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#25

How’s it going with the sub journey?

#26

It’s been very long since I’ve written/updated the journal. The main reason was because my family needed to move to a different place that distracted me from working on sub, and other things. (This happened shortly after stopping the journal.)

During and after moving, my sub schedule sorta broke, and I had very inconsistent sub routine, and a long break in between. For this reason, I stopped reporting.

If my memory is correct, I believe I started listening to QL stage 1 from October 2020, very inconsistently.

My listening habit became much more serious from December as it was about a month before the start of the start of the school. (First time to start at this school, taking prerequisites to the AI degree).

Then I listened to QL stage 1 until the actual beginning of the semester. I also used BLU with it. (I typically listened to them on lower loops Blu 1 : QL 1 or BLU 1 : QL 2 or 3)

From the start of the spring semester (late January/February) I moved onto QL stage 2, and pretty much kept listening to it until now. While listening to QL stage 2, I stacked with limitless executive (tackling both limitless and executive function issue from ADD) mostly, but then occasional use of sanguine whenever I feel anxiety. (I used sanguine more during the week of exams, which I found to have calmed me down quite well.) Then when Renaissance Man came out, I put it in rotational use; some times I would use limitless executive. Some other times I would use Renaissance Man. This mainly depended on what I felt like using.

However, what’s important is that I’ve used QL pretty much every single day (except the 2 days of rest, of course - 5 days on and 2 days rest), so I used QL as the main, and other programs (BLU (Limitless Executive, once it came out), Sanguine (for whenever I feel too pressured or feeling anxiety, used especially for exam weeks as I feel anxious during those time), and Renaissance Man (as mentioned, I alternated between Limitless Executive and RM, and used whichever one I felt I wanted to use more on that day))

Now that I briefly explained my sub routine, I want to share some of the things I’ve experienced.

Let’s start with academics part. For this semester I took one math and programming course. I finished with A for both. (I finished with accumulated total of 96% and 97%) For math, my exam scores were 100 and 90s when class average was 60~70. I have no idea about the class average of the class, but I know that not everybody was able to complete the assignment with working program producing the intended result. All my assignment work produced working program producing the intended result.

Well, it might have been an unfair game with my classmates as many of them had careers, but I am a student with no job currently. However, there were others that have currently used programming for their career (albeit different languages), but I pretty much had 0 programming experience to begin with. Also, I haven’t done math for nearly 10 years (although I reviewed extensively before starting the class.) So someone people can argue that it wasn’t necessarily a fair game, but the opposite can also be true. (e.g. I was able to compete with others who have had extensive programming experience but in different language, while I had pretty much none to begin with.) Also, did I mention that there was a math teacher (in the math class) among my peers?

Anyway, I had a successful semester.

Some other things to mention.

  1. I always found answers. For programming, some tasks were given that seemingly were very difficult at first. I eventually found the answers even if it took me staying up all night. If I cannot find the answer on my own, I was able to search online and find hints. If I found direct answers, I never used it directly; I always incorporated and modified it so that it became my version, not a copy of someone else’s work.

  2. I find group project dynamics interesting. It was a group of 3, and for all the groups, my role was slightly different. For the first project, I originally began with somewhat passive role, seeing how others would do, and take tasks that nobody would do. Then when I see others’ mistakes, I would intervene, explain why the work is wrong, and how we can fix it. In the final phase of putting things together, I chose to work together on Google Docs, but it was going nowhere (it needed to be in the report form, but it became more like a scrap paper) --> I stepped in and wrote the form in report, and let others do the proof reading. (They had more advantage in proof reading than I, at least I thought that.)

For the second project, I got lucky that I figured out all the necessary work in the beginning. I did all the work, and pretty much finished the entire work of the project on my own. Of course, I showed everything I did to teammates, and made sure that they were onboard with me. I let the others write the report, but I caught some mistakes, stepped in, and fixed it.

For the last project, I took a different role, as I couldn’t take the initiative --> It needed reading a map, which required printing, but because of the different paper standards, my printing would have ruined drawing scale. So for this one, I took more of a checking and a guiding role. I’d ask others for measurements, and if they come up with some work, I’d check to see whether the work is correct. If not, show where the mistake was made, and fixed. For this one, I feel like I was more commanding, but still checked work, and guided/nudged group mates on the right direction.

I think the group project experience showed how I was able to adjust myself to different roles/different environments, and took different styles of leadership. I don’t know if it has anything to do with QL, BLU, Limitless Executive, or Sanguine, but this is something I noticed.

  1. Becoming more emotional?

I had been more emotional before, that was when I was pretty depressed and suicidal. Have I been that way? Absolutely not. However, I feel that I definitely noticed times of being more emotional, being able to feel more strongly and more intensely when seeing stories, listening to music, or watching/reading/listening to any other literary work or some sort of artistic work.

Some people may think this is a bad thing, but I don’t think that way. I think true genius work, or true work of art comes when emotion and rational part of me work together and create a synergy. For that, I think this is a good improvement.

  1. Increased sex drive?

Perhaps because of aging (going into 30s) I noticed decrease in libido and sex drive. But lately, I feel the increase in libido, needing to release nearly everyday. (For the last half a year or so, it decreased quite much down to maybe once per week or 2~3 times per week, but it came back to this lately.)

I don’t know what to say about this, but since I have no partner, I have to take care of this on my own.

Nevertheless, I am not as bound to sex as I was in my 20s. Libido level is similar, but I feel less bound.

  1. Taste in women/girls.

This may be related to 4th point, but I want to mention that I find porn less appealing, and I definitely watch porn much less than before. (The attachment and attraction to porn is continuing to decrease.) However, what I am finding is that I am getting definitely more turned on to some sexy picture (not necessarily fully naked, partial nudes, or underwear worked) of girls/models. In the past I pretty much never got turned on by pictures of some women but now I am finding that I am expanding on this area, while closing on pornographic videos.

Also, I noticed that I am finding Asian women more attractive (turning me on) than before. So now I can say that I can find women of any race to be attractive. (In other words, I have much less defined preference for certain races of women.)

Additionally, I find myself to find/feel many women attractive, who would have been unattractive to me in the past. --> Perhaps a better way of saying this is that in the past, I would have had extremely high or unrealistically high standards for physical appearance, but I now find more women to be attractive, perhaps I am now being attractive to real women?

Still many of these women are women inside screen, but I think/feel that it’s a progress I made, even when this wasn’t a focus.

  1. Executive functioning

I find this to be still a challenge; much of it had to do with being burned out. Sometimes I’d have difficult time initiating and starting things as early as I would have hoped for. However, I’ve always finished things on time (except once, but that was when the instructor decided to extend the assignment’s due date, and it was the most challenging assignment given in the semester. And I did finish it perfectly under the new deadline, and even when the instructor gave a new challenge, I was able to handle that too, in that new deadline.)

In addition, I find initiating things are easier than before although I still struggle. Keep in mind that I have been diagnosed with some of disabilities related to this area.

  1. Tarot reading

I don’t know if it’s worth mentioning this, but for some reason I ended up watching a few Tarot readings on YouTube (general reading, so it is to take it with grain of salts.)

What I found interesting is that all my choices ended up saying the same things. (This was true for looking at the same thing from different channels, and also looking at the same thing but different videos in the same channel)

For instance, when I looked at future spouse reading, pretty much all the readings said the same things.

Okay, it can be total BS, and many times, (if not most, or all the times) it means nothing, but I found that every time I chose the same topic from different channels and different videos, they all pretty much said the identical things. This was interesting.

Lastly I will say this. This wasn’t my first time to do very well in school. I’ve had experiences of getting 100s in undergraduates before. (I remember a case when a guy complained how someone got 100 in the test, when the class average was like 50~60ish, and yes that was me, and he complained it in front of me, without knowing that that person was me.) But also, I’ve also had very difficult times in school before.

Thus, it’s somewhat difficult to say definitely, oh yes, QL and other subs have definitely made this possible. (This wasn’t a case of turning an idiot into a super genius.) Nevertheless, I did well in the school, and I did well while being on the sub. I will leave to you guys to be a judge on how well the sub worked.

Alright. This is pretty much everything I experienced in the last 7 months or so, and I summarized and organized it as much as I could. I don’t know when I will be back to report more, but I will be back. (It may not be as frequent, but I don’t plan on just quit it.)

And, lastly, here are my plans. I will go back to QL 1 for the next 2~3 weeks. (Deciding whether to just do it until May, or go till right before the summer school) Then once summer session starts, I will go no QL 3. Probably first week or so alone, and after that add on the rotational stacks (RM, Limitless Executive, and Sanguine) Then do QL3 till the end of the session, perhaps do another month (or go back to QL1), and then start QL4 at the start of the fall semester.

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#27

Finally Quantum Limitless got the QV2 upgrade.

As I wrote, I moved back to stage 1 and listening to it again. (I am listening to it solo, and usually listen at a lower loop, like 1 loop. I find that it’s easier to stick to lower number of loops. My philosophy is to do it consistently even if at a lower loop, but do it longer if necessary.)

Given that things got upgraded, now I am wondering whether I should listen to stage 1 till the end of the break and then move on to stage 3, or to move to stage 2 next week, listening it for a week and then move to stage 3.

As far as other things to report, there’s nothing significant to report.

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#28

Here are a few things I am noticing when being on QL stage 1 (for both QV1 and QV2)

  1. I am procrastinating much more. (Applies to both QV1 and QV2 equally, but became more aware of it on QV2)

I planned on doing math review, and then move on to the summer math materials before the course starts, but I have been barely doing any math related stuff. Perhaps, this is due to being burned out from the last semester (literally for last month or more, I’ve stayed up at least one day to entire weekends every week.).
It could be related to QL stage 1. I remember how I was not productive and procrastinated much while being on the stage 1. (It was during when I was really inactive on reporting the journey here.) Thus, it could be related to being on QL stage 1, and perhaps this is a form of reconciliation. (I’ll talk more about this later.)

What’s interesting about this is that I think I am more aware of this dynamics after switching to QV2. To make it clear, I am not saying my switching to QV2 made me procrastinate more. Instead, I am saying that switching to QV2 made me more aware that I am procrastinating, and also made me remember and connect back to the time I was on the stage 1 (QV1), and how I procrastinate a lot back then.

Is this a form of reconciliation?

  1. Thoughts about changing subs (Applies QV2 predominantly)

I’ve been having thoughts about changing the sub stack for a few reasons. First is that I will be given opportunity to join a month long session in which I will be given opportunities to meet fellow students and connect with alumni. (In this session I will also learn to better imagine the life I want to live and learn to build plans/steps to achieve that life.)

For this reason, I am considering to change a plan to stick to predominantly cognitive enhancing subs to I don’t know something life House of Medici, or Stark. (Khan may be great, but it’s multistage and I will be starting the program soon.) Given that it’s short, and given that it’s starting soon, perhaps ultima may be better, but not sure what type of ultima’s best for this.

At the same time, I am also thinking that this may be a reconciliation, getting me to think oh switch to something else. Also, joining the session was not planned. (It just randomly came up, and I saw the opportunity so I took it.) Consequently, I may be better off to improvise on my original plan, and add something that’s better designed to tackle these issues.

It’s a tough call.

  1. Loneliness/desire for a woman (Applies for both QV1 and QV2, but noticing more on QV2)

For some reason, desire for a woman came up. (Interesting that it came up since none of the subs I’ve ran had anything to do with social, sex, family, and etc.) I’m not talking about sex specifically, but a desire for a companion, a partner, and a person(woman) with whom I can build my life and family together.

It can be a distraction that comes from the possible reconciliation. I also think that this may be something I need to expand my cognitive abilities.

I remember reading somewhere that having good regular sex can boost one’s creativity and cognitive abilities. Also, I remember reading/hearing somewhere that a man truly grows when he has given birth to children, and when he has a stable family; basically when there’s someone he can count on, and someone whom he has to take responsibility and provide for.

Maybe this desire for a woman, a good quality woman, may be a subconscious reflection telling me I need to have a good quality woman, whom I can depend on, and who I should take responsibility for, to grow and expand my creativity and cognitive abilities.

I don’t know. Either way, I don’t think the timing is good for getting a woman. The biggest obstacle still remains; financial area. (I planned on addressing it after getting the degree, which would provide me invaluable AI and AI related skills.)

  1. More Tarot readings (Spans from times in QV1 and QV2)

(Well not really related to the subs I’m using, but since I noticed repeating themes, I thought to include them.)

I wrote previously that tarot readings may mean nothing. Nevertheless, I watched a bunch of YouTube general tarot reading on soulmate, future spouse (Big part of the procrastination I mentioned in this post.).

I find it interesting that almost all the readings (from multiple creators and multiple readings) point to similar/same characteristics. (I’m talking about 10+ readings with 90~95%+ reading saying same/similar things)

  • Very good looking. One actually said drop dead gorgeous, Da Vinci perfection type of beauty. Darker hair, green/hazel eyes. Well defined cheek bones and lips. (One mentioned to think of Henry Cavill and Angelina Jolie) Younger look than her actual age. Athletic and fit.

  • Comes from very affluent family. Has been a center figure in her family. Lots of attention and love given to her.

  • The girl is very family oriented. She’s not only going to care and provide for her innermost family (e.g. me, children she and I would have) but also cares provides a lot to my side of the family. For example, she’s not only going to send cards/messages/gifts to my parents’ anniversaries and birthdays, but she’s also going to do that for my cousins and regularly reaches out to them. The girl wants to provide the best for her family.

  • Very compassionate, empathetic, and cares a lot about wellbeing of others and society.

  • Very talented/smart, and multi-talented. Plays multiple roles. (e.g. Say she’s a doctor, but also get involved in a lot of activism and politics, etc.) Would likely run business, and perhaps multiple businesses. Very successful and rich. May also have large social media influence.

  • The girl is a leader, and she has strong leadership.

  • The girl also has strengths from both feminine and masculine side. Good balance of femininity and masculinity.

  • Because of these traits (very successful and coming from affluent background), the girl will cause envy and jealousy from others. Also, many will sought after her.

  • Some mentioned that her looks may mislead others to misjudge her capability/smarts. (e.g. Dumb Blonde type of thing, some mentioned Marilyn Monroe). This may have left scars have hurt the girl.

(This reminds me that I read somewhere that really good looking girls have many wounds inside as many guys only gets off from the girls’ looks and don’t really treat her as another human being. It got me thinking that everybody has his/her challenges. It got me to think to remember these challenges faced by hot girls, if I get to interact them in real life.)

  • Likely have jobs/businesses that require travelling abroad. (Multi-national businesses?)

  • Likely a foreigner. May currently be living in a different continent from where I am currently in. (I’m not sure how foreigner would apply given that I’ve studied abroad for a long time that I am not sure how I identify myself in terms of culture and nationality)

  • A few mentioned that the person may be of a mixed race/ethnicity. It can be hard to specifically tell which ethnicity/race the girl belongs in from her looks. (The race/ethnicity thing is only mentioned by 2~3 readings, but since it was shared, I thought to mention it.)

  • Witty and funny. Playful around me (which may annoy me at times), and always try to enlighten my mood (especially helpful when I’m down). Always supportive of me. Even when the girl has emotional difficulty or had a bad time she’s not going to show it in front of me. (I think this can be difficult to deal with.)

  • Very organized, and good at planning things. Perhaps too organized.

  • Very compatible with me. Equal and balanced relationship with no power struggle. May suggest things, but if I’m not into it, she’s not going to force it, and drop it.

  • Very loyal. The idea of cheating doesn’t even cross her mind. (Not unless I cheat first.)

  • Unlike her looks (very good looking), she’s likely to have little to no prior dating experience. The girl’s very picky about whom she’s going to have relationship with. (Not just dating, but forming any relationship in general.) However, this doesn’t mean that she’s going to be a bitch to everybody; the girl’s very nice and treats everyone fairly, but she’s likely to have some boundaries to those whom she’s not going to form a relationship with.

  • Also very compatible in sex, great sex life. Lots of emotional and spiritual connection in sex (not just physical connection). The girl enjoys oral sex a lot. (At least giving it seems.)

  • A lot of water signs, and many readings involved Scorpio. Some included Leo (well, Leo is my birth month). I remember that many readings involved numbers 1 (and 11) and 8.

  • Tarot reading’s prediction on how we are going to meet varied; some said that I am going to meet this person outdoor, others said I’d meet this person online. (Not dating website, but through study or something similar.) Who’s going to fall for who first, and who’s going to make moves also varied. But what they had in common was that I’d meet this person unexpectedly, and the meeting will be as if the destiny/universe has put in motion to meet. I’d meet this person in a serendipitous manner.

  • Also many mentioned that we know each other from past or have at least met in the past. (If not, we’d be aware of each other’s energies.) I don’t think I’ve met anyone who meets this criteria. Perhaps one or two, but I can’t think of any girl I met in the past who meets this criteria as of now.

  • Many projects that I’d meet this person soon. (Within a few months to 6 months.)

  • Many (actually perhaps almost all the readings) mentioned that I’d be meeting this person at a difficult time, and that she’s going to be very helpful. Also, it is a time that the girl has gone through loss in her life. (Perhaps a family member, or her boyfriend, etc.) Hmm… both at difficult time?

  • My life would change dramatically after meeting the girl, (in a good way) and she’s going to help me to be the better version of myself and push me to be the best.

  • A few of the readings also did some prediction on the children the girl and I’d be bringing. They also all indicate that the children are going to be also very talented. (Will shine from youth) It seems that we’d be having minimum of 2 children and up to 6 kids.

  • Lastly pretty much all said that I and the girl will be considered a role model couple and family (including the children) and it will create lots of envy and jealousy around us.

These seem too good to be true. I remember that I had really high/impossible standards for girls. (1. She has to be very beautiful, equal level of top 5 beauty in the world, 2. She has to be very smart, like the level of Leonardo Da Vinci, 3. She has to be nicer than Mother Theresa, 4. She has to love me and loyal to me. 5. I don’t remember, but very high standards.) I also remember telling these to some friends before, and their response being, “does this person exists in real world”. Well, that’s what I’m feeling.

However, almost all the choices I made in the general tarot reading (90~95% as mentioned above) described pretty much the same thing, (which again I described above), and I don’t know what to feel about this or how I should take it.

Is this telling some sort of truth? Has my listening to subs done something about it, even though it has nothing related to it? (Mostly cognitive enhancement related subs, except Sanguine and perhaps Renaissance Man…) But to ignore and disregard it completely, there’s too much consistency from quite a large number of readings. (I’m not talking about 2~3, I’m talking about 10+ readings…)

These are what I’ve observed in the last week or so, and I need to work on some things.

  1. I need to stop procrastinate and get back on math. (Well, maybe I need to take break. I really worked my ass off in the last semester, and it paid off.)
  2. I need to determine what my sub stack would be for the next month. I should determine this by the next week.
#29

Okay, I will be starting class from tomorrow, so I may not come back to the forum for a while (like months), focusing on school work.

Also, I will be starting QL stage 3 QV2 from tomorrow with primary boost of Limitless Executive Ultima, and occasional use of Renaissance Man (whenever I feel like), and/or Sanguine (when I feel anxious, or around exam time).

Additionally, something came up, and I was considering to change the stack for a bit. The situation is explained in the link below.

In a summary, I thought to add Stark and/or House of Medici for a month, so I decided to experiment things a bit. Thus, I added Stark and HOM to my list in the last 2 days of the 5 day routine.

On the first day of the last 2 days: QL stage 1 (1 loop) --> Stark (1 loop) --> HOM (1 loop) --> QL stage 1 (1 loop)

On this day, what I noticed was that especially when I was running Stark, is the increased feeling of heat. (Does Stark have aura component?)

After finishing listening to the routine, I got horny, I mean quite horny. It wasn’t the level I’d describe it as increased libido. I really got horny. So, I ended up releasing the pressure by myself.

The 2nd day of the last 2 days of the sub: QL stage 1 (1 loop) --> Stark (1 loop) --> HOM (1 loop)

Similar effect, except I think I felt the heat less, but felt even hornier. Again, I had to release the pressure by myself.

I noticed that in general, during these two days, I was getting more and stronger erections, similar to that of being a teenager, which was weird, since I didn’t include anything sexual. (Maybe Stark, but still.)

Also, I found that my preference to women changed that I was more attracted to women with more defined curve than my usual preference. I also found that I was less turned off by women with obvious fake looks (like obvious signs of breasts implants and surgery marks), and some even turned me on, which was never the case. Lastly, I was very attracted to Spaniard women, and Latinas.

I don’t know, but I remember that in the earlier days of running Limitless and QL, I remember my libido, sex drive and horniness was pretty low. In the later (meaning near to current time) I remember that my libido, sex drive and horniness increased. With Stark and HOM added in the last two days, it increased even further.

I am not sure what to take from this, but these are what I observed lately.

Anyway, I will be going back to the usual stack starting stage 3.

#30

I think the horniness is from Stark. Stark contains elements from Emperor, Primal Seduction: Iron Throne, etc.

Reference post attached.

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#31

Thank you for the reference. It makes sense that the horniness comes from Stark.

What I don’t understand is how running QL increased my libido (not in the earlier times, but in the later, near present time). As mentioned, it didn’t increase to the level of when I was running HOM and Stark added . (I wouldn’t say I was horny when these two weren’t included, but in the last two days, (including Stark and HOM) yeah I was horny, especially at nights.)

Still, libido, and strength and the frequency of erections increased when running QL. (Not at first, but at later time, as mentioned.) I’m not sure what to make of this.

#33

Okay, my summer semester is over, and now that I have some free time (and have observed using QL stage 3, Qv2), I will share what I have observed. (Usage with mostly QL stage 3, usual booster of executive limitless, and occasionally switching booster to Renaissance Man, or Sanguine.
Also followed old listening instruction, as I just found out the new listening instruction.)

First, let’s start with good things.

1. Proactiveness:

Within the first day or two, I knew that there would be group projects in the class. I also knew that one of the group project partners from the previous semester was also in the same class. Since I didn’t want to risk having someone terrible, I contacted the person pretty much the day after or so. Also, given the class size, I thought it would likely require a group of 3 or larger, so I decided to secure another potentially good partner. I quickly glanced through people’s introductions, looked at what they wrote in the discussion board, and made a judgement about their skills. I gave a list of whom I thought would be good candidates, discussed with the partner from previous semester, chose who should be in the group, and I sent an email inviting the potential new partner pretty much the day after we finalized our decision. This is what I would call proactiveness, and perhaps decisiveness.

Also, I was almost always the first one to start on the group project, and I’d have to say I contributed the most to the project (and probably did the most amount of work.)

2. Leadership:

Somewhat related to the proactiveness; I was the one who was initiating things around. I would contact the partners, set up a plan on what to do, give a summary of basic status report and etc. Also, there were times in which I found one of the partners or both of them had been mentally challenged. (e.g. I am not contributing to the project enough, I feel bad, and etc.) Also, things were very tight in the summer semester, so many were feeling pressured and stressed. I was constantly giving a pep-talk, trying to boost morale, giving everyone a last push.

At the same time, I wasn’t just dictating things around. If it were just me, I’d do some modification to make a perfection, but the team members were not really into doing that. It wasn’t something too big, so I decided to let go. In the end the result turned out to be a perfect score, so everything was good.

What was also interesting about this semester’s experience was that it helped me see and feel what a good leadership is about. → Boost morale of the team, giving a little bit of the push they need, make decisive and swift action and decision, and also at the same time, know when to let go of things and move on.

I don’t know if I had the leadership before, or knew of it, but I was more naturally taking the role of a leader, and assumed the leadership role more easily, and more naturally.

3. Humor:

I don’t know if I became funnier, but I noticed that in this semester, I made many more humorous statements and remarks. Some of them might have been pushing the boundaries a bit, but the people took it well. Also, I think I was quicker in making the remarks.

4. Good Judgment and Quick decision making:

Again going back to the invitation/selecting group project partners, I was able to quickly identify the area of weakness in my group, and was able to identify a few candidates who can cover the weakness very quickly. (The partner from the previous semester thanked me for the good decision of choosing and securing the new partner, as she covered our weakness very well.) Also, at times when there were too many things (too many assignments, and learning material coming altogether), I was able to prioritize things and managed to get all the things done.

Now moving on to the bad things.

1. Procrastination:

Unlike projects, I had difficulty dealing with procrastination. At the beginning of starting QL stage 3, procrastination wasn’t a thing. In fact, when I concentrated I had a moment of when getting things done a lot and quickly with super focus. In this mode, it was like I’ve done a lot, and felt a lot of time passed because of the work I had done, but not to much time passed. (Also there were other times when I felt quite focused that I felt small amount of time passed but a lot of time passed in reality.)

However, I only experienced these only at the very beginning of moving on to QL stage 3. Procrastination became more difficult to fight and it was more challenging to deal with than the last semester. (Except group project time. For group projects, I was able to focus quite easily, and was pretty proactive). Nevertheless, I still managed to get everything done before the deadline.

2. Less cognitive functions, difficulty in learning, and not being able to recall and use the learned material.

This became very apparent after the first exam. I did pretty poorly on that exam. What was funny is that I didn’t think the exam was hard. However, when I tried the questions, I couldn’t recall how to tackle the problems, even though the things weren’t that difficult.

Also, this pattern sorta persisted; I had trouble mastering the material and making them on my own. I understood things, but trying to recall it and use it and make the skill as my own, that didn’t work out too well.

I felt like having a brain fog.

About a week later or so, (or perhaps on the same week as the exam) I thought that perhaps this is some sort of reconciliation. Took a week break, and barely used QL 3 after that. Things began to improve, quickly, and the result became apparent in my second and third exams. (I did much better)

Perhaps it may have been too much for my brain to learn new math material while also doing QL stage 3.

Possibly all these negative effects I noticed came from the wrong usage pattern; I followed the old usage instruction, and just found the new instruction. Listen one loop, take rest next day, then listen another loop the next day and so on. I wish this new instruction came out two months ago (or at least a month ago).

Either way, I am going to be starting QL 3 again soon, and will follow the instruction. (I plan on listening to QL stage 3 until the end of this month, August 2021.) I’m thinking of trying it just itself without any boosters. (Since my semester is done, and I will probably do some light getting ahead with next semester courses, I don’t really have a huge need for boosters.)

Let’s see how things are with new listening schedule.

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#34

Long time no see. During the Fall semester I have only used QL stage 3. This was mainly due to my finding that Q version 2 required more mental power and making me feel more tired, so I thought to mainly stick with the main program, which is QL.

One thing I noticed is the difficulty to maintain the routine. Listen day, rest, listen day, rest, …
I found that keeping with the schedule/routine has been a challenge. For numerous times before going to bed I’d be like, "oh no, today was supposed to be the listening day :frowning: ".

So what were the subliminal results? Well, here’s my academic result.

  1. Math. This math course was quite different from what I’ve done in the past, and someone said this was the easiest math course that person has taken before. It turned out that this math was harder than most of the math I had taken before. Thus, there were struggles in retaining and understanding the material. I’ve done well overall, but I didn’t do well in the exams. (One exam, I did well, the other two, I did pretty poorly.) So overall, not as good experience as I did in the past.

  2. Programming. This one required way too much time and effort. Many dreaded for the poor course structure and how it felt for them it required many unnecessary things. (I agreed to a certain degree.) Didn’t do too well with the quizzes, but many thought quizzes were terrible because of terrible wording in questions and answers. What I found interesting is that when other could not find solutions, I was able to somehow work out a way to get things working one way or another, so when the class average was like 70s in some assignment I’d be getting like 96~97.

I don’t know. Some mixed result with not a perfect listening routine record. However, because I’ve stuck with the stage 3 for two cycles (I’m counting a semester as a cycle), I think I will be moving on.

I’m thinking of taking some break till the end of the year, and start stage 4 from the new year. Hopefully, I can manage the routine better, and get better result in the next stage.

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#35

Okay, I just finished listening to QL stage 4 (listened to ZP), and here’s what I think/noticed.

I suppose this can be also thought as an overall update to my QL experience.

1. Difficulty with handling executive function disorder.

Say I have plans to do something, or say I want to finish xyz (e.g. homework) by certain time. I found that more than half of the times, I failed to keep that. In fact, many times, I’d fail at initiating the work I thought I needed/wanted to do. (I’d be instead playing games or doing something else.)

I found that the difficulty controlling myself was more pronounced in the later stages (like stage 3 and 4) than the earlier ones. I think I had a better control over myself.

One outside factor can be that when I ran the earlier stages, I was taking easier courses (more entry level prerequisite courses) than the courses I have taken during the later stages of QL.

However, what’s interesting about the executive functioning is that I have never missed the deadline or due dates. I have always handed things in time, and never got late penalties. I suppose we can say that although I didn’t have the control of my executive function (or I didn’t have the level of discipline I wanted to have) as much as I liked to, but it was still fine for the school or given task to me.

I don’t want to blame this sort of meh result on executive functioning on QL since I have high functioning autism, ADD and informally diagnosed executive functioning disorder. (My therapist told me I have executive functioning disorder, but we never did proper test nor put that in the written diagnosis)
However, I’ll leave the judgment to whoever is reading this.

Either way, I never had performance issues in terms of required timetable, so I at least met the bottom line.

2. Grasp of the materials.

One thing I have noticed in the last two semesters is that I am having trouble fully understanding the materials, or having the complete mastery of the course materials. (didn’t really have problems with these in the earlier semesters (when I ran stage 1 and 2), but the course materials were easier back then.)

However, what’s funny is that when it comes to homework quizzes and exams I am doing well with an exception of one course. (Especially this semester, when I just ran the last stage.) And that course, I still got the necessary grades to move on.

Let me put it this way. I feel like I have gotten good at finding solutions and figuring out things to work (like finding solutions), but without having good understanding of the material.

It’s difficult to explain, but that’s how it was. Anyway, I am planning to take summer semester off, and planning to do the reviews of the courses I felt I don’t have full understanding of the materials. (But got good grades regardless.) I will be going at the speed I like, so hopefully that will help me get a better grip of the materials.

In a way, it feels like QL is doing something, but not acting in a way that I hoped it would.

Perhaps, I was on cognitive boosting sub for way too long.

The listening pattern has been pretty much like listening to the sub for each semester (so that’s like 3 months or so?) with exception of some stage (I believe for some stage I ran it for 2 semesters). QL stage 4, I ran it shorter, because I read somewhere on this forum that listening to 2 cycles per stage is the best for multistage sub. (1 cycle being 21 days). I did that for stage 4.

Maybe I should just run QL stage 4 till the end of the semester, but I feel like switching to something else. I have ran cognitive related subs for too long.

Speaking of switching subs, I have a strong desire to run HoM, Heartsong and Chosen from within. I had a few other candidates, but had a strong feeling towards these subs.

Let’s see how these goes.

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#36

Finally, I finished the prerequisite courses for the degree.

Still, I feel like I want to review advanced materials before starting the actual degree in the fall. I feel that I was able to use tactics and skills to obtain good (enough) grades (except one, I got all A or A+ in the prerequisites), but I don’t feel like I have built enough mastery of the materials to get me through the actual degree. Therefore, I’ll be taking the summer break reviewing those materials. I suppose I mentioned this in my previous post.

I believe I have listened to HOM, Heartsong, and CFW for about a month (a little bit over). Here’s the listening pattern I followed.

Day 1: HOM, Heartsong, 1 full loop each
Day 2: Break
Day 3: CFW 1 full loop
Day 4: Break

Then the cycle repeats until the 21 day break. (Basically following the standard ZP instruction).

Here are the thoughts/reasoning behind my sub choices.

  1. Building Legacy: In this last several years, I have developed a very strong desire to build a solid legacy (family legacy). When looked at HOM, especially the Medici title, I thought this sub would be quite fitting towards this goal. Although I don’t think I am currently at the best time to start building the legacy (e.g. start building businesses, family, accumulating wealth, building great product/service, etc.) I thought to start HOM since building legacy takes time, meaning that it’s probably better to use the sub for a longer period. So why not start after QL? Besides, I might meet someone at the school (although online) who may be crucial part of my legacy building.

  2. I believe in building a legacy with a partner. (I mean partner as someone whom I will start my family with, in addition to potentially doing business together.) That would require meeting and attracting the right kind of person. Thus, the choice of heartsong.

  3. The reason for choosing CFW was basically the descriptions. The description of chosen and CFW was basically the type of leader I strive/want to be. Why CFW then? Since I am currently not in the leadership role, nor do I see becoming one in a near future (because of being in the school), I thought it would probably better to focus more on the internal things. Thus, I chose CFW.

Now, here’s something interesting I found. I did some more random tarot reading stuff lately, and it was amusing to see that all the choices I made (if not the most) were basically talking about how I am going to get great opportunities (business opportunities, promotions, etc.), and successes are about to come soon. Another interesting thing I also noticed is that it was talking about how my future spouse/partner would be a wealthy person with great connections to get what I want. I don’t remember what my previous readings were like, but I found this amusing as it fitted the legacy and success building goal of my sub stack. Still, the readings are more for the fun than to take things seriously.

Additionally, I find that I notice more random wealth related YouTube videos or articles popping out to me although I wasn’t able to look at them in detail because of the school.

At the same time, I have developed a little bit of feeling/doubt telling me to change the sub stack. For instance, the recent stark’s product page description indicates that it may fit better with my goal (at least in terms of the path towards the legacy, as I will more likely be involved in cutting edge, innovative things. However, HOM is more about building legacy… so it’s not exactly this is better than the other situation). Also, I don’t know if I am currently in a good position to start a relationship. (No career, just doing school, not having my place, not being very social, etc.) Basically, I don’t think being in a school is the best time for me to be involved in a relationship. For me it has always been that the school took entire of me, pretty much making me unable to do anything else. That isn’t great for starting a new relationship nor meeting new people. Perhaps, heartsong isn’t the best sub for the moment. (However, it may be if I am more looking towards building foundations instead of trying to meet the “one” now.)

Third, I have desire to fit PCC somewhere. I think PCC would be very effective given my wants and desires. However, my stack is already full.

These are my current updates and thoughts. I’ll stick with this for this cycle, and I will think about whether to switch or to keep going with this.

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#37

I had itchy ear canal for days (maybe a week or two, on and off with itchiness).

I went to see an ENT doctor, and it turns out that I have acute otitis externa. Well, I haven’t used earphones (or in-ear headphones) for a few days, so I skipped a few days of sub listening days. I suppose I am taking an early sub break.

It will take a few days (2~3 days) of treatment to recover. A few more days to do more research on alternative listening devices.

Next week, I am planning to go to a hearing/listening store to test headphones. Hopefully, I will be able to narrow down to a few options.

#38

I haven’t been able to get a new pair of headphones, and given the ear condition (acute otitis externa), I needed/wanted to switch to headphones.

However for the reasons mentioned here Headphone recommendation for summer and here Headphones with large earcups I haven’t yet picked a new headphone. Sennheiser Momentum 3 is probably the closest to becoming my choice, but I am not satisfied with a few issues that I am still exploring other options.

Thus, I am taking an (unintentional) extended break from subs. (Probably 2~3 weeks already). Maybe this break can be a good thing as I haven’t really had an extended break other than ZP’s 5 days breaks.

Anyway, I am writing this update as I found/experienced something interesting today. Today, I went out with my mom taking public transit. I haven’t gone out in a while, and I haven’t especially taken public transit for a quite a long period of time. (Probably at least 1 to 2 years not using the public transit).

Apparently, I don’t have a sensitivity to getting people’s attention. My mom later told me that everybody was looking at me because of my long hair. (I haven’t gotten a haircut for 2+ years as I don’t think I can get a decent/good one since I can only get a haircut while having a facial mask on. How can one get a good/decent haircut when the stylist cannot see your face?)

It was shocking/interesting for a few reasons. 1. Is my long hair really something that stands out so much to grab “everybody’s” attention? 2. I only noticed one old man checking me out extensively, but that’s it. It certainly didn’t feel like I was getting “everybody’s” attention. 3. Assuming that my mom’s right (and I believe she is since she’s quite sensitive and notices things quite well and easily) how come I didn’t notice people’s attention? If I was getting everybody’s attention, that would have been pretty intense.

Okay, so what does this entail? Maybe I need to develop more sensitivity about getting attention? Maybe I can more easily get dates than I have experienced so far? (Well, attention grabbing is probably better than no attention.) Have I been always insensitive to attention? (Meaning that I have always gotten more attention from people than I realized) Or is this a new development with the attention thing (meaning getting attention is new), but for some reason I am insensitive to it?

Lastly, is any of these (getting attention, and being insensitive) related to the subs I have used? (With most recent stack being HOM, Heartsong, and CFW, and an extended use of QL prior to this stack.)

Speaking of subliminal stack, I had a chance to read newly published PCC and Inner Circle descriptions. They seem like something great, so I might switch. Also, Khan’s description was intriguing. Since I have a few months before the next semester, maybe I should run it. However, I am not sure if I am ready or in a good place to run Khan. (I’m not sure if I can take actions for heavily “sexual” subs given my current situation.)

Hopefully, I will gain more insight about these soon, and hopefully I will be able to get a good pair of headphones that I like.

#39

Someone here has used bone conduction headphones. I’m spacing on if it’s @COWolfe or @James. One of them I think.

If that works for you, it shouldn’t interfere with your ear condition and might even give it a chance to heal up.

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#40

I think both of us have used them. They worked very well for me.

#41

@COWolfe @James

How’s the experience with bone conducting headphones? Are there any sound leakage? What about the pressure? Is the pressure too much? (I mean the pressure causing discomfort and headache) Has it caused sickness? I heard that some people can feel sick from using bone conducting headphones. (It’s like motion sickness you get from being on a moving vehicle (e.g. car, ships, airplanes))

Are they comfortable for long use?

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#42

They’re perfectly fine, and I was using them back in the day when we listened as much as possible.

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#43

I wish we have no question asked 30 day return period like that of the US. Once you open the product packaging, you cannot return the product, unless the product is faulty out of the box. (That’s why I am more cautious and reserved when making a purchase.)

Going back to subliminal/my life related issue, I just purchased The 48 Laws of Power by Robert Greene. I don’t know. After reading the PCC product description page, I felt the need to read the book. (I’m probably going to include PCC in my stack, once I pickup the new pair of headphones, whatever it may be.)

Besides, I have been living pretty much no music, no games, no videos and no reviews/studying for the last 2~3 weeks. (I’m gonna need that headphones soon to start reviewing. Need to re-watch some lectures) It’s probably a good time to do the reading.

I’m not sure how that book’s going to add to my growth, but I have a feeling that it’s going to somehow change me. I just hope it’s going to be a good change.

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#44

I just saw the new release of Chosen: The Way of Nature.

As I was reading the product description, I was like this may be the sub I need for continuing my study. I was thinking that maybe I will stack all 3 Chosen subs together, and truly become the “chosen.”

Perhaps, the “Path to Greatness” begins with I becoming the “Chosen.”

#45

I finally got a new pair of headphones.

Sennheiser HD569. It’s big and light enough. It also does not leak sound much. It’s also relatively cheap. (Other headphones with big earpads are much more expensive.) Only problem might be heat and moist coming from a prolonged use.

It took too much time to figure this out. I hope I’m going to be happy with this headphones for a long time. Hopefully, it does not disappoint me soon.

I will begin my next cycle next week as it’s easier to count days when starting the sub cycle from Monday.

I still have to determine what subs I will use. Here’s the list of subs I’m considering.

  1. Chosen: the way of nature
  2. Chosen from within
  3. Chosen (original version)
  4. Emperor: House of Medici
  5. Stark
  6. Renaissance Man
  7. Heartsong
  8. Khan
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