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I do get this during recon often too. Still don’t know how to break it. Just waiting it out seems to help.
No matter how much sense my purpose makes for me, I’m still feeling nihilistic during recon and nothing helps.
I don’t want to offend fire and Saint by suggesting other brands and modalities but.
If you find the emotion you’re experiencing has a location, direction and color all of that stuff is kinda influenced by thinking about it like a hologram.
What if you disassociate from the problem state by using your imagination to change the direction, color and location.
It’s wild when it works.
Lay down and try it. After a while see if it feels better.
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Two thoughts today
“If what you’re doing isn’t working try something else.”
Great words.
Second thought. I had a sex dream last night. I never have sex dreams. I’m not anti sex, it’s just not a major focus of mine. Can be a great experience. I wonder what I kicked up, underneath.
Sorry folks. I don’t have what it takes to get good results anymore.
Thanks for the support along the way.
Good luck with your journey.
Are you quitting subs?
Subs work. They can provide great results.
Sub club subs work really well.
But Eog has kicked my ass. I’m tired of feeling like garbage all of the time.
It’s definitely a me problem.
I should have just been happy with what I had.
That’s something people say when they settle.
You’re NOT a settler. Keep up the progress. Even if you gotta dial back on listen times.
You got this and we got you.
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Thanks man.
Do you suffer from dehydration with subs?
I suffer from dehydration just from not drinking enough water. I drink water, tea and coffee.
More on the tea and coffee side.
Being hydrated does help with recon symptoms though.
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@Malkuth started with EOG as his first ever sub and said, after running it with much discipline for almost a year, that he would not have ran it as his first subliminal. Knowing what he knows now, if he wanted financial results, he would have started with Mogul.
EOG is an amazing sub, and like you said, subs work, but perhaps there’s some lessons that are in EOG that you won’t be able to learn until you run more foundational subs. Mogul, Emperor, Daredevil, Love Bomb For Humanity, things like that. There’s a lot of negative emotion and anxiety mentioned in your posts, fear from RICH, pain from EOG, etc., so I’m even thinking that running the new sanguine could be your most powerful option!
The bright side is that all the lessons from EOG are in your subconscious, and once you have the right experiences, you’ll understand them. If you didn’t have them in your subconscious, they wouldn’t be causing so much recon - so your recon is a very positive sign indeed.
Any “new” title, with NSE built in, will be a smoother experience for you overall.
Right now, it’s probably better to run Nouveau RICH, Emperor, or Mogul (or Stark Black, I guess) for wealth subs, compared to EOG. NSE is that powerful.
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Can’t argue with that. I think that is pretty much how I feel.
Thanks for tagging me @Jouissance. I missed @Mountain’s entire journal.
@Mountain there’s almost nothing here about real-world conditions or actions. That’s okay because you may just want to keep things private.
But those details are a big part of what helps you refine your strategy.
Some things come easily, and some things don’t.
Some of my goals are taking a while.
Yep.
Have you shared anywhere about your goals?
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Well sometimes you just need to throw a temper tantrum.
It’s childish and stuff but it can make you feel better.
Back on the horse tonight.
I drank so much water yesterday fighting dehydration I got up ever 45 minutes last night.
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That’s a good question. I haven’t.
Life changed a lot over the last five years or so.
Doing ok. Living decently. Love my city. It’s unbelievable. You could wake up tomorrow and decide you want to build an empire. You could wake up tomorrow and decide to smoke pot and eat pizza. Great for both!
I used to be on this rollercoaster. Flashes of brilliance. Followed by self sabotaging. Followed by self sabotaging in the form of manifesting really unhealthy situations.
I like one better.
If I was going to use a metaphor, which I like to do : sometimes life I about becoming what you want to be. Sometimes it’s ripping the influences you don’t want out.
Goals… removing the randomness. I tried working it. No thanks.
How lucky we are to live in modern times where people are working on this.
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Oh man. Those days where subs get to be too much are always difficult.
That said they are in my experience followed by pretty massive perceptual shifts.
The world really does look different. Not in focus yet but things are changing. I like this.
The questions the subs ask your subconscious, letting you figure out the answers…. It’s good stuff.
Is that the deal? To change the programming we have to blow up the old system and panic? I guess that’s fair. Faust would dig it.
People talk about the perceptual shift and how it feels more authentic. I agree.
Whatever panic, fear, stasis whatever state 3 brings about stage four has the answer to. Things run smoother on four. I feel healthier and better on four. My body is actually releasing things on four.
There is opportunity in this. Four makes me want to do stuff. I had a busy day but I couldn’t stop thinking about taking action over here on this side.
Not gonna lie, I was kinda hoping for an esoteric answer to an esoteric puzzle. I’m convinced it’s here, just below the surface. I’ve found so many esoteric nuggets. All hiding in plain view.
Four isn’t going to let me mess around with it though. It wants action. And I don’t know what action to take.
I want money (security), lots and lots of money…
I ran a little test. I took four minutes of four. I was feeling pretty good all day. I ran a little manifesting experiment and I feel bound in my stomach. The difference is just instant.
So I’m on some level still ok with gold. On some level manifesting is a problem.
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I like this way of thinking about stage 4. I know it’s not supposed to be the healing stage but it feels healing.
Almost like the body is running better. The wind is at the back rather than slowing progress.
Oh and I really don’t want a cigarette. Let’s see how long that lasts. They are still in my pocket but when I think about getting them out I get a clear no signal.
Truth be told I liked everyone I ever smoked.
I guess psycology is complicated.
Turns out there’s a few examples of people reporting they either started or stopped smoking on subs.
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This lack of smoking thing is wild. I checked my pack when I woke up. 13 left in it. It’s the third day I’ve had this pack.
Idk quitting was a goal but a pleasant surprise.
The no signal is kinda growing in a revulsion. It’s not that strong yet but it’s getting there.
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So a bit about why I think this smoking aspect is so cool. It’s actually changed my association. I used to really enjoy smoking. Now it’s kinda gross. If I have one I have like a quarter of one before I’m done with it.
I doubt there’s anti smoking scripting in gold stage four. I haven’t seen the script so I don’t know but I doubt it.
It occurs to me smoking is probably an anxiety coping mechanism. Objectively it’s pretty gross. But people do it because it reduces anxiety. Stage four appears to be reducing my anxiety around taking action.
Day four of this and pack and there was eight in it this am. So below half my old rate.
So it wasn’t a goal but it is a pleasant surprise.
It’s also lessening a physical problem I don’t want to get into that I’ve been struggling with for a couple years. No it’s not coincidence. If I play the file directly to the physical problem area the rate of improvement is faster than playing it in my head area.
What a great product. Stage 1 and 3 are rough which I’m convinced is a me problem. 4 is very productive.
Hope everyone else is having good results.
It was the longest lasting pack in the history of smoking. I won’t be upset with myself if I buy another one.
Also normally when I run out I’m immediately on my way to the bodega to get a replacement.
As of right now I’m kinda indifferent. Idk what it is. Kicking up and hopefully dealing with old trauma. The cost? Quick napkin math, I’m my city that is $5475 a year.