OK, I wasnt sure if I WANTED to share this, but here it comes…
Yesterday after 1 loop of WANTED i did my Yoga practice and went to take a shower… I was naked in front of the mirror looking at myself and for the first time in my life I really loved what I saw. Let me explain this a little bit more.
Theres been a lot of times in which I love my reflection in the mirror and a lot of times in which I dont.
The times I didnt felt angry and/or sad. The times I did felt euphoric.
Yesterday it didnt felt euphoric, it felt quiet, profound, unquestionable and not forced (I felt that the euphoric feeling I used to get was kind of a forced self conviction tactic)
Yesterday felt 100% natural… then I proceeded to do something that would have scared me any other day previous this natural loving feeling.
Naked in front of the mirror I did an open heart meditation… and could see all the aspects of myself that I usually hurry to hide with detention, without covering the feelings but feeling them as they express. Weakness, sadness, anger, you name it. After a while a feeling of acceptance came over me and Found myself saying “This is who I am, all of it… I love all of it, not just the cool parts” then took a cold shower.
The rest of the day many things came to the surface.