Iiiinteresting.
What’s your take?
If you finished this, how did you like this book?
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Integration/healing is the only thing I can think of.
she was NASTY in Breaking Bad
total druggie chick.
very few characters I could likely think of to represent grotesquery better than her.
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Good book. Gets one thinking about how to handle finances for family/legacy.
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An empty pack of Funyuns and several discarded condoms would really get Houston troubleshootin’
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People coming from somewhere, heading nowhere. The rat race.
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Dream
I’m in the military again (usually dislike those dreams. This one being no exception).
I and another guy drive a military truck to some distant location to pick up some stuff.
We get to the front desk of this place. I show them my military ID.
In the dream, the ID is a special “enhanced” ID which lets me get to places people couldn’t otherwise go. It also functions as my driver’s license.
They look at my ID, and they decide it isn’t valid. So they cut it into 3 pieces.
I’m suddenly pissed. I said “You could’ve called my base command to confirm it! How the fuck am I gonna get back to home base now!?”
“The other guy can drive”
“NO he, the fuck, canNOT! My ID you just cut up is the only way we were able to drive for this mission. He doesn’t have one, and besides, he can’t even drive! You need to FIX this muthafuckin right NOW!”
At some point, they finally call base command and find out the ID is, in fact, valid. Then they sheepishly say “Sorry. Nothing we can do about it now.”
Basically I’m stuck there, unable to leave the base without the ID Think poor Charlie on the M.T.A. But did he ever return ? No , he never returned and his fate is still unlearned.
That’s basically all I remember.
No idea yet as to the symbolism/meaning. I still feel pissed off just remembering it enough to type out this entry 
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I just ran today’s stack.
I zonked myself so well while listening that my mind was completely awake/aware and I could hear myself snoring.
Got quite a bit of imagery and voices popping into my head. It’s all faded now.
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I spent most of yesterday and into last night/early this morning moving domains from one web host to the other. Both hosts seem to use the same underlying tech, some of the stuff they sell/resell is from the same actual provider. I get it. That’s how that business seems to be.
New host is basically half the monthly cost of the current one. AND the new host has cPanel. The host I’m on had cPanel when I first signed on. cPanel is THE main reason I chose that host, because cPanel has the ability to import tons of email forwarding addresses at once from CSV. They (STUPIDLY) got rid of cPanel at some point for their own in-house replacement.
That replacement is a piece of fucking shit. Basically has zero of the useful features of cPanel.
Anyway, I’m switching. All that so far to set up what follows.
I went and got the wife from work last night. Came back to the room. We ate. She went to bed since she has to work again today.
She’d had a bad day at work because people coming through her self-checkout lane were acting all entitled, or a few were complaining about store policy and being way more rude than warranted.
So she’s in bad, and I’m at the desk moving more domains over.
After a few minutes, she yells “What’s that fucking noise? It sounds like someone popping a soda can over and over!”
No idea what she’s talking about. Eventually she realizes it’s when I was clicking the left-click on my laptop’s touchpad.
“I’m TRYING to sleep! Do you HAVE to do that!?”
I let the negativity get the best of me and said “It’s never been a fuckin problem before when I’m over here working on things. You just had a bad day at work. I’m not the bad guy. I didn’t do that stuff to you!”
Anyway, I quit working and just went to bed. it was 3 times or so of her complaing about my “noise”. And if you’ve ever clicked a laptop touchbad button, definitely not that loud.
So I dreamed these 2 things:
Dream 1
We’re at a movie theather. It’s me, the wife, and Nicholas Hoult (though in the dream I’m not sure if he’s himself or Hank McCoy.
She apparently scored some deal where you pay for one movie and get to watch a 2nd for free.
We watch whatever the first movie is. Not even sure what it is. don’t recall.
The 2nd movie comes up, and she has no idea what it is. It’s at the scene of some crime or something. And a guy takes a movie camera where the top of it is shared like a bejeweled or glittery owl head. It has 2 lenses, where the eyes would be. Even the lenses aren’t smooth. They’re the same texture as the flashing lights they use on construction barriers to get driver’s attention.
I ask wife “What movie IS this?” because I think it must be the horror flick I’d seen previews for called “The Owl”. The previews set it up as a murderous owl(?)
She says “I think it’s called The Light of Being” and I said “I think it’s The Owl, but not sure yet”. I’m already getting into the movie and it’s only less than 5 minutes in.
She and Nicholas/Beast decide they don’t want to watch it and are all “We’re leaving”.
I said “It just started. Let’s watch it. looks good!”
“No, let’s go”
I’m not in my own vehicle, so I have to go too. We’re walking back to the car, and I kept on “I was WATCHING THAT!”
She basically said “So? Doesn’t matter.” and Nicholas/Beast gave me a look that seemed to say “Stop whining and let’s go”.
I then said “Did you even bother picking a movie for the 2nd one?” and she shrugged and said “Nope. But I don’t want to see that one. Let’s go”
I got more and more pissed, and feeling as if I don’t matter to them. Also wondering why she’d waste a free movie voucher without even picking a movie she might like (she doesn’t do thrillers/horror). dream fade…
Dream 2
This one seemed to be related to the plot of the newer Star Wars trilogy (even though I haven’t seen them so can’t say for sure). I remember Poe Dameron (Oscar Isaac) was in it and made it a point to make sure I knew his name.
This dream was basically a scene where the Empire or whatever they’re called in those movies found most of the rebels and surrounded them and executed them with blasters. They didn’t even stand a chance.
I woke up this morning still pissed beyond belief. And was thinking "Why am I even married if my opinions or desires don’t matter?
It faded after about 30 minutes though. Just strange given I’m running a pure money/wealth/productivity stack.
Though the dream might have been in spite of my stack, rather than because of it. The dream itself felt exactly like how I felt last night.
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these results are from dr:ld got similar feelings aswell and more. it was really hard to stay grounded after 3 months on it
I’ve got DR:P going in there too. I’m sure it’s helping DR:LD along
Today is rest day. I’m at work after my stretch of 3-days off.
I spent those 3 days doing work of moving stuff from the old web host to the new one. Still got more to do.
I’m noticing Emperor Black rearing its head today (I think). Kept me hella focused since Wednesday night on host work. It’s cumbersome moving files and WordPress DBs because my host has them siloed to each specific site, which means separate SSH/shell logins for each.
But I’ve been doing it with focus and drive like never before.
Today, though, at work, I’m noticing myself feeling pissed I have to be at the day job lol.
“Why can’t I be back home working on MY stuff?”
Definitely taking a break from EB once this cycle ends on Feb 29.
I definitely understand more about running EB sparingly
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One of my favorite subs for getting things done and not slowing down for anything or anyone.
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Today is the first day I’m kinda dreading running my stack. Time to go run my stack 
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I left work early. Kinda migrainey. Mostly just don’t wanna be there. I think this stack is definitely detrimental to E-dom.
Wonder if it’s EB causing this upheaval in me. Or NR.
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Yesterday I was reminded by Facebook ads about you.
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So I don’t remember if I said before about my supervisor quitting the job. Found a job that pays enough she doesn’t have to work at our job and another she had at a fast food place.
Well, they hired a new supervisor. Met her yesterday.
She’s cute as fuck
Dammit
Was hoping for either a dude or an ugly chick.
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go for it.