Mountain climbs EOG

Journals - Major Programs
#1

I’ve been working on stage 1 for a long time. This file has pushed me more than anything I’ve ever experienced.

Man the recon on this file was brutal. It pretty much drained me of energy instantly.

I’ve moved on to stage 2. After a day I’ll say stage 2 does not drain me of energy. It does seem to use some water. My lips are dry.

Was thinking about why I stuck with stage 1 for so long. I came up with 2 reasons. I’m kinda a masochist. I’m afraid it’ll work and then I’ll have to make some decisions.

Anyway if you’re struggling with the healing stage it passes one day.

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#2

That is deep right there

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#3

How long have you been on Stage 1?

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#4

Months, maybe six

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#5

My dreams have been more pleasant since wrapping up st 1.

My awake time, maybe a little weird. Struggling with my shadow. I don’t get it. I see why people think integration could be a good idea. But.

I started another stage. Listened to it until my brain felt full. Let’s see what happens.

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#6

Oh yeah, if anyone has any observations about headphones and speaker I’m interested.

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#7
earphones

I was told that hq headset is the best… Subclub even recommended some specific headset before somewhere for those who want to buy a new one.The earphones are good and the last ones are speakers when it comes to subs. Apparently speakers aren’t as good as other options as far as I recall. If you use earphones, you should have both earphones in your ear since some subs may have certain parts of the script show in one or the other earphone. I used to listen to subs on one earphone but ever since I make sure I have both in.

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#8

Folks, this is kinda embarrassing but it feels important.

We’ve definitely shifted from winter to much warmer and sunnier days. Amazing.

I know metaphor is popular around here as are pop culture references. Did anyone see the scene where Bruce Wayne is about to leave his home and go out into the city again?

It’s early yet but I’m going out for lunch today in center city.

Maybe do not fight with wizards. But also it might not work out that bad in the end.

Yeah fight with wizards. It keeps life interesting.

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#9

Haven’t had any knee sensations in a long time but this stage makes my ears feel electric. Idk but if it happens every time there’s probably something there.

How much of alchemy is resolving your own trauma vs resolving generational trauma of people you kinda only met in passing but are related to?

Yeap, that’s this weeks thought. Stripping out layers of other people.

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#10

I ate most of a pizza and to be honest I’m likely a danger to any fried chicken at this point.

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#11

Yeah, this stage is doing something. Idk what but it’s doing something.

I don’t normally eat a lot. If I order a pizza typically I’d have two slices and eat the rest in following days. Now I eat 5 slices or so.

Today I ordered general tso chicken, ate all of it, the rice and a few hours later I’m hungry again.

I’m not gaining weight, pulse and blood pressure in desired range so I’m not worried about it. Just an observation.

Back to watching movies.

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#12

I keep hearing Neville in the back of my mind. You don’t want that man or no man.

While I’m not trying to conjure up any man the point is taken.

What I want is to be happy. It’s probably why many of us are here.

Bathed in feel good chemicals once. Something deeper knocked the wheels off. Hi, I’m something.

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#13

I’m trying to talk myself out of this. Sneaky subconscious.

Neville running through the back of my head.

Coming up with replacement projects.

Thinking about the wisdom of change vs non change.

All of this feels like subconscious tricks to maintain present status.

I can’t run a loop today. I have a day tomorrow that recon would ruin. Tomorrow after things are done I will.

Maybe I’m crazy but there’s some very wise people on this board. More breathing exercises to generate energy for manifestation?

#14

Well today was a good day. I was really worn out and ran chamber which I find energizing.

I am considering taking on something easier for now and circling back to this later.

Idk what. I could always be in better shape. I’m d need to make sure the other program was just for looks and not aura based. I’m not looking to increase my encounters.

There’s a pretty stripped down fitness sun I think.

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#15

So I don’t wanna necessarily give specific numbers and examples but it’s raining gold here. Nothing insanely amazing yet but very pleasant.

Several manifestations on stage 3.

Positive results in manifestations due to using chamber with stage 3? I think so.

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#16

Yeah this is definitely using a lot of sexual energy.

I guess the best way to say this is the river has became a sad creek.

#17

Certainly do what’s best for you and totally follow all directions and stuff like that so the clubs lawyers don’t get grumpy. Ok that said…

Maybe ditch the headphones. As for volume 0 seems to be working.

0?

Yeah, I said it.

#18

I find later stages much easier than stage 1. That said stage 3 causes some anxiety.

Which is probably a sign I should run stage 1 again. Maybe I’ll just deal with the anxiety until new Eog comes out.

#19

What kind of anxiety? Like if you has to put a reason behind it

#20

Yeah good question.

Have you ever had a situation where you had to do something physical and somewhat dangerous, but you got that anxiety body feeling, like something was holding you back from taking that step.

It’s usually not a big deal after you take the first one but it actually feels faintly like something is holding you back.

I didn’t used to get feelings like this about doing things so t shouldn’t be impossible to overcome.

Actually that was a really useful question. Thanks!

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