part of my experience with khan 1.
In the first week I walked down a narrow hallway to my desk, right out of the kitchen corner came a small plump woman with a flat nose and curly hair, she tries to taunt me a lot and embarrasses me. She is like this. She thinks I’m a nice guy.
When she arrived I could already see from her (let’s call her S) body that she wanted to bully. I felt so much anger rise that I quickly walked to the swinging doors. As she followed me, I grabbed the door and slammed it in her face… atleast…until the door almost touched her face - then I stopped it and all she got was strong stream of air in her face, enough to know that if I would let go she would have hit the ground. I was boiling with anger and I was done with her. I’m sure she felt it.
My manager said: Are you slamming the door ???!!!
me: Yes I said loudly, in S her face!!!
me: kept looking fierce at S
Some colleagues looked at my manager and I saw my manager shrug. I never expected to stand up for myself like that. Felt so good!
In one of my breaks I saw a woman, wearing black pants with beautiful ass and dark hair. I think she was turkish, it felt like my body was automatically walking towards her full of desire. She was looking out and turned around. I asked her if it was her birthday (someone was having a treat). All I did was keep smalltalk, while all i wanted to say how gorgeous she looked and that I wanted to kiss her. Instead of that I felt anxious to speak it out…I wonder how that would have ended, at least would have made it much more exciting.
Other time3, I mocked a female colleague because I thought she was so weird. I told some friends (colleagues) of mine what strange things she says:
I was sitting at my desk with a hot thermostat and some smoke came out (hot water).
She blurted and yelled out : are you smoking a joint??!?
me: “wtf face” no… “frown”
She: oh okay (confused) and quickly went to talk to another colleague
I told other colleagues what she was saying and everyone made a frowing / that is weird expression. Then she tried to get me back and said I was naive even though I waved it off. When I got home I felt really shitty. because I knew on a level that I was always unnessearly nice. I see how khan can make one so polarizing.
Is this what you also experience at khan st1? Over a period of 8 months? If so shit man
@pacman I’m curious, what’s one of your most shitties moments?
khan st1 has brought me a lot of good but also a lot of ugly man