Ahhh yes. That would have been with the OG Wanted, her and I are no longer together.
I’ve been single since I began running WB.
Consider starting a journal. It really helps, man.
Edit: actually, to the best of my recall, that was a Wanted custom that I created back then 
My WB/Nectar custom was resent to me by support.
Not changing my mind about Primal Seduction, however. Only slightly tempted to run it but… Not really, lol.
For those that have no desire to scroll up:
Wanted Black
The Revelation of the Nectar Within
Alexander’s Play
Gorgeous Manifestor
Sexual Manifestation
Approachability Aura
Total Nonchalance
Edge of Falling
Potentiator
King’s Radiance
Enchanting Smile
Seducer’s Gaze
Sensuality & Handsomeness Improver
Hegemon
Charisma and Flirting Automatic Mentor/Improver
Song of Joy
Virtue Series: Kindness
Virtue Series: Patience
New Dawn
Restorer of Ways
I downloaded the updated Primal Seduction just before on a whim checking my email, which is why I noticed the support response.
Thanks again, guys.
I am waiting till my mind and emotions are a bit more settled before deciding if I’ll run it - PS - or if I’ll wait till tomorrow.
In the meantime, been watching YouTube videos to identify and work on limiting beliefs in dating.
One thing of note that I’ve noticed that is a recurring theme and, one that I’ve been on before but sorta forgotten, is the power of desexualizing my mind.
It’s uncanny to me.
When I’m running a Wanted series title, my kid’s mom in a whole other state starts showing active, albeit sly, interest.
When I’m intending to run Primal Seduction or Emperor, it seems to me she starts causing issues that don’t need to be caused.
I could be wrong in my way of seeing it but, that’s what my memory is showing me.
Regardless, I’m still running it!
I’ve been letting my intuition tell me when to play it so it’s been I believe about 4 days since I last used a title. It’ll either be tonight when I get my mind right after some forgiveness focus (can’t keep letting her get to me) or mañana, en la mañana.
I refuse to let 2024, this Year of 8, be fucked up by outer conditions.
I haven’t typed this in what feels like forever on a journal, but…
Ever onwards, ever upwards.
Not tonight.
I’m going through enough right now with having recently made the firm decision that I no longer desire to smoke weed. It’s been a few days, maybe a week and I’m having psychological withdrawals. That’s part of the reason that I’ve been focusing more on being mindful recently.
I don’t want weed in my life anymore. I’m not sure how far I’m going to take this but, seeing as I’ve moved and will likely have to make a new friend group (my old ‘friend’ group is not conducive to growth), I may just have to disassociate with people in the ‘stoner culture.’
I’ve been stagnant in my inner growth since coming back to California and I feel like my truer self is yearning to be but having ‘wasted’ months smoking weed and watching Netflix, gaming and what not while care giving for my dad, I felt like I was slowly dying inside.
No more, I say.
… Weed, that is. I’ve got a pretty good handle on screen time when sober and actually have been growing more and more disinterested in my PS4 and TV in general.
I want something more; what that is, idk yet
And ultimately, I don’t really consider these past few months a waste. It is in a way great that I went through this period, as now, I know yet another thing that doesn’t serve me.
So, yesterday morning I woke up and realized that the skin on my face felt smoother. My eyes are also clearer.
Didn’t think much of it yesterday so I didn’t note it but here in this journal, we’re ten toes down and note everything.
What is it that I want?
What is it that I desire?
If there was one thing I could change today, what would that be?
Got her number, had a great conversation with her today.
I invited the girl to join me on a walk which she agreed to, we walked around for awhile talking about different things of interest before settling at a bench and talking about quite a few things.
She’s smart, got a nice sense of humor and talking her was enlightening in different ways. Had a good time
Didn’t feel pressured to try anything other than having her warm up my hands. 
She ‘runs hot’ as she likes to say “useful in the winter” I told her
Lovely soft warm hands, as I noted before.
I feel as if my optimism for life is returning. I found myself thinking about tomorrow and actually looking forward to it; not for any discernable reason I consciously understand yet.
Since I returned home, I’ve been playing Lara Croft: Shadow of the Tomb Raider. Beautiful, beautiful game.
There’s been a shift in me that I haven’t yet fully realized.
For whatever reason, I just have not felt the need to play any of my titles. I’m not gonna force anything.
Feel your intuition flow through you.
Lol so, the leasing manager confirmed each and every one of my suspicions yesterday.
She told me yesterday that she had seen me coming up and told the girl, “Oooo girl here comes this foin (I encourage you to pronounce it aloud) ass man right now. He’s soo cute but too bad he’s too young for me.”
Confirmed.
Apparently, the girl had also leaned over to see me, gasped and went to fix herself up in a hurry hurry within the like 5-10 seconds it took me to walk up the way to the office.
The manager also told me that she watched us walking out and that she very soon after saw the girl going in the direction that I had gone, thought we were meeting up and ‘got jealous’ of her.
Wanted to notate this before it faded. Her and I (the manager) had a really great conversation yesterday morning, went into a lot of deep stuff, emotional stuff (she got up and insisted upon hugging me when she saw I was going through it).
Felt a shift inside while reading here on the forum just now, a certain lightening, that gave me the ‘ok’ to run PS. May add WTP, or I’ll run that on my ST2 day.
Only got like 3-4 hours of sleep and woke up around 3, haven’t been able to get back to sleep.
Ran 7 minutes.
Yaaay, my Primal Seduction custom is finished!
Gonna ru-
I think it was due to lack of sleep yesterday more than anything but I went through it a bit.
Thoughts of inadequacy, remembering women ghosting blah blah.
This morning though?
Goddamn, I feel fantastic. Clear mind, voice is deep af for some reason, woke up enjoying touching my face - soft skin - feeling very clear minded.
The brain fog that I’ve been experiencing for quite awhile now, likely due to marijuana use, a period of falling back into porn for a bit awhile ago, inadequate sleep, spiritual/existential crisis, and more… Has finally, FINALLY lifted.
I didn’t realize how bad it was until talking to my mom just now, I realized that I wasn’t trying to listen to her.
I simply was.
My appetite is returning. At the same time, simple foods are quite delicious.
Decided to use the one of the Jacuzzi’s at the apartment today.
Had fun with it. This is the first time in years and years that I decided to swim. The pool is the next step.
It was very meditative, and I started to allow myself to be a kid again and started doing whatever came to mind, and had a blast all by myself.
One thing of note for me personally is that I spontaneously decided to open my eyes under the water. I’ve always been freaked out about doing that, thought it would hurt my eyes even though I’ve seen others do it before.
Strangely, when I came back up, everything felt different. I felt like a different person 
Today was a good day.
Ran Khan Black ST2 and Emperor: The Will to Power. This makes my second loop of ST2
Been up for a few hours, I’ve not been able to sleep all the way through the night since we moved here.
Could be sub use.
Could be environmental energetics.
Could be still getting used to not smoking weed.