LB + Sanguine is such a good combo
Just listened to 7.5 min each, laying on the floor, really taking in the sounds and the feelings in my body/mind as I listened
And I swear I was reacting in real-time to the scripts.
Starting off with Sanguine my mind immediately went to thoughts on emotional control, what it means to be in a feeling vs outside of it, when is it appropriate to do one or the other, and eventually I just stopped thinking and dropped into my body in a very easy and simple experience of mindfulness.
Then with Love Bomb I started thinking about what it means to love someone romantically and a video I saw of a woman saying many men have an immature anima and when they fall in love they end up loving the part of them that is experiencing the love rather than loving their partner. As I pondered this I realized it was true, and in every relationship as soon as the novel aspect of being loved faded away, as soon as that acute experience of being embroiled in another person’s affection faded a little, I was back to my normal of not really liking myself and feeling blah, which then extends to the person. My new gf already caught a whiff of it as our relationship has mellowed and I’ve become less manic about how crazy I am about her. Honestly, I don’t know how to fix that, other than completely shifting the responsibility for that happiness/joy/glow that comes from being loved away from her/the external and onto me. I need to fill myself with that love and passion, which I can then bring into the relationship, rather than expecting her existence to fill me with love and passion. I need to give it to myself, I need to be my primary provider of those emotional experiences. Now the question of HOW arises hahahaha
However, towards the end of the LB loop, I relaxed into a feeling of openness. Trust that God/the Universe will provide, and if I stay open enough to feel the intuitive pings, I can collaborate with the flow of energy of Life to walk together towards those beautiful things that God has set on my path.
Honestly, Sub Club is GOAT’d thank you guys for these products which help us reveal these parts of ourselves so effortlessly at times.