I’d like to continue on with this journal and continue to expand on what I’ve learned, accomplished, and struggled with since I started up with Subliminal Club.
After my big win of my business taking off, I went through an intense period of prolonged excitement and abdication of responsibility. I celebrated my business success by not working for 5 full days… 2 week days, and then a 3-day long weekend. I wasn’t proud of myself, but, being that successful was a new experience for me and I’m forgiving myself for not handling it as well as I wished I did. Next time, I’ll celebrate my victories by making more cold calls for work!
I learned that subliminal club’s initial effects can be likened to a “Honeymoon Period” where the subliminals are fast acting at first, but don’t take permanent hold unless you let them do their work. That makes a lot of sense, as I was starting to wonder whether or not their diminishing effects meant that I was doing something wrong, or that it was time to find “new” subs to work with.
That’s the big thing I wanted to write about when I started this update… my mind has been RACING with all kinds of new stacks and subs that I “could” be doing. I’m fascinated by GLM, StarkQ, Ascension, RebirthU, DreamsU, RICH, The Commander, and The Executive.
This is a major flaw in my personality overall. I do something for 2 weeks with fervent intensity, then lose my consistency and start imagining all the other things that I can do instead. I think it’ll be a major win for me to continue to run Ascended Mogul for 3-6 months rather than jump from sub to sub so quickly. I’ve been gently criticized by friends I trust many times in life that I jump from passion to passion too quickly.
I’ve been doing a lot of the Life(Chargers) as well and they’re pretty interesting… I’m not really sure what the purpose of As Above / So Below is, but they were cool meditations. Doing the Commander was awesome… I felt so confident and in control of myself after that, even though it was just a ten minute life-charger.
Also, I added Regeneration to my stack and at first it was helping with Reconciliation but after a few days, Reconciliation hit me if I listened to too much too fast again.
My main goal now is to go back to just Ascended Mogul and see what I’d like to add on to my stack from there. I’m thinking StarkQ, but for now, I’m going to keep it plain jane. Maybe run some Regeneration here and there if my girlfriend is playing it on the speakers… and I’ll run some LifeChargers, if that’s not too much.
My main goals with subliminals are to become financially successful and grow my business into something massively profitable. I attribute a lot of status and pride to the concept of successful entrepreneurship, and I would be proud to have started a 50k or 100K per month company… I’m over-the-moon proud to even have a company that’s running 10K/month.
Side goals that interest me in Subliminals that I’d like to explore later are dreams and sexuality. Simply put, I already have really vivid dreams, so, Dreams Ultima seems fantastic… and the work that I’ve done on that sub with the LifeCharger app already is promising. Nothing crazy to report, but I did feel like I was more aware of the dreams that I had and that my dreams were more meaningful + message-full.
The sexual interest I have is in increasing my sex drive. I have an amazing relationship, but she’s hornier than I am. I lost a bunch of my sex drive after going on and then going off medication over 6 months. Diamond Ultima seems like it could be helpful, or perhaps another sub, but I’m leery of anything that would increase my desire for multiple partners. I’d love to just want my girlfriend more regularly. Currently, I only crave sex about once every 7-10 days. Perhaps this sexual disinterest is about recent events… medication, work stress, we’ve been dating for a while and are getting habituated to each other…
Or perhaps the sexual disinclination is a manifestation of old sexual wounds and trauma. When I was in high school i was very sexually active but i was an extreme premature ejaculator. I experienced extreme, debilitating amounts of self shame starting from age 15 until 23… aka 2 years ago. I remember thinking accomplishing anything in life was completely useless, since no matter what I accomplished, I’d die alone and unlovable (due to my premature ejaculation.)
I am only just now linking a possible connection between sex and accomplishment… maybe healing one will heal the other and vice versa. If anyone has any comments about whether I should run RebirthU, Regeneration, or a sexual healing sub, I’m all ears, but I’ll try to stick just to AscMog and a bit of Regen for the time being until i can commit to something else.
Expect to see me update again in a week or two. I read this forum every other day, so, comment if I’ve forgotten about this for a while and I’ll respond.
