MALKUTH The Phenomenaut

Journals - Custom Subliminals
#302

Introverted Feeling is often described (in pop psychology contexts) in terms of its products and outcomes: values and deeply-held beliefs.

That’s fine but it’s also missing a very crucial point.

Introverted Feeling, as with all psychological functions, is a Mode of Cognition.

It’s a way of framing, evaluating, exploring, analyzing, and processing. It’s a way of thinking.

This mode of thinking is especially well-suited for clarifying or developing values and personal meaning. But it is not intrinsically, or of itself, just a set of values and principles.

Instead, Introverted Feeling is a mode of thinking that centers on Experiential Intimacy. That is its core attribute.

This experiential intimacy is what we refer to as ‘Feeling’. It is a mode of ‘knowing through contact’.

The byproduct of this form of cognition is a tendency to produce forms that are integrated and that emphasize subjective coherence . In other words, personal meaning and integrity.

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#303

The same holds true of Intuition.

Innovation and invention are its by-products, not its process or method.

Intuition is actually a mode of cognition characterized by particular tendencies. Those tendencies happen to be much more likely to result in innovation, creation, and invention, but they are not, in themselves, simply a collection of innovations. They do not even necessarily possess the goal of innovation.

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#304

Realizing that I need to read The Many Selves of Katherine North.

In that book, Emma Geen is contemplating and processing the same realities that I am continually working with. I haven’t read it yet, but that’s my sense. She’s doing so through the mode and lens of fiction; but they’re the same questions.

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#305

Revelation of Dreams is in my stack, but I haven’t been remembering or deepening many dreams.

Did this morning though.

I think one effect of RoD for me was a shift in my sense of what dreaming is.

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#306

What is dreaming for you?

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#307

Throughout this whole life I’ve been trying to work with ontological and phenomenological exploration. I vividly remember trying to explore and write about this when I was 16/17 years old.

I just didn’t do very well at finding shared, interpersonal or institutional contexts for engaging in this kind of work.

Now I’m trying again.

It’s what I’m built for.

There’s not really a choice.

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#308

It’s an altitude (or region, or domain) of ongoing mental activity, or consciousness.

Just like our heartbeats, it’s continuously proceeding whether we choose to “dip into” it and pay specific attention to it at a given moment or not.

All of your organs, all of the parts of your body, are active throughout the entirety of your life, they never actually ‘stop’. The mind, consciousness, is the same.

So I saw that in a ‘dream’ one’s attention and awareness venture into or ‘dip into’ these streams and modes of processing that are actually going on the entire time. Almost like when one looks through a microscope and ‘discovers’ the ‘whole new world’ of organisms that are smaller than the human eye can discern. You didn’t discover them and it’s not a new world. They were there the whole time, and have been and will be intimately parts of you as long as you’re here.

When the ongoing flow (or tirade) of conscious, ego-driven narrative calms down for even a short while, we can start to experience other areas of consciousness.

Like when there’s a nighttime blackout in a big city and suddenly, in the absence of urban light pollution, its denizens can see the stars again.

Or like when a very talkative person takes a short break, and in the momentary lull, you realize that there has been music playing down the street or in the next room.

Sleeping neutralizes or calms the persistent, aggressive, mental narrativizing of waking life. And during that calm, we can gain access to other regions of mental process.

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#309

The web of instinctual drive and imperative is so subtly pervasive and ubiquitous that, in essence, it never even really occurs to you to challenge it.

That, to me, is the actual ‘Matrix’; not anything that anyone else has done.

It’s the warp and weft of my own mind; my own consciousness.

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#310

To be able to observe a thing and discern more of what it truly is, rather than just perceiving what your instinctually-shaped algorithims and heuristics have programmed you to process and to experience.

or stated more conventionally:

‘To look at a thing and see it as it truly is rather than as just what you’ve been programmed to see’

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#311

to look without conception is to “see”

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#312

I don’t know where this process is going, but I do have to say

I’m feeling influences and processes going on that seem unmistakeably to be the result of processing Revelation of Mind and Revelation of Spirit.

And it’s been less than a week of QTKS. Started last Wednesday.

(Prior to that, though, I ran them in ZPv2 Standard for 2 months.)

Today, I woke up (from a dream, no less) and immediately had an insight about my natural pattern of cognition and some of its implications.

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#313

I wonder about this.

I suspect it might be a matter more of fully owning one’s conception than of jettisoning it.

But, hopefully, time will tell…

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#314

Felt tired and a little addle-pated when I got up today.

I’ve decided to take today as an additional subliminal rest day.

Listen to yourself, listen to the process.

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#315

Just got a feeling that I would not play subs today. It’s probably because they were still actively processing.

Now it’s 6:45 pm. I’ve finished my meetings and I will go home. Meditate. Get ready for tomorrow’s matters.

Maybe tomorrow, I’ll play my customs again. That’s the plan.

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#316

The Wisdom of Tim Ferriss

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#317

This year has been 10 years since I started making electronic music.

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#318

Life is so strange I can barely comprehend it

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#319

I would say that is the case for most of us, regardless of who we are, where we are from and all the other such differences.

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#320

In this morning’s meditation, the mind just continued to bring up and process past experiences.

After some time, I noticed, “This is a thing.”

Now I’m on my way to run a 3-hour meeting. My mind is in a curious space. Somewhat interested to see where things will go.

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#321

Taking an additional processing day.

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