Mind's Eye and New Emperor - I don't know what I'm doing 😘

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Day 16 - Rest - 12/15/2023

Where do I begin? So pretty early into this cycle, not sure when, probably within the first week, I had an insight about locks and keys.

Everything that you want in life is locked behind a door, the key is in your mind, if you’ve failed to get it, it’s because you haven’t found the right key yet. It’s actually super practical: find the proper mental frame, and you will get exactly what you ask for.

When it comes to problem solving, it’s also very practical: if you’ve approached the same problem and failed to solve it, and you’ve always approached it with the same mind set (mental frame, whatever you wanna call it), then you don’t have the right mind set.

There is an odd spiritual aspect to this insight that I wish I could explain, but it’s rather difficult. The best way that I can describe it, is to say that thought energy isn’t linguistic, and that language itself is somewhat inert, there are no magic words or words of power…I mean there are, but there actually aren’t. So, you might be saying in your head “I love myself, I love myself, I love myself” and even though you are saying the words, the words aren’t connecting to the intended stream of thought energy, they are misconnected, and actually connected to a different stream of energy that’s associated with things that you aren’t intending…I’ll save all this for the book I’m working on, I’ve got time to make it more cogent.

Long story short, if you fail, you’re thinking and mental frame was wrong, nothing more, nothing less.

What this has meant for me is that I’ve spent the whole cycle being introspective and investigating my mind. Whenever something “old” comes up (an old mental frame) I get rid of it and replace it with a new one, and the reason why is that my old mental frames haven’t worked for me.

Those that work have stayed, but anything that’s lead to questionable results, I’m working daily to squash.

I’m also seeking newness in my experiences just to break the chains of habit, get me out of my comfort zone, and to trigger new mental states.

Keeping my word is a training exercise that makes me a more powerful human being. The more often I keep my word, the more I train myself to be the kinda person that keeps his word, the more often my word will carry power and significance.

Show power, never speak about it. Let your reputation and aura of power enter the room before you do, let it speak for you, then follow behind it with a pleasant smile and an openness to those around you.

Finally, stay open to the transformation, no matter where it leads me. Just trust and let the transformation happen.

Practical, Concrete Results

At the start of the cycle, I was $1500 dollars BEHIND on past due bills with no clear way to save myself. Within 3-5 days of the cycle, I quit my day job. In The last 10 days, working for myself, I have paid all past due bills ($1500 debt eliminated).

• On track for full financial recovery by the 1st of Jan
• On track for financial surplus by 1st of Feb

At the start of the cycle, my love life was dry. By day 2 or 3, I got a big influx of matches on dating apps (without taking any action) and now I’ve got a new girl that I’ve seen several times and who might be the next GF, time will tell. This girl is cute and I would say that she’s the “highest quality” woman that I’ve been with so far–I don’t like such crude descriptions, but they get the point across.

• Still getting new matches on dating apps
• No desire to take action on those because I now see that women are abundant so I might as well see what happens with the current lady.

My ability to visualized is transformed. It’s transformed so much that I actually didn’t fully believe it was possible to visualize the way I now do. If you’ve never had an experience, it’s really hard to imagine what it will be like until you’ve had it, savvy?

The following are abilities that I’ve gained: i.e. abilities that I’ve NEVER HAD BEFORE

• Vivid visuals with open and closed eyes
• Multi-sensory imagination
• Photographic memory: this started with photographic recall of images that I’ve already seen, recently I’ve been able to photographically recall pages of books to remember quotes that I was looking for.
• Visual problem solving: you know that scene in Sherlock Holmes where he imagines how the fight will go before he fights the guy and it happens almost exactly how he imagined? Yes, now I’m not THAT powerful, but that’s what it feels like. It feels like I can imagine what will happen and then make a choice based on that information. That skill had a HUGE impact on my ability to stick to the fast, because I was able to overcome the animal mind by SEEING what my actions would cause
• Small evidence of visual projection. I haven’t started training this skill yet, but I’ve had a couple spontaneous instances that have suggested that I should be able to learn the skill.

Rapid mindset transformation.

• Seeking new experiences
• Positivity
• Inner strength and the knowing that I can handle anything that life throws my way
• Letting go of old hurts
• Forgiving people that have hurt me and myself for hurting them. If they knew better, they wouldn’t have hurt me, if I knew better, I wouldn’t have hurt them. How can I really hate anybody for these mistakes, the only one who’s responsible is the me of today who can choose not to repeat mistakes of the past.

Increased physical strength. This one is interesting because it felt, very clearly, like I was just unlocking strength that I should already possess but haven’t been able to access. For a little bit of background, I’ve always considered myself weaker than I appear and it’s because I instinctively hold back in the gym because I’m scared of injury. Emperor seems to be changing that.

So much more that I probably can’t even say. If I were to list EVERY LITTLE result, then I’d probably explode because so many small things happen daily that it’s really tough to keep up with it all.

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Update

Some Insights for Today that I don’t wanna forget

I was out of cigarettes with no way to get more, this triggered intense anger, I calmed myself down, but still felt very…disturbed, then I found a piece of nicotine gum in my car and started chewing it.

My mind calmed, my spirits lifted, and I was actually MORE productive NOT smoking. This is a game changer. Tomorrow, I’m gonna pack nicotine gum with me and start my quit smoking journey. I’m not gonna set any hard rules yet, I’m just gonna experiment with using nicotine gum and smoking as little as possible.

Doubt, doubt, doubt. So much doubt. So, very much, doubt. Doubt is my new recon trigger. Now I know that whenever I start feeling a lot of doubt, it’s recon.

The goal, the real goal, is to start training my mind to be open to change.

I’m more open to change than ever, but I need to be MORE OPEN.

[ClasSICK]

Doubt, doubt, doubt. So much doubt. So, very much, doubt. Doubt is my new recon trigger. Now I know that whenever I start feeling a lot of doubt, it’s recon.

Exactly. I had an insane amount of doubt at the beginning of Emperor, and then it calmed down. And when I hopped on New Emperor, I had another wave of lots and lots of doubt. I think it took a week of questioning everything before the doubt subsided. But as a result, the feeling of power has grown a lot in me and my resolve has strengthened.

Stick with it, you’ve got it!

[praisetheurdtree]

For me, it’s like I’ll doubt something, then pretty quickly be shown the opposite. Sound like your experience?

Like doubt my ability to make money, crush it and make more than I was expecting lol.

[ClasSICK]

Hmm, I think for me it was just the feeling of doubt, quite constant, coupled with nihilism. What’s the purpose of what I’m currently doing? What if I’m not smart/hardworking/insert_whatever enough? Why even try?

I just kept going and one day it clicked and man I haven’t been the same lol. The motivation has risen, the feeling of power has increased, doubt has vanished.

Iirc it’s been only for a week when I only started Emperor and then for one more week with New Emperor. I had 4 (or 5?..) cycles overall and New Emperor came out roughly at the beginning of my latest full cycle… Gotta check the offline journal tbh, might be wrong with the numbers but you’ve got the idea.

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Day 17 - New Emperor Minds Eye - 12/16/2023

Just finished running my loops. Instantaneous recon today. Which is a bit of a bummer, but also a good thing, depending on your perspective on the matter.

Getting a strong urge to break things off with the new girl, I do suspect that it’s recon related, but I’m still just not very sensitive to myself and am still prone to self-deception. There are pros and cons to this girl, for now, I let go, go with the flow, and relax. I’ve got nothing to worry about.

For right now, my strategy is just to hold back, let it go, and focus on more pressing matters. After all, doubt is very much a part of recon.

I’d like to take a day off and focus on self-care today, but unfortunately, that’s just not an option. Even that could be recon, that urge.

Intense anger today. I can literally feel energy coursing through my body I’m trying to direct and focus it. I had a thought that energy is just energy and I should be able to transform my anger into something positive.

What a day…

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Update

End of workday.

Lot of recon today, still worked my ass off and hit my financial goal.

Part of my trouble is that I ask for one thing, then ask for something more, then waffle back and forth. This is yet another manifestation block.

It was a tough day, but a good day. I’m another step closer to feeling some financial freedom.

Tomorrow I take the day off and see the girl. I still have a ton of doubt, like I randomly feel like she’s gonna cancel on me even though she isn’t the type. Well, so be it, that’s the recon game.

When in doubt, let go and trust.

I spent a lot of time thinking about stacks, then I realized that it’s just more recon. New Emperor is working perfectly and I’m already looking for a way out lol.

New Emp for a year with minimal stacking is the rational call. I like the growth direction, recon is nearly non-existent and anything that’s “missing” can be added with wisdom later. Focus, focus, focus. New Emp checks all boxes.

I do miss the WB energy, but I’ve got work to do.

I’m still feeling QL.

The continued insights and results from ME are strengthening my belief that cognitive enhancement is the healing path that I need. To be frank, being smarter makes me faster and more efficient and better able to learn from my mistakes. The ROI on speed of learning is unprecedented.

Sleep now.

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Day 18 - Rest - 12/17/2023

Woke up from a semi-dream, murky visualization, mental conversation about my new girl acting shady and talking to people on dating apps. As it started, I fought it immediately saying “No! Cancel” as the vision started to form, then I let go and let it play out.

As the vision played out, I started to see that she wasn’t really shady, she was legitimately talking to a friend on a dating app. She was trying to buy furniture…

I’m clairvoyant and I’m trying to figure out how to gain control of this power…more on that later, I’m with the new girl…

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Day 21 - New Emperor Minds Eye - 12/20/2023

Did it, reached the end of my first cycle, and BOY oh FUCKING BOY has it been transformative.

Probably the single biggest progress bump I’ve seen in a single cycle since I started with Emp and Stark nearly 2 years ago.

I’ll come back and give a bigger update over washout as I reflect on the miryad changes.

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Cycle 1 - Washout Day 2

Going well. Physically, I’m not doing too well. Focus will be shifting onto my health, time management, financial management, and social management.

The real task, is balancing and becoming more efficient at running my life.

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Cycle 1 Washout Day 4

The washout was kinda tough. I broke down from overwork, poor sleep, poor health, and stress. But here I am. This morning I woke up and had this spontaneous sense that I’m just okay, that everything really is going to be okay.

I need to make some decisions and I need to make them pretty quick.

The last two years have been great and I wouldn’t change it for the world, but I also haven’t made the progress that I wanted to make and I need to change some things in my life.

When I reflect on the last year, I see that I did what I had to do. I had to focus on dating and social stuff, some part of me deep down felt robbed of the fun that circumstances seemed to have robbed from me when I was younger.

Well, I’ve had my fun, and there is more fun to be had in the future, but I now see clearly that my focus needs to shift and I need to be ready for that.

I need to decide to make money, I need to decide to do it, then I need to align myself with doing it.

I struggle, struggle hard to make a plan, to stick to it, to follow my gut, and to allow myself to make decisions.

Given all these insights, I will stay on New Emperor and Mind’s Eye for another cycle with no added stacking.

I might run a third cycle with New Emp and Mind’s Eye before I look for other titles to make this happen.

Looking at New Primal and UA: Writer X.

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Cycle 2 - Day 3 - New Emperor + Mind’s Eye

Cycle 2: Paragon, New Emperor, Mind’s Eye

I added Paragon to the stack, I know I said I wasn’t going to add to the stack, and I did mean it, but then life happened and I shifted gears a little bit.

So, I’ve been sick. Chances are it’s the latest covid variant. I’ve been sick for over a week now and every time I think it’s getting better, I get some new annoying symptom. On the day I decided to add Paragon (two days ago) the fresh, new symptom, was severe chest congestion mixed with constricted bronchial tubes which felt a bit like drowning for hours.

Oh, did I mention that this is the…4TH TIME I’VE BEEN SICK SINCE OCTOBER!? Yeah, I’ve gotten sick 4 times this year now, all between October and now.

This isn’t exactly “normal” for me, I typically don’t get sick, but I’m also living a very different lifestyle now. I’m mostly sitting, most of the day, and due to financial pressure, I haven’t made it to the gym in about 4 weeks, and I probably won’t be making it to the gym again until next month. Ordinarily, I’m far more active and getting more sleep on a more consistent basis, but now I’m living a different life style and that has an effect on the old immune system.

What I mean to say is that this most recent sickness mixed with the last 3 sicknesses has caused me to reflect on my health and has brought me to the conclusion that spending some time running Paragon is a good call.

The Plan

Emperor has put me back in planning mode and has given me more perspective on how to run subliminals more effectively. I used to think I could just run a program and allow it to passively execute in the background, now, I see that’s very misguided thinking.

You see, I can’t see into my own subconcious, I can’t know for certain what my true desires are or in what order they come. When I run a 3 subliminal stack carelessly, well, results happen, but they tend to be a bit confusing in the moment and only make sense after the fact.

How is it that I could run Emperor and Wanted for 6 months and not have a perfect body or be rich? Well, it’s because my subconcious prioritized OTHER aspects of the journey. It prioritized my social and romantic development over my physical development because my subconcious knew that my body was never actually a barrier to getting laid and getting the girls that seemed so out of reach at the time. That’s just one example, but you get my point. Often the results that come first, are not the results you expected to come first. That’s just because your conscious mind was…well…wrong? I thought I needed money and a perfect body to get girls, nope, not even close. To get the girls I wanted to get I needed other things.

Now, to get “better” girls, sure money and my body are more important, but that doesn’t change the need for focus.

I’ve come to a really simple way of looking at things: do I have the time and is my life in the proper position to take full advantage of a subliminal? If not, then don’t run it.

My troubles with Wanted Black came from the fact that my life wasn’t ready for Wanted Black. I was too underdeveloped and my life was too chaotic and my finances too insecure. It wasn’t going to work at the time and it didn’t.

I digress. Time to continue the journey and shift gears.

The way I’m seeing it now, is that I need to do some clean up work before I can fully become who I want to become.

I need to make money, a lot of money, and I need to get my shit together.

How Am I Gonna Get My Shit Together

Emperor led me back to the tech path and this time, I’m inclined to listen to the guidance. There is so much that I want in life, but all things have their season. My current thinking is that if I can get to a state of financial abundance quickly, then all other aspects of my life will be so much easier to obtain.

I’ve spent the last several days thinking about upcoming stacks, and how to best achieve my goals. For a bit, I was looking at QL because it seems like such a beast, however, I’m not considering QL at the moment because it’s too big and I don’t think my life can accommodate that journey right this moment. I have too many things to balance and I must balance all of them. I have a social life, I have money to make, I have girls to chase, I have health to recover, and I have studying to do. I just don’t have the resources to dive into QL right now, maybe in 2025.

So!

New Stack and Plan

The plan is to break into tech this year and land a job paying 80k. Simple.

The path?

A lot of studying, Emperor, Index Gate, and Mind’s Eye and Paragon.

Next cycle I will start my studies and add in Index Gate.

According to a quick google search, September and October are good points in the year to get a job with the best being Jan and Feb. Well, I’m not gonna become a programmer in two weeks, but 8 months with the help of New Emp and Index Gate? I mean…FUCK…given where I started and what I’ve done to date with my myriad issues, I think I can do 8 months. I mean, people do 8 months without SubClub. I might be asking for too little TBH.

New Emperor and Index Gate will be my main programs for 2024 and I intend to run them for the whole year. The third slot is up in the air. ATM the third slot is Paragon after this cycle I will drop ME and run Paragon for a while, with ID and NEMP as that’s probably a pretty high ROI decision to prioritize my health.

Time will tell.

Now, I just continue the Emperor’s Journey.

Cycle one was a doozie, but I’m not out of the woods yet. I need to make about 1,300-1,600 bucks by the first, and that’s not going to be so easy…

Anyway, all is well.

[praisetheurdtree]

Note to self, write a comprehensive and thought out plan for 2024 that is based on what I currently know and believe to be possible. Don’t plan based on things that are “theoretically possible, but I really don’t know.”

Keep it grounded in current accepted reality to ensure success, and be amazed when things work out better than expected.

Note 2

New subliminal experience Stark will replace emp when it comes out. Primal might come in after I land job.

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Cycle 2 - Day 4 - Rest

Had some pretty intense anger the last few days, yelled at my mother…lol. Luckily she knows my situation, knows that I’m on subs, and is rather understanding. Today, anger is back, but so is optimism.

The tech path, yup.

$80k is TOO little to ask. I should be asking for about 120k min for my first job. I may not have experience in the field yet, but I’ve worked in management, have a BA, and I have subliminals. Why limit myself.

The Plan for 2024 - Mind Dump

I have 2 resources for learning to code that I’m going to use: Codecademy and a company called ZTM.

Today, I’m thinking of a crazy plan, IDK if it’s possible yet, but this v1 plan is just about getting ideas out there and I’ll iterate over the next couple of weeks.

The idea is that I use Codecademy and ZTM at the same time. I work through 5 Codecademy certifications in the approximate order that the topics appear in the year-long ZTM course.

Doing the math, the 5 Codecademy certifications should take 400 hours to complete, and I’m giving myself a deadline of 8 months, which means that I should be able to complete all 5 in about 2 hours a day, 5 days/week, for 8 months.

That’s not too bad, of course, I’m doing math based on Codecademy’s estimates for completion time. Neither here nor there, it’s technically possible. Even if it takes me twice the time, so 4 hours per day, for a total of a little over 800 hours to complete all 5, it’s still doable within my 8-month time frame.

The ZTM course is " 1 Year Master Everything", so I’ll just assume that it’s going to and should take me the full year. I added up the course time and the raw course time is 577 hours of just course content. Currently, I don’t know if that estimate includes time spent doing projects, but I have reason to assume that it does not.

So, just in raw course time, I’m looking at about 2.5 hours a day, 5 days a week, for the year to finish that course.

As a rough estimate, if I avoid excessive stacking which will lead to recon and slow downs, I should be able to complete all this in a time frame of about 8 hours day, 5 days a week, for the whole year. So a full-time job.

This estimate is really ignorant though because I don’t know how much faster I will get through it with the help of Index Gate, nor do I know exactly what my current capabilities are. All I know is that in the past, programming seemed to come semi-naturally to me. At the very least, it’s always made intuitive sense when I would do a tutorial.

This is a tall order.

Now, of course, I still need to make money, hang out with friends, work out at least a couple of days a week for my health, and manage my life, and pay off debt which means surplus income. So…perhaps plan v1 is ALREADY too damn ambitious.

Reflection on a Personal Problem I’m working to solve

I’m working to solve my problem of creating bad plans. Plans that don’t take reality into account…

Now, I gotta reflect and ask myself, can I actually commit to 8 hours a day/5 days a week, for a whole year?

I mean…I pulled 60-80 hour weeks for MOST of this year, still managed to get laid and party occasionally, so yes, actually, I do know that it’s possible, but maybe the question I need to ask myself is…is it wise to do this?

Time will tell. Time to get to work ya’ll.

I’m gonna do some thinking about my plan and start mentally thinking of the v1.1 plan. Iteration is the name of the game.

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I mean…I pulled 60-80 hour weeks for MOST of this year, still managed to get laid and party occasionally, so yes, actually, I do know that it’s possible, but maybe the question I need to ask myself is…is it wise to do this?

Oh…right, yeah I also created minor health issues that I’m running Paragon to fix…so just because I can do it, doesn’t mean that I can do it the way I used to do it. I would need to run a tight ship.

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Cycle 2 - Day 5 - Paragon

Wow, I feel different, like really different. Like…what?

It just hit me, just a moment ago. I was playing Elden Ring, messing around in the weeping peninsula with my confessor build, and suddenly everything was different.

It felt like a veil had been lifted from me and suddenly everything had changed, but nothing has truly changed, I’m still here, but everything is different.

It’s not “hope” it’s like a ray of light piercing through me, showing me that it’s here. I’m here, idk. I don’t know how to explain it. I suddenly don’t feel like the same person, I feel changed, altered, in a good way, in some deeply profound way that makes little sense but also makes perfect sense.

I really don’t know how to describe it, but I like the feeling, it feels good, it feels really good.

Yesterday, I took the day off and spent it reorganizing my house. I moved all the furniture, cleaned, organized, I changed the whole layout.

Now? Idk, it’s all…it’s all just different.

This is a great sign and great news.

I feel really good about my path moving forward.

Some Insights

Last night I had some insights about why Emperor works so damn well for me compared to other programs. The long and short of it, is that Emperor resonates with deep DEEP DEEP, aspects of my personality. Aspects of myself that have always existed and would be very difficult to change.

I come from a big family, WAY bigger than what’s “normal” for Americans of my generation. It’s big and it’s close knit. In many ways I’ve always had a collectivist mindset toward my family, which is why I was always drawn to Japan and China as a kid, because their family dynamics felt familiar to me. We act for the greater good of the family, even if that means a degree of self-sacrifice.

Boom. That’s me on Emperor. Things that don’t matter fade, things that matter stay.

Idk. I’m gonna do some laundry and reflect on all this.

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Nailed it. My testosterone has become so high that other men are just women to me now.

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Cycle 2 - Day 7 - New Emperor + Mind’s Eye

Results

My body feels a bit different. I noticed it earlier, I just felt healthier. My mouth feels cleaner, I feel like I smell better, I feel more nimble and less stiff.

Checked my teeth in the mirror today and a dark spot on my teeth seems to be fading away. That’s cool.

Have felt more rested after sleeping.

A persistent itch caused from sitting long hours in tight clothes is fading away.

Feel like I have less time for BS because it just stresses me and makes me feel like shit.

Most interesting to me is how Paragon is affecting my mind by making me so calm. I guess it makes perfect sense, we all know that stress leads to illness and that healthy people are low stress…so, why wouldn’t it effect my mind?

Had an insight about generosity last night, I have this feeling that giving is receiving. Small acts of generosity seem to have lead to increased earnings.

Life Stuff

Stronger orientation toward family.

Feeling a bit of anxiety today. It’s pretty general.

Financial situation continues to improve, but I’m still not out of the woods.

Made a bet, first one to save 20grand wins, I’ll take the bet.

Stack

Oops, haven’t been following guidelines which explains a lot.

Gonna run Emp, ME, and Paragon for at least 2 cycles, rotate in Index Gate in Feb or March, but stay on Emp and ME for the whole year.

Now that I see how I’ve been doing it wrong, that seems to be the best option.

If I use more stack rotation, I’m gonna do it the right way this time.

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Cycle 2 - Day 8 - Rest

Results

Huge family fight last night, it was pretty bad. I kept my cool so well that it actually surprised me. Normally I’m cool under pressure, but I was physically cool too. No stress response, no irritation, nothing. I just completely let it go with no care in the world.

Shifts

Big anger last night, 100% recon, no question. I think I handled it better than normal.

I had a moment where I just realized that I don’t HAVE to get swept away by my thoughts.

Doing a detox starting today. No fasting because paragon, vegan keto detox to help speed up the healing and deal with a fungal thing I got happening.

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Cycle 2 - Day 10 - Rest

Just had an insight, I get stressed because my plans are often unrealistic and delusional.

I’ll make big plans without taking reality into account, then I’ll fail and feel horrible about myself for having failed.

I always leave out key information that drastically changes the outcome making goal attainment impossible because I’ve neglected to consider key aspects that would alter my plans and actually make them come to fruition.

Getting irritated, getting upset, being stressed. These things only happen because I don’t think deeply enough. I don’t consider all the details that I need to consider. I leave information out.

Some Results

Paragon is certainly working on me. I’m going to keep running it for at least 3 cycles in this stack. It’s very tempting to drop it and move on to other things like Index Gate, etc, however, I need to be healthy. A dark spot on my teeth has vanished, and my itch is going away.

The only “issue” is that I have less motivation to go out and make money, but DUH! It’s because I’ve gotten sick multiple times in the last three months and my body is trying to heal itself.

I need to stay on Emp, Paragon, and ME for a little while to allow things to level out.

So far this cycle I haven’t “felt” ME at all, and it’s probably because healing my body is just taking precedence.

Gonna go make some money now.