Week 1 Day 2, Tuesday, August 25th 2020
Listened Sub: Limitless Q masked version
Player: VLC player
Exposure: Total of 2 loops ; one loop before the dinner, and the second loop after dinner. Stopped listening to the 2nd loop around 1/3 of the loop, went out watched TV for a few hours, came back and finished listening the 2nd loop.
Mode of delivery: Listened through Apple’s Earpods, with the computer’s master volume on 2, and VLC’s volume on 75%
Notes:
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Overall, I didn’t feel heightened sense, aura or energy, unlike yesterday.
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Focus and concentration seems pretty good.
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During the first loop, I felt fatigue. Similar level to yesterday.
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While listening to the first loop, I reviewed some math. (MOOC) I noticed that my concentration with the reading was better than usual. However, I was more bored listening to the instruction. Still, I aced the quizzes in the MOOC.
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I also noticed that I made less arithmetic mistakes. I felt more calm doing the math problems, and felt more controlled, and relaxed. When it comes to arithmetic mistakes it usually came from addition and subtractions not from multiplications. Today, I did not make mistakes in addition or subtraction. (Although I made one mistake when I was making an order for delivery.) Also, I deliberately chose to do the calculations in my head, and then used hands to do it again. Again no mistake, or at least much less mistakes.
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Today’s dinner was delivery of wine foods/tapas. My parents wanted to celebrate, so we ordered wine foods and opened wine we had at home. I was able to drank more wine than usual. But I felt more fatigue soon after finished drinking. (I have pretty low tolerance to alcohol. I am trying to increase the tolerance as I think being able to enjoy wine and culture associated with it is useful and necessary in climbing up the ladder.)
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The plan was to get back to Math review, but instead, I crashed and slept for 1~2 hours.
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I got up, but didn’t get back to math, but got outside and watched TV.
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After finished watching TV, took supplements (Lutein, Multivitamin), took shower, came back to room, finished listening to the sub. While listening to the sub, I checked a few emails I got from the school, and replied to them. I also ordered an official transcript to send to the school, checked prerequisite courses, made two plans, proposed and explained which plan I prefer to my newly and recently assigned advisor.
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I almost forgot, but before I started math, I sent a few emails to the school and forwarded one email to the advisor. So I suppose I wrote at least 4~6 emails, and at least one of which is very long and detailed.
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I checked the advisor profile, and the advisor seems to be good as one thing I noticed on Linked in was students praising how they got great advising and how one of them got good advising and recommendation on PhD program. (Basically the advisor’s recommendation letter and advising successfully put the student into the PhD program and helped the student succeed.) Perhaps too early, but could this be a mentor manifestation?
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Right now is around the bed time, and I feel more tired than yesterday. However, I don’t think I can attribute this to the sub; it could be the wine I drank.
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I also began exercising at home; I used to workout, but stopped due to injured shoulder at work. (Military draft related work.) It is nearly 2 years since I exercised, but I felt like starting to exercise again. (I did at gym previously, but now I am thinking of doing it at home.)
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I did not get as much math as I originally wanted to, but I had other things on my plate, such as helping my dad setting up a date for test, working on the prerequisites plans, and start do errands for the masters program. So overall, I suppose I have been productive.
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I think I am more productive, and my cognitive ability at least slightly improved. (Perhaps much more) However, apart from the fatigue, things feel pretty natural to a point that I can question whether things are placebo. (I’m trying to say it’s very smooth and natural feeling so far.) In the previous subliminal usage from other vendors, I had similar experience/thoughts. Please note that I am not saying the sub’s not working, but the feeling is rather natural and smooth that the improvements I felt/made can be thought/felt as placebo. (I don’t think I am communicating as clearly as I want to, but this is the best I can at the moment. I’m tired.)
In the past, when I was in school, I would put so much emphasis that my life quality was not great; very little or no social life, and pretty much only studying/doing course work, some gaming, delivery food, sleep, going to bathroom, and school. Now, with the help of the sub, I want to excel at the school, but at the same time I want to have a good life, with a great life quality. That means not putting 100% emphasis on the school work, and have more balanced life. (Maybe get a date, go out watch movies, and start having sex, and etc… though many of these seem like impossible under the pandemic.)
I think I can have better life and more balanced life without having my school/academic performances suffer. In fact, with the help of the sub, I think I can. For some reason, I have a feeling that I can do these with the help of the subs.
We shall see how things will go, but so far not a bad start.