today was fine, i still had anger coming out at random points, i slept after i came back from class coz of yesterday night and i missed gym but when i got up i pushed myself and made myself go even though i didnt want to coz i knew i had to, in the gym i spoke to the chick again who i met last time and got to know a lot of stuff about her, she was engaging a lot and opening up a lot but she kept mentioning she has a daughter as a way to like say shes not interested, i have been focusing soo much on getting laid since i started the subs that i didnt take much notice of what primal is doing to me, it has barely been 3 weeks and the changes in terms of social skills have been phenominal, i get noticed waaay more, can talk to people with less anxiety in certain situations, feel more comfortable opening up, still havent deveoped any social skills yet but im much better off in terms of anxiety. in terms of getting laid i need to take action and make it happen myself or it will not happen, im slowing moving to the point where im getting more and more comfortable taking action
Yeah, social skills for me have increased a lot in the first weeks of using primal (just finished my third weekā¦! but my first week I had to take some benadryl to sleep because I had so much anxietyā¦ didnāt realized that benadryl impair memory developpmentā¦) now I am mixing primal and SS with a 50% ration as of this week! Love the transformation in terms of social skills 
Keep it up with your journal bro!
Today I went for a personal development event from my uni, wasnāt really much new stuff since I know most of it but was still a fun experience, I actually made an effort to speak to people and even though initially I felt a little resistance going up to people I wanted to go up to, the ones I persieved as cool, I pushed through and by the end of the day had pretty much spoken to all of them except for one or two, still thought a lot about oh I can bang this chick or that one but until I consciously learn game and apply it the results will not magically come to me, still I spoke to all people and in our group exercise I naturally was assumed the leader of the group, I did notice however that now Iām at the point where I can push through and approach mostly but I run out of things to say and I also get nervous during the interaction so I start talking fast or just leave the interaction fast so those r my next things to work on, other than that I was supposed to go for boxing but I let my laziness and tiredness get the better of me and ended up not going 
, Iām planning to switch up the order of the stack Iām running so now Iāll run regen and rebirth first as they will clear my subconscious and then run primal and limit destroyer to add new mindsets for the empty space that was cleared by regen and rebirth, letās see how it goes, still going light on regen coz I wanna ease into it since it seems strong, Iām also starting elixir finally as it is out now
Today I have a lot of stuff to share, first Iāll start with the use of elixir in the night, ran 3 loops and by the third loop I passed out, got up after a bit and the ultrasonic regen was running in my ears which was super scary, also had a vivid dream but didnāt remember what it was
As for the day I went for the workshop again I felt this push idk maybe coz of the subs, maybe coz of the workshop to approach people without fear and to talk whenever I wanted to share my views without much resistance, this got to the point where the teacher ignored me in order to give others a chance and I knew this but I felt really hurt and wanted to leave or like get food (comfort food to drown my feelings) I also noticed this thing about chicks that a lot of them if they donāt get actively perused, pick the most socially acceptable guy that they also find attractive and they approach the guy and rather than wait I think itās better for me to do it myself but I find it really hard to do so yet but I am hoping to change that soon, at first I wanted an aura to attract chicks to me but now I feel itās better if I learn to do it myself, especially after reading posts on the forums (I struggle a lot with this extremely neediness coz I donāt have results and also look for chicks as a way of validation, two problems I hope to cure as they can be sensed I think and that comes in my way coz Iām not comfortable enough with myself)
Also I have noticed it is way easier to game yes chicks who r already attracted to u, this happened with a chick today where she was attracted to me and so I was drawn to her coz it seemed like an easy target, we did have this one exercise to stay in silence and I looked at her calm like a rock and she felt really, really nervous but for me it was almost natural being so calm, she did try playing hard to get but couldnāt keep it up coz of the attraction
Also I have noticed primal and libertine does help in create a vibe when chicks r with me that helps with attraction but I donāt think it stays for long after they leave and I want to know how to make that happen
Also throughout the event I noticed myself thinking oh I need to talk to this person or get this persons contact info, but at some point I just shifted to thinking like I wanna talk to people just because to connect with them without needing anything and I did find myself feeling more authentic and thinking a lot about it
After sparks I was tired again so couldnāt go to the gym and instead stuffed myself which was bad as I should have exercised 
, later I got called to hang with a friend and he called this other chick and I was tired but I pushed through and stayed till the end, I also noticed I was comfortable in talking, even when the conversation lead to more sexual topics and also I was super calibrated and could sense everytime the chick felt uncomfortable and I tried to make it more comfortable for her, I had strong eye contact and the vibe again helped me but I donāt know if it will last
holy shit im starting to finally see the true effects of this sub, i notice this aura around me that cant help but draw everyone in, when i walk past people i almost feel like a celebrity i get soooooo much attention. literally everyone who is exposed to my vibe just melts almost and just submits without even trying, now its just that i am coming in my own way coz its almost scary how much power i have and my subconscious is not able to accept it. i have amazing body language, can approach people and have great social interactions with them, today during the event this one chick kept testing me soo much like it was as if it was her mission to destroy my frame and i barely flinched and every time i passed i got tested more but i could feel more and more attraction oozing out. only thing is last few days i have noticed feeling a little weak, tired and sick, around my nose and throat area and i have a hoarse voice and crave a lot of water but i can feel my voice becoming deeper. i also have heavier breathing to the point where i and others can hear me breathing from a few seats away although that might just be coz of my blocked nose. also about the event it was really good and an exercise we did where people complimented you 1 on 1 really hit home and made me feel super special, also one thing i noticed about myself is i do great in closed environments where there are commonalities and im not that afraid of rejection and the people seem friendly, throughout the event everyone just assumed i was the most confident person there, they naturally assumed im the leader, and super sociable even though i dont think i am from inside, i feel like this might come in my way coz i wont do these things coz i dont believe im them but people expect me to do it and they thing im not talking to them coz i dont like them, not coz im shy. overall im a little scared going forward because of the massive power of this subliminal but i am also excited to see what my future holds for me on this journey, and i know everyone says this but in the two years since i have begun my journey of personal development, nothing changed me as much as your prodcuts did @SaintSovereign @Fire and i will always be thankful to you guys for these changes and look forward to the rest of my journey
ps i feel a lack of motivation writing this journal these past few days coz it seems like just me writing in a book, in the past i used to look forward coz i had people reply to my posts and hence i would like to urge all my readers to make this journal more interactive, anything from opinions to suggestions, anything helps and makes me feel people are reading my journal and makes me motivated to keep working on it, so pls reply to my posts and make this journal more interactive
Are you talking about Elixir in this last post?ā
Also, if you wrote your answers maybe a little shorter, or at least not all in one big block of text maybe people would read more and participate. Most people will be lazy to read such a big amount of text written like that.
@myspace123 keep at it, it will only get better.
Very much so, although both @SaintSovereign and I read everything. It is important to stay up to date with everything our customers go through.
Try splitting it into paragraphs.
I find your journal intresting to read since we almost have the same stack. So Iām always reading;). I do agree with @deon10 tough, using paragraphs will make reading more pleasant.
So here goes, short para style
Today I have lazed around a lot but didnāt have this negative anxt that I need to do something instead I kinda enjoyed just relaxing for a change
I have noticed with the subs that negative thoughts and limiting beliefs arenāt gone yet but now itās easier to catch them and just plow through them without much resistance
Also I have realised that I was hoping for negative thoughts to go away, with the programme since the last 3 days and in general I have realised that negative thoughts never go away, they just lose power over u but they still r there and unless u consciously shut them they will always run u, it was something I was hoping wouldnāt be the case but now that it is it is up to me whether to submit to them or to overpower them and achieve my best version
pushed myself to go to the gym and was feeling lazy and a little pain in legs so thought it was damaged but turns out it was mental and I said no need to be lazy and pushed myself harder I need to make a conscious effort to increase the weights and fight through the resistance
Also later on in the evening I went for a party to a bar but it was dead, however I kept noticing people getting drawn towards my vibe which provided good validation, this one chick who was part of it came and sat next to me and started speaking to me and my friend and was very playful, then I went to a house party, I did speak to a lot of people and a lot of them were attracted to my aura but not to the point where they came to me and made things happen, thatās kinda what Iām hoping for since it would make things easier for me as Iām kinda scared plus it always gives a lot of validation, anyways I did speak to a few people confidently but whenever the thought came into my head I should approach this chick, I should game and pull someone I kinda froze, towards the end the dirty desperation side came back which made me feel bad that nothing happened but it vanished in a bit. I also need to take control of my life and make things happen for me but it all seems really scary and hard and I always have a feeling like Iām not ready yet. I am at the point where people think Iām really confident, social and all the good things and it even comes out when it does but I donāt conciously feel that change has happened yet and that makes me a little bit hesitant still but waaaaay lesser then before
Couple of thoughtsā¦
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In a long journal, sometimes people donāt reply because thereās nothing new to say. That doesnāt mean people arenāt reading and arenāt interested and pulling for you. Most people donāt want to post platitudes or things that donāt actually contribute. And I think thatās a good thing.
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I understand one of your big goals is to get chicks into bed. And what Iām about to say may fly in the face of what PUA experts teach. But one really great way to avoid the fear of rejection is to stop being invested in the outcome. If every conversation is only about sex then youāre going to feel some anxiety about that not working out.
What if you changed your objective? You talk to attractive, interesting girls for the fun of the interaction ā because you enjoy getting to know people ā because you enjoy seeing how well you get them to open up. If those are your goals, youāre unlikely to feel rejection because youāre not ASKING for anything.
And if you can start interacting that way and truly have a vibe that youāre not just trying to get in their pants, I suspect youāre going to find more (and higher quality) girls show more interest.
I try to do this but in my head it never works out idk why, in the past I have seen this again and again that I start getting good reactions only when Iām not interested but then I see the good reactions I become interested and then they become aloof and this really fucks with my head
I think itās fine to be interested, but donāt make that your goal ā your measure of success or failure.
How about you create an evaluation checklist or score card?
At the end of the day, you evaluate how you did in talking to various girls. How many did you approach? How many did you want to approach but did not? Why not?
How well were you at starting a conversation?
At getting them to open up? To laugh? To tell you things about themselves?
How interested were you in them as a person?
Consider it a win when youāve done well on those things, regardless of whether it ended up in the bedroom.
Over time, youāll train your brain to get enjoyment from the process and have no investment in the outcome.
I will be sure to apply this
Onto yesterday I didnāt sleep all night coz I was out Friday night and had to go somewhere Saturday morning early so decided to stay awake, I went to check out a uni and was super tired, kept passing out in the bus, during the tour lunch I went and sat on a table and spoke to everyone there and kept trying to initiate conversation which I usually donāt do, I did connect with two girls who were of the same nationality as mine which was cool and we had a lot of fun banter and I was really unfiltered and cool which was nice, then we went for a campus tour and the tour guide kept speaking to me coz again same nationality, but I noticed people naturally assuming Iām confident and being nice to me, on the table there was a mother and daughter and I didnāt want to talk to the daughter too much since she was really hot and her mum was there but her mum was listening to me and really ended up liking me, unlucky I couldnāt do anything since they left but when I saw them again her mother nodded in acknowledgment to me
Another thing during the tour I saw this guy who looked like he was in the in scene in uni so I was really debating whether to approach him or not but I told myself shut up and went and did it, at first he was hesitant but then really opened up and spoke to me and told me about the uni whatever he knew since even he was a guest, idk if itās true, thatās what he told me after I left I checked out the town for a bit then returned home and just passed out coz I was waaaay too tired, unfortunately couldnāt run elixir coz I was so tired but ran the other subs anyways
Also I noticed yesterday that I can kinda just bring out a sexual vibe as if itās a switch that I flicker and itās on, I kept doing it in the bus back and it was really cool and I was sooo happy in my head, so I was like excited and people might have thought I was mad but it was really cool discovering this, also I can now use my eyes better since that is one of the only things I know how to do from my game knowledge it is really good to have a boost to it with the subs, also today morning when I got up I noticed my body shaking for a while just mild shaking nothing to be worried about but I guess thatās being caused by emotions healing
Update these past few days I have just been feeling so calm, like in the now kinda calm but just really really calm, kinda like the calm that comes before the storm
Also often times I think my subconscious is taking over, coz many times I notice the volume just on 0 even though I didnāt put it there, subs just paused even though I didnāt pause it, and this is kinda scary @SaintSovereign @Fire is this normal
I believe I read on an other subliminal forum about people experiencing also something like this. At the other forum it was explained by your subconsious mind trying to hinder the progress. I think itās a good thing because it means there are definitly changes happening. Your subconsious probably doesnāt feel completly comfortabel with the new views being implemented by the subliminal.
Btw: What is your stack right now?