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Heartsong
EoG4
Synergy: Perfection Manifestation
Synergy: The Golden One
Synergy: Secrets of Seduction
Instant Business Tactician
Synergy: Winner Overdrive
Synergy: Machine Unleashed
Synergy: Carpe Vitam
Goal of it would be manifesting wealth- and business-minded romantic partner(s)
Relatable. Not sure where it comes from for me though.
I used to feel “aroused” and need to have a quick release. Now I can shift into some other mode more quickly without needing that release.
I’m noticing that hotel manager seems to have more and more dimples when she sees me now. smiling different
Definite “IOI awareness” scripting in Khan I’m guessing. or it’s clearing out my inability to notice them (since I’m “only” done with ST1 a few days ago).
6/24/2024 @ 2:18 AM
So Khan2, Khan Black2, and EoG2 are fantastic so far.
The only “recon” I’m getting is being tired while running the stack. But I’m ok after the stack is over.
Sitting on the bench at the grocery store tonight waiting for the wife to get off work. She was bagging for Maja while Maja was the cashier. Maja is 18, is way cute, and is the daughter of one of the other cashiers (who is also cute and would be fun based on things she’s said).
Been reading more of Alabaster Girl. And in that book Zan talks about the idea of all women being “My girl” in that we’re fascinated by all women.
I decided to play with this a bit tonight.
I looked at Maja, soft gaze, and just thought/decided “She’s my girl” and started just noticing her body, how she moves, appreciating her look more and more.
In a sense, it felt temporarily like falling in love with someone, but not the one-itis kind. More of the “connected” feeling I get when sending Reiki to someone.
But throw in a dash of desire, since she IS cute after all.
Within seconds of feeling that and really taking in her beauty, she suddenly looked over at me, now we’re talking a distance of like 50-60 feet away, and she was NOT looking at me before.
She looked, saw me looking, smiled, I smiled back. The couple times I saw he again in the store while the wife and I were grabbing some food before heading home, she seemed like she was shooting glances at me.
Definitely something about this stack…
I notice that the more I’m running Khan2, KB2, EoG2, the easier it is for me to talk to women such as the cute hotel manager.
I feel as if it’s Khan affecting that result more. KB is less of a romance/seduction sub. Been thinking of dropping EoG for now, because financial-wise, I’m not in a position to do much with EoG yet.
Basically in survival mode right now. Working my job, wife’s job cut her hours back because she had to change her availability so they’d quit scheduling her to be in charge of the self-checkout lanes.
She gets panic attacks from that because that’s all they ended up ever scheduling her for, and never giving her breaks (as in rotating other people in).
So her hours are less. It’s back to being like it was last year before she got the job she has.
That situation was: I go to work, come back to the room, we go do Instacart (after she’s been in the room all day) and also doing instacart on my days off.
It’s getting to be like that again. Where the only “days off” I get on my actual days off are days she happens to work. And even THEN, once I pick her up from work, she’s wanting to sit in the fucking parking lot and wait for IC orders.
Big issue is IC isn’t anywhere near as “good” as it was last year.
Shit orders for the most part where we’d end up putting all the money made back into the gas tank to replenish what gas we used.
Part of me wants to tell her to just “suck it up” in regards to the job stuff. Though I get the whole thing of panic attacks due to the job (from my days taking Apple customer calls).
So I know I “shouldn’t” resent losing my off time, etc. But I do, so I just have to accept that for now.
Running a title like EoG, or Emperor, etc when at a day job and/or doing stupid-ass Instacart just makes me feel worse. Since gig work like that is a pure time/money trade with zero chance of doing any actual good.
She was content the other day to sit in the store parking lot for 3 hours waiting until FINALLY an order came up that was $47 to deliver stuff to 2 different people.
She said “See? That wasn’t so bad. That one only took us 45 minutes.”
I got irritated and said “It took 3 fucking HOURS of waiting though! That COUNTS!”
anyway lol.
Thinking of doing Khan solo for the rest of these cycles OR maybe stacking Khan with the Dick Juicer and Primal Nights. Get her in the mood more. dunno.
When I’m ready to dive back into EoG, Khan Black would be perfect to stack with it all around.
I’ll decide in a couple days on my next sub day.
I feel like this might have been asked before. But does your wife run any of the subs?
Not anymore. Used to do paragon
It’s too bad because she would benefit from titles like Sanguine or Seductress 
I have a hard time with people avoiding work due to panic attacks. I understand the wanting to say suck it up. What is she doing to address her anxiety? Avoidance and escapism are temporary fixes for a bigger problem. I used to be like that until I chose to soar like a Phoenix rising from the ashes. 
Why hold back what you’re thinking or feeling? Doesn’t that lead to more resentment?
Anywho 
It’s legit panic attacks. I’ve offered my “services” but hypnosis still scares her. So whatever lol.
She’d rather just do something else. Which I understand.
It’s like people with snake phobias just find it easier to not get too close to snakes. No real incentive to fix the issue when they can just not go up to snakes.
I get this. I would never work retail again. Energy is better spent focusing on what someone wants vs throwing that energy into trying to fix something that has limited reward except for saying “I can do this now”.
6/28/2024 @ 11:12 AM
Today is sub day. Decided I want to dive in further to Khan itself and being a better version of my Khanself.
Will shift gears:
Going back to Khan 1
10 mins each of:
Khan1
Ascension
Godlike Masculinity
I ran that new stack yesterday. Definitely felt strong.
Today I wanted to try K2 with ascension and GLM. Because I got the feeling maybe I was doing myself a disservice by starting K1 all over.
Ran it before taking the wife to work. 10 mins each.
Got her dropped off. Took a totally different route back to our hotel room. On a whim.
Then as I was walking from the car back into the room, in the parking lot/car park I suddenly felt like I should remove my phone case. So I did.
No more phone case for my phone.
Goes back to a previous entry:
I definitely feel like I’m inviting myself to be more in control. If that isn’t “inner alpha” I don’t know what is.
No more case. I don’t need it anymore. Khan2 it is.
I got recon.
Brain: Stop running Khan
Me: No, mutherfucker
Decided to alternate stages of khan each sub day.
Today was 10 mins each of Khan4, ascension, GLM
Listened to that about 90 minutes ago while still at work.
At the grocery store now. In the parking lot. Went in for a bathroom break.
As I was walking through the parking lot to go in, I suddenly felt ALIVE.
Noticing women.
One saw me looking. I smiled and kept walking.
I watched an interview last night between Tom Bilyeu and Robert Greene.
One thing they touched on was how women get turned on if they know you’re losing control over them.
As in, primal attraction and not being able to control or contain it.
I played with feeling that internally when I saw an attractive woman.
Interesting thing is the penis was alive too. Bigger and ready to go. As if I’d run BDML.
Like a new baseline. Might be temporary. Dunno. But still awesome nonetheless.
Back to K1 best sub day. And repeat…:
Khan1+Ascension+GLM
Ran later in the evening. That was a busy Instacart day. So I’ll probably observe acute effects more tomorrow on rest day.
Had a shower after, and sexy thoughts about the cute hotel manager were coming up quite easily.
So I just realized something. At work on Tuesday, I loaded up a playlist of what I thought was Khan4+Ascension+GLM.
But I realized today that is accidentally out KB4 instead of Khan. So it was KB4+Ascension+GLM.
Explains the thing the last couple days of being horny but not conttrolled by it. Ready to go but able to temper it.
Oopsie.
But that’s awesome. Means I’m already capable of running KB4 without recon!
Definitely considering a custom with Khan4 and KB4
Wife has wanted it 4 times this past week.
Khan+Ascension+GLM seems to be doing something.
Nice one! 
Today was my last khan day for now. Khan4, Ascension. GLM.
Got 3 exposures to each of the khan stages, which is enough patterning for the SubC to work on it.
20ish minutes after running it, I walked into the grocery store.
Felt powerful af. Saw lots of women and felt incredibly horny.
That was fun.
I didn’t feel out of control at all. Just basking in the horny aura.