Nova Elite: Kether to Malkuth

[Malkuth]

Thank you for the encouragement.

[RVconsultant]

the way you do and say things is a choice and is indicative of your own state of mind.

Yes. The process (how one communicates) is a message as much as the content (words).

I fucked up.

You’re human. Some times I wonder if you’re a transcendent entity, though.

I’ve been wondering for about a week about reconciliation for you.

What is your plan for a listening schedule for the next 8 days?

[Malkuth]

What is your plan for a listening schedule for the next 8 days?

Psychic of you, because I think it might be just about 8 days until I listen again.

Was planning for a 7-day rest period. But am also floating the following as a possible play schedule:

M, Tu play stack
Wed rest
Th, Fri play stack
Sat, Sun: rest

Haven’t made final decision yet. I’ll see how this rest week feels first.

If I do follow that schedule though, then my next play day would be Thursday June 10. 8 days from now.

[RVconsultant]

YOU are the one who is psychic, man!

This is was more or less what I was hoping you would do.

Also consider:
M play stack
Tu, Wed rest
Th, Fri play stack
Sat, Sun: rest

[AlexanderGraves]

As a father myself I know what you mean.

While you are right you also need to forgive yourself.
Not that it’s okay to react wrongly, but you’re human and little kids can be very fkn annoying.
It’s totally fine to be annoyed by them.

Parents are sometimes afraid to say that their child is annoying sometimes. I think it’s healthy.

[Malkuth]

One very tangible and meaningful result from last year’s subliminal stack:

Identifying, Recognizing, and Moving Towards my Vocational Niche.

As usual, it happened so imperceptibly and naturally. I only noticed the connection very recently. It’s actually still developing now.

I connect this result most directly to Alchemist Pathfinder (ST 1), but also to Quantum Limitless Stage 1.

It’s truly amazing.

I am now developing in an area that I really believe in and I actually have a grounded vision and initial set of goals . I’m holding it gently and lightly since it’s in an early stage of development, but it’s a very strong result. It’s a dream come true. And it came/is coming so quietly. What I’m aware of now is, I think, still only the tip of the iceberg.

[Malkuth]

empathy - the super power disguised as a sacrifice

[Sage_Ninjistic]

Don’t take criticism from someone you wouldn’t take advice from.

If they don’t know you personally, don’t take it personally.

[Sage_Ninjistic]

As a parent, I don’t have as much wiggle-room for messing up. And I found myself getting short and irate with my son this morning when he was dragging his feet to go catch the school bus.

(I was also operating on little sleep. But that too is related in its own way.)

I have rather short patience with my own 18 month old kid ever since I’ve been listening to Alpha titles and I’ve been really, really, really working to be mindful of not only what I tell him but how.

My biological dad was a hard man. I’m trying to be better than he was and that’s the major reason I put Dynasty in my first custom.

How are you?

[AlexanderGraves]

My biological dad was a hard man

I’m sure this also made you a strong man. It’s not all bad.

We judge our parents sometimes too harshly. They did their best according to their time and knowledge.

[Malkuth]

I have rather short patience with my own 18 month old kid ever since I’ve been listening to Alpha titles and I’ve been really, really, really working to be mindful of not only what I tell him but how.

My biological dad was a hard man. I’m trying to be better than he was and that’s the major reason I put Dynasty in my first custom.

How are you?

Thanks @Sage_Ninjistic. I really appreciate you reaching out.

I relate to what you said. I’m also striving to be mindful of how I interact with him and of how I use my power. The interaction the other morning was probably on the mild side. But I could see that I was out of pocket.

One type of question I’ll ask myself is: “If I were feeling great and If I were not tired/stressed out/in a bad mood (etc.,) would I have chosen these words and acted this way?” If the answer is ‘No. If I had been feeling good, I would not have spoken like this.’ then that means it’s on me. To blame it on the issue at that point is dishonest to me. That means, to me, that I have to do more to get my situation right. You know?

My son’s not annoying. Definitely not more annoying than I am. haha. That’s my dude. Pretty chill guy.

The goal is for him to know that he’s respected and loved. And if I mess up, I’m going to apologize to him. Just like I would require him to apologize if he messed up. And even if he does mess up, I’ll love him and we’ll keep it rolling. If he can do the same for me when I mess up, I appreciate that.

He can be pretty terse and keeps things brief. When he read my e-mail apologizing, his reply was the usual for any of my e-mails:

‘ok’.

hahaha. my man.

but I could see when we linked up later in the day that we were probably good. so, I felt good about that.

i want him to be able to step to me if he thinks I need to be stepped to. Homie’s almost taller than me now, so haha. guess that won’t be an issue in either case.

He’s a good guy.

In other news, I’ve mentioned in the past that we were playing a loop of Limitless 2-5 times a week over this past year. He actually got a manifestation from that. (Got selected to apply to an advanced learning type situation.) In the end, it didn’t quite pan out, but it bodes well.

[Sage_Ninjistic]

I’m sure this also made you a strong man. It’s not all bad.

It has made me into the person I am today. That person has many shining qualities he hasn’t even fully appreciated, as well as qualities that aren’t as… Appreciated.

I’m grateful for every single occurrence I’ve had in my life to this moment, good, bad and ugly because regardless of the experience, there was something to learn from it.

My childhood wasn’t very stable in living environments and myself and my siblings were in foster care until we were adopted. As a child I was confused, angry and felt abandoned and refused to connect with anyone on a real level for a looong time.

I mention this because today I had a lot of epiphanies related to childhood and my anger and commitment issues, and realized I more than likely was neglected as a young one. I had a lot of things released from my emotional centers…

But. My point in aaaall that is I have no anger towards my mom for her bad choices that caused us to be taken and I have accepted my father for all of him, good and terrifying I have never challenged any of my parental figures on how I was raised and the shit that was put into my head that I had to work out on my own. All I do is take what I like from their system to apply to my boy and discard the rest

We judge our parents sometimes too harshly. They did their best according to their time and knowledge.

I think every parent has to go through being criticized by their children and sheepishly remember how they did the same exact thing to their parents. It’s a bit of an inevitable cycle. But yes, I do tend to agree.

Until we’re in our parents shoes, we can never truly appreciate their struggle.

[Sage_Ninjistic]

Thanks @Ninjistic. I really appreciate you reaching out.

Of course. I genuinely like the guy I see on the internet.

I relate to what you said. I’m also striving to be mindful of how I interact with him and of how I use my power. The interaction the other morning was probably on the mild side. But I could see that I was out of pocket

The last part of that is the most important and it’s cool you don’t just write it off as if it doesn’t matter. You seem to appreciate the impact of your actions. I really enjoyed this next quoted part because it resonates with me and I will be using a similar approach with my guy.

One type of question I’ll ask myself is: “If I were feeling great and If I were not tired/stressed out/in a bad mood (etc.,) would I have chosen these words and acted this way?” If the answer is ‘No. If I had been feeling good, I would not have spoken like this.’ then that means it’s on me. To blame it on the issue at that point is dishonest to me. That means, to me, that I have to do more to get my situation right. You know?

I think I do know where you’re coming from.

The goal is for him to know that he’s respected and loved. And if I mess up, I’m going to apologize to him. Just like I would require him to apologize if he messed up. And even if he does mess up, I’ll love him and we’ll keep it rolling. If he can do the same for me when I mess up, I appreciate that.

I know that’s right!! Strong family shit.

He can be pretty terse and keeps things brief. When he read my e-mail apologizing, his reply was the usual for any of my e-mails:

‘ok’.

hahaha. my man.

but I could see when we linked up later in the day that we were probably good. so, I felt good about that.

One, I’ve never seen someone use the word terse in a sentence except in books and I appreciate that you just did lmao no idea why.

Two, he seems to handle things well internally if he wasn’t giving you the silent treatment or other similar behavior #frame2stronk

i want him to be able to step to me if he thinks I need to be stepped to. Homie’s almost taller than me now, so haha. guess that won’t be an issue in either case

My *****

-Denzel Washington, Training Day

In other news, I’ve mentioned in the past that we were playing a loop of Limitless 2-5 times a week over this past year. He actually got a manifestation from that. (Got selected to apply to an advanced learning type situation.) In the end, it didn’t quite pan out, but it bodes well.

You had mentioned that, I was going to ask you about that at some point, I’m glad you mentioned it. Have you been able to find a way to objectively determine the improvement he’s experienced or are you just taking things as they come?

[Malkuth]

Have you been able to find a way to objectively determine the improvement he’s experienced or are you just taking things as they come?

Taking things as they come, for the most part. But he is a student so there are periodic assessments.

My goal is for him to find his passions and to connect to (healthy) things that are motivating for him. Grades? Meh. They help, but finding things that you can really believe in and that inspire you to seek discipline because you genuinely desire greater effectiveness? That’s the holy grail.

Like you, I’m now (gratefully) running Dynasty. I think it’s so cool for you to be running that module with an 18-month old. That is awesome.

[Sage_Ninjistic]

They help, but finding things that you can really believe in and that inspire you to seek discipline because you genuinely desire greater effectiveness ? That’s the holy grail.

That’s beautiful man, you’re a good father for that. For whatever it’s worth.

Like you, I’m now (gratefully) running Dynasty. I think it’s so cool for you to be running that module with an 18-month old. That is awesome.

I also run it so that it (hopefully) tames a bit of my more lecherous tendencies and honor my relationship, unconventional as it may be. I also have a history of being ‘that kid’ in my adopted family and my black sheepedness (spell check didn’t like that one) has had me at odds with a lot of my family.

Just the other day, my brother randomly showed up in Vegas from new Mexico and wanted to see me. The last time this brother and I saw each other, I body slammed him cuz he’s a little git. This was three years ago.

It was as if that never happened! I should have made note of that in my journal but it didn’t occur to me that that was Dynasty, smiling with her radiant visage.

Good stuff.

I’ve read through this journal, but what’s the roadmap intentions for your current playlist as Malkuth currently stands?

[Malkuth]

Congratulations on that Dynasty result with your brother! That excites and inspires me to see what kinds of developments I may experience with this module.

I’ve read through this journal, but what’s the roadmap intentions for your current playlist as Malkuth currently stands?

Even after so many entries on this discussion forum, I am still figuring out and working out exactly how I want to use the journal.

Let’s see if I express things more clearly and specifically as I keep posting. We shall see.

[Sage_Ninjistic]

We shall see

I like forward to it

[Malkuth]

As I’ve posted on my journals from time to time, I sometimes use the Yi Jing as a support for my intuition when I am trying to work on a question for which I have no clear answer.

Quite frequently, I’ll get a response from the Yi Jing that is extremely well-suited to the question.

After a few days on my current stack, I was thinking about options for rest days, and was not sure which I wanted to pick. Previously, I’d do 6 days on and 1 day of rest. But for this current stack, I was considering 5 days on, 2 days off, or even 4 days on and 3 days off.

I decided to consult the Yi Jing about it.

4 days on 3 days off was somewhat better but not great.

I consulted with the general question, ‘How should I approach rest days?’ and got the 34th hexagram 大壯, or Great Strength. The particular line that was emphasized was line 4. This line represents pushing ahead with strength.

I then asked, ‘hmmm…well, what if I take 0 rest days’, and a really positive response came back.

I decided to do an experiment of running my stack without rest days for some period of time.

My stack contains 2 major customs and 2 Ultimas. I play two loops of each.

By about day 17 or day 18, I started feeling like it was time to take a break. I did not experience discomfort, but I did find that in meditation, my consciousness felt ‘choppier’, like an ocean with larger, more tumultuous waves. On day 20, I got irritated in 2 situations. But I’d also only been able to get 3-4 hours of sleep the night before. (It was extremely plausible, in other words, that those two instances of irritation might have occurred even without the subliminal input.) Other than that, I actually felt pretty good.

Nevertheless, I decided to end the experiment at 3 weeks, to then stop all subliminal exposure for 7 days and to see how the rest period affected me. So, that’s what I did (and am doing).

I played my stack at 2 loops per day of each element for 21 days. That 21st day was this past Tuesday. I’ve now finished my 2nd day of this rest week. I’ll probably continue the ‘rest week’ for 7-8 days. When I return, I plan to play my stack on a Thursday, Friday and Monday, Tuesday schedule. 4 days a week.

I felt some ambivalence about describing this experience/experiment here. But, this is my journal, and while my experience does not seem very similar to anyone else’s, it is still a legitimate, possible experience and as such could add some value to the collective data.

The main hypothesis I have at present is that the ongoing, long-term meditation practice may impact processing and integration/reconciliation.

[Malkuth]

Many people define belief as something like “One’s sense of what is true” or “What one holds to be true”.

My own current definition of belief is “Mental alignment”. I conceive of belief as a kind of energy, like magnetism or electricity. If I align that energy with some particular reality, idea, or phenomenon, then I am investing that reality with my belief.

This sense of belief feels more accurate to me.

[Malkuth]

Three words:

Ontology

Cosmology

Phenomenology

Existence, World/Universe, Experience

These get to the root of what Alchemist is about for me.

Contacting them. Navigating them. Elaborating them.