You will
Start the day with an simple wish or command - I love myself more
Give it time and you arive there
You have Lovebomb in your pocket - it will happen
I wandered around the last 3 weeks and saw on many occasions (specially with women) that I am still a child who wants to be treated well. Then this hit me hard and short-I give my power away to other people. So on a bicycle ride I decided to reach a level of love where it’s not important what I get from others because I am full of love inside. Last week I started the day with a command to the sub - I want to reach this level.
Then magic happens
Not only do I feel this love the whole time it is filling my unloved parts with love until the shit inside me gets pushed out.
Today I stood up and the first though was - I don’t want to be attacked verbaly and physically - I saw how I shy away from being hurt but at the same time a river of love exploded in me and start to flush my pain and fear away until I came to the point where I was laughing. Nothing can hurt me - I have love inside me that protects and nurtures myself in my deepest parts, there is love inside me and attacks don’t reach me anymore. I am indestructible.
I have still a feeling of hurt inside me but now there is a ton of love who heals this crippled parts of me - slowly and constant