeing what LB is all about. All the objectives seem very subjective so I dont quite know what to expect.

I think I “understand” what its trying to achieve… At least on a surface intelectual level. I imagine with time it will unfold to deeper and deeper understanding. I am very open and curious to the benefits I will receive.

Have you had many external results with LB running it for such a long time?