On 28 December, about a month into my break, and basically about a week ago, a pure concept just came into my awareness of a topic that I would like to work on, possibly write about?
I was just remembering it tonight and thinking about it, and it definitely has a Results feel to it.
Try to remember:
You’re always submerged—immersed–in consciousness
Always navigating consciousness
Consciousness is your medium of existence
Query consciousness
Query consciousness
Query consciousness
I’ve long wanted a space more than I’ve wanted an ‘answer’;
a suitable space in which to explore, to ask, to build.
a good life
spaces in which to create; fine friends with whom to share, trade, and admire creations
one more piece of ordinary madness
If you could see your past accurately and objectively, it would become clear that:
so much of the so-called pleasures and wonderful times that you’ve had were fueled directly by your efforts to escape from, distance from, and/or completely forget about unpleasantness, pain, or oppressiveness.
“Hey, Existence! What the hell, man?”
okay, okay, relax. It’s not all like that.
Just some of it.
When your consciousness flows with enough energy and is full, you experience beauty and happiness;
It seems to come from the world, but that’s only because you don’t see your own consciousness,
you only see throught it
Go ahead, little human,
Essentialize and Archaicize
Pretend that whatever you happen to have bumped into in your days on this Earth was inevitable and has always been.
Create new gods to inspire you and oppress you
Invest them with the power of your disowned consciousness
The greatest illusion–the greatest art form–(that I know) is a human being.
And don’t fool yourself, whether scientist or layperson, that you have understood this illusion simply because you can break it down and identify some of its parts; because you can parrot the term ‘subconscious mind’. That is almost nothing.
If you can identify and deconstruct light, a screen, a lens, and a projector, does this mean that you now truly understand the artistry and mastery of the 100 greatest films ever made? No, more likely it means you may be pretty good at destroying them or destroying the experience of them.
When you can create one of them, now something has begun.
Only when you can understand an illusion while it is yet active and alive can you claim to have seen through it.
Only when you can create and construct it, can it be said that you have even begun to explore the understanding of it.
In the meantime, I am taken in by these illusions; me and my fellow humans.
The moment I encounter a human being, I am taken in by their complex artistry, and by the artistry of my nature’s own responses.
A complex dance begins; of ego, of impression, of need, of desire, of competition, of agenda, of altruism, of this and of that, and the whole of it distracts me from ever really exploring or grasping what this thing before me (or the me before this thing) really actually is in the first place.
Most may go through our entire life cycle without ever completely even asking this question at all.
Even to ask it, is one of the great possible accomplishments of a human life. Usually we simply pretend to ask it.
My brother Robert managed to seduce everyone in those few seconds
2nd play day today.
Khan Black 3
PHENOMENAUT Genesis QTKS
We’ll see.
One of the reasons that I ended up allowing any credence to astrological concepts is that I encountered them fairly late. I did not really read much about astrology until my late 20s or early 30s. By that time, I had done a fair amount of exploration, meditation, and so on. I had learned a few things about my nature. That’s literally a few things, but few is better than none.
The point is that when I began to look into astrological frameworks, I already had some primary data to compare them against. I was shocked that some of the specific things that I’d already learned about myself appeared to be reflected in astrological concepts to a non-random degree. That is what sparked my interest enough to keep studying it from time to time.
How does one get perspective on one’s perspective?
For many of us, the highest good that we can imagine to aspire to is to be on the winning side of a losing proposition.
You’re not free, but you have more than other people have.
You’re the top dog…
…In prison.
That’s not good.
Every single human mental pattern that I question or criticize, has its beneficial or valuable expression as well as its capacity for dysfunction, damage, or excess.
For example, our tendency to archaicize–to impute a contrived sense of history onto some condition or situation that may or may not actually have much history–can be very helpful and healthy.
Also thinking of:
the emotional and mental (psychic) expressions of Give and Take that are the true underlying foundation of intimacy, connection, and sexuality
Boundaries
Projection
They can all be taken too far or exercised too rigidly, but they are all vitally necessary.
What even is a sensation or perception?
Played my subs at the end of the day yesterday. It was just quite a full day.
Ended up playing KB3 (masked) at 11:15 pm and then PHENOMENAUT Genesis (ultrasonic) at around 11:45 pm.
I forgot at first, but eventually I remembered that I did in fact have dream experiences. I was with someone else and we were walking across a rugged landscape. We’d left the car somewhere, and then we navigated this kind of city. It had a very interesting emotional feel to it. The boundary between city and wilderness was kind of fluid; partly because everywhere was equally unfamiliar. I remember thinking, ‘we have no idea where that car is; I wonder if we’ll find it’. And so on. Stuff like that.
The dream recall was a bit fuzzy and vague . But yes, that did happen.
These days have been kind of productive.
I’m waking up with tasks to do, and, for the most part, I’m moving through them and getting them done.
It’s happened quietly, but that’s sort of how results go sometimes, isn’t it? At first, i didn’t really pay attention to it, but it’s seeming like ‘a thing’ yet again.
So maybe this is Victory’s Call in action?