I’m still on stage 1, but I can’t wait for stage 2. Best of luck on stage 2!
How long do you intend on doing stage 2 for?
A happy state? Determined state? Carefree state? What kind of state?
A carefree state. 
@Gilligan I have to do some research before I set a goal for Stage 2 usage. Maybe as long as I used Stage 1.
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2 months 22 days for Khan Stage 2.
That’s about the run time of Stage 1 including rest days.
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I guess I had an experience connected to Khan today. Felt disrespected by an old friend and got really angry. I am not sure if he did the behaviour on purpose, but he didn’t even apologise. I stayed calm from the outside but was very much pissed off from the inside. I left early because I wanted to calm down at home.
I am now listening to sanguine to get into a better state.
Thinking about friendship lately. This is not the right state to think about it. At the moment I want to be alone.
And that I am angry because it seemed like my friend disrespected me is probably based on some emotional wound from the past. It might have been enhanced by Khan. Being treated with disrespect in my childhood and youth.
I felt like ending that relationship. But now I am thinking about just taking some time off.
I don’t like being needy and I feel that neediness in relationships with some friends and acquaintances. I have to get back on my purpose and focus on becoming a better writer. Feeling good doing things on my own. Letting go of the need to hang out with someone just to not be alone.
Following are two rest days. I am more relaxed now after writing this down and listening to sanguine but still need distance to this emotional event today.
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Take several days off. It does wonders.
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Ok I start resting from today on
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Washout or regular rest days? I’ll be starting my washout on Khan late next week.
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I would call it washout… 7 days off subs
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Yesterday was day 7 of my washout. Now I am listening to Khan Stage 2 QV2 - loop 1.
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Journaling:
During the washout I was tired and bored a lot. Also on some days I had memory problems.
I also reconnected with my friend and told him that I felt sorry for my behavior. I think the friendship is more important to me than being right about some bullshit situation.
Yesterday on day 7 I was very productive at work and with my hobby project.
I want to start slowly now with one loop of Khan Stage 2 QV2 and then watch what happens.
I am still unsure how to proceed. Probably one loop of QV2 for 3 days this week, then processing days on the weekend. I even thought about using QV1 Khan for most of the week. I have to pay attention how I feel and if I get results or if I am in stonewalling, overload or reconciliation mode.
Edit: After one loop I feel happy and a bit horny. Thinking about the friend who wants to get intimate with me, but also thinks that I don’t want her. I didn’t decide yet if I want her because the friendship could become a bit different. I will see.
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Just listening to my first and probably only loop of Khan Stage 2 QV2 for today.
Nothing to report since my washout. Okay, it’s just day 2. I remember better days. The past days I was bored a lot which put my into thinking mode.
I hope it will get better soon.
Yesterday I went to bed very early because I was tired af.
Maybe I got accustomed to some effects of Stage 1 and these are not shiny and new anymore, but normal. I hope for a revival of that feeling of curiosity and freshness with Stage 2.
During my wash-out I was thinking about stacking Khan with something. Maybe RM. Maybe my PS Custom. I also thought about Heartsong. I will stay for a while on Khan Stage 2 solo until I see new results.
Furthermore, I will probably add in an Ultima title from my library, perhaps Commander.
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Good decision. I think stages 1 and 2 should be run solo. They are the foundation of everything else that follows. The longer you can hold off on adding another sub, the better.
Day 3 after the wash-out. Today I ran one loop of Khan and I have a headache now.
Will see how it develops and weekend rest days.
What do you plan as your current listening schedule for this upcoming week?
1 loop Khan Stage 2 a day for 5 days a week
Today I listened to one loop of Khan Stage 2 QV2.
I am feeling exhilarated today.
A friend of mine recommended to me the silent prayer. I started the practice yesterday in the evening and did another prayer this morning. I want to continue this practice to get closer to god and more out of the head.
Feeling good today and not tired and drained out like yesterday. I am optimistic that this will continue.
In the evening I am listening to Rebirth Ultima V2. I won’t listen to the QV2 custom or a major subliminal in the next weeks. I want to see how this combination works out.
I hope to stop my fapping habit now that I have found new energy and clarity. Let’s see how it develops after a few days. I read a few days ago that subliminals are functioning better by doing semen retention. I did know that already, but it was a good reminder.
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Okay, no fapping didn’t work yesterday.
I even made the mistake to listen to Diamond Ultima UV2 yesterday for a better experience.
At least I didn’t watch porn.
Today I feel very hot in the upper body. Could be a result of Diamond.
Currently, I am listening to Khan Stage 2 QV2. And will try to give nofap another go this day. The problem is that I get a bit agitated if I don’t do it and can’t sleep so well. Today I am trying cold showers when that happens.
Emotionally, I still feel good, but the heat in the upper body is present. It isn’t even that hot outside today, and I am sitting in my home with opened windows.
Edit: Forget to mention, yesterday when I was outside waiting for the train, a woman was smiling at me all the time. I don’t feel attractive at the moment, so it was a bit odd for me. Hopefully these beliefs will change with Stage 2. In Stage 1 I had times when I was seeing IOIs everywhere and felt attractive, because of external feedback. Maybe with Stage 2 there will be also this feeling of attractiveness without external validation.
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