Haha thing is, Iām kinda overwhelmed with everything right now, in fact, right now Iām in a very very weird state of mind that I kinda havenāt experienced since a very long time.
Basically, Iām starting to feel like life has become repetitive, and I know things have been going amazingly well in my life, but somehow, somewhere, something is missing.
I feel like everyday, I just wake up 5:30am, go to work till 2pm, get lunch, play a hit, either go gym or out with my girl if itās a rest day, then eat dinner, and then come home, play and sleep, and as much as I do have fun during those tasks, thatās all they feel to me, just tasks of my days that I have to get through.
I donāt get excited about new things, because I have this really deep faith in myself to always excel at whatever I do, and that things will always work out, because of which, I just ābeā, and because of that, I feel like Iām just existing, not living, which leads me to āinstall a new personaā using customs, and then enjoy some new stimulation in life by exploring a different āmeā, and then it becomes the norm, and then poof, back to just ābeingā.
So, I guess in a way, thatās why even though itās a huge championship, which will even stick out like a golden event in my CV, I just feel like itās just something that I have to do anyways.