What do you mean? It’s mostly recon if you are confused.
That depends on many factors, so it is not easy to give an answer to that. I find your log quite interesting and if you scroll back, you can see that you are progressing. Two things are sticking out though, which might lead you to have that self-doubt(some self-doubt seems entirely natural on Khan due to the self-questioning and self-restructuring nature of the sub)
At the beginning of your log you said that you want to enjoy dating, sex and romance- but you immediately qualify that statement with
Dating and meeting women will come a bit later once I’ve gotten some good healing done with the earlier stages of the Khan programs, and feel it would be ‘possible, even if confronting’ rather than simply ‘my inner landscape is objectively not ready for that’
I get that because a big part of my inner weakness is the the idea that I need to be overprepared for something before I even engage with it- but that stems from low self-esteem. If you feel like you are not good enough or that you need x amount of healing before you can put yourself out there, it can quickly become a coping mechanism which will not make it possible for Khan to give you the necessary experiences to speed up your progress on Stage 1 and 2. It is a masculinity/social/dating type of sub, after all. Depending on your personal makeup, you might be looking for external proof and you may need that in spades for the big transformations that you’re looking for.
Even during the first cycle of Khan TB, I felt the burning desire to get myself into a place where I can approach women like Amash did back then. I can’t do much about it because for the moment, I have to be in a remote village. But I’d like to emphasize that you need to do more to get social feedback, because it does deeply impress your subconsciousness, which is what the sub works on, after all. You need a healthy process in which your subconsciousness gets primed for action(Khan will do that), and action confirms changes- without the fear that you’ll get embarassed or that there will not be enough IOIs or whatever. Don’t wait for the healing- because getting out there is part of the healing process itself.
Regarding your use of Khan Black, you said at the beginning of your log that you do pranayama and meditation, and yet you still struggle to get rid of the porn habit. That tells me that you need to look into this a bit more. Who did you learn your techniques from? Energetically, most people mess themselves up with pranayama. Do you observe yourself daily in how these techniques impact your sex drive and circulation of energy? Is it getting circulated at all? You cannot let sexual energy stagnate, it will just cause an unrelenting push to release itself- and if you’re still holding on to the belief that artificial means are more realistic than doing it with a woman then this will manifest in your behaviour- again, it is most likely rooted in what your current self-esteem/self-love is like. If you go really deep into meditation in terms of silence, it will actually lower your sex-drive somewhat, which might not be ideal for the goals of Khan- I think part of the reason why every stage of Khan seems to make people hornier than usual is to help increase you desire to conquer- especially women. Don’t want to derail this discussion too much, we can talk about specifics through PM. But it is clear to me that Khan Black will only yield really good results when you learn how to build and circulate your sexual energy properly. And also how to release it naturally(which is with women, there are no alternatives, no matter what mainstream media tells you). This process will not be initiated as long as you believe that you have no other option but to masturbate when you’re horny.
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Someone who gets it. This is why we created the NSE, to provide you with constant direct feedback in a way that you’ll understand.
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I think the word " Recon " is being largely misused here. TB is supposed to break you down harder and faster than even old TB and even more effectively than Phoenix. This will be especially true for those who are in the process of breaking down in order to achieve large goals / dreams.
I wouldn’t call that process as pleasant or even enjoyable. If it hurts, then its working. If it’s painful then its working. If its confusing then its working. If you are uncomfortable then its working. If you feel like your world is falling apart then its working.
" The first stage broke you down.
Destroyed you.
Tore you down, brick by brick, belief by belief, trauma by trauma.
You were tested, you were slashed at your core, you were burned and your chains were broken. "
Regardless of what you think this stage should feel like or how you imagine your cycle on TB will go, It will most likely be harder than you imagine. Good its working.
Nothing is free in this world. The price of laziness is regret. The price of being comfortable is living with a voice that always tells you that you could be more and do more. The price of greatness is discomfort. The price of wealth is hard work. Every brick you tear down is a part of you that gets replaced with something better, yet each brick has a life of its own. It does not want to die. The ego desires to persist regardless of your wishes and dreams. Yet most would gladly pay this price if they know 100% that it will be worth it…
And there is the line that separates the average from the great. Be it desperation or faith, those who persist while fully embracing uncertainty are those who will be rewarded. Pain is inevitable, suffering is optional. The more you pay now with discomfort, walking side by side your fears, insecurities and embracing the unknown doing what you know is necessary for your ultimate vision… The higher you climb.
I know its sounds a bit edgy but i hope this resonates with someone. Make the most out of today and your cycle. Be it faith or desperation. Never Fear The Weak… This includes what the " weak " in you feels and wants currently.
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I’m still in my mentorship program for trading, I think I manifested it because of Mogul lowkey being in my stack.
Today a fear hit me, I felt sooo sad and came close to crying. What the fuck do I do once I achieved success? Once I’ve gotten super attractive, once I’m rich af, once I’m super ripped and lifting is doing great.
What do I do? I’ve been so obsessed with success that I forgot to plan what to do after once I reach all my objectives.
I’ve been driven by reaching goals, getting laid more, being more social, getting financial freedom, getting in shape… What do I do once all is achieved?
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Absolutely amazing post
These words are literally part of a pathwork i do so i will take it as synchronicity meant for me, whole post was was magnificent.
Spirituality
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Has anyone ran Kb and khan both together? Is this redundant since theres similarities.
I finished a long dr journey 5cycles per stage and looking to start something else with my khan black third cycle stage1.
I dont care about seduction, dating or social aspects but removal of limitations, blocks and internal development and overall becoming the greatest version of self.
Reading these posts made me think maybe just st1 and use ragnarok then.
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I have to ask. If you don’t care about seduction and whatever why get KB?
Did you mean kb or khan? As for kb for internal energy development inner alchemy and outer goals.
For khan st1 sounds exactly what i want go through now for deeper internal cleanse, other stages sound appealing too but with focus on becoming greatest self version.
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Letting go is hard as hell my man
I got this technique from a book as it goes like this:
- Focus on the feeling
- Feel it deeply… If your sad allow yourself to feel as sad as possible. Observe it
- You’ll notice how the feeling decreases in strength
- Repeat steps 1-3. Then you’ll realize it is just a feeling and it’ll be gone
Letting is a constant process… You gotta repeatedly do the process
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Book is called Letting Go by David Hawkins
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All of his books are fantastic. Highly recommend power vs force, transcending rhe levels of consciousness, and the eye of the I as well.
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This is shifting your orientation from a person who looks for success to be good enough to someone who is successful as by product of their being
- Your looking for success as a dopamine hit. Addicted to achievement
- You looking for success to make yourself feel good enough internally. Its a replacement and confirmation of your worth
- Not recognizing you’ll know when you get there but your life has to be about more than getting there …now. What’s your deeper purpose in all of it. Like what would you want or need your life to be about if you never got any more successful than now.
- What would you do now if you were and had all those things already?
My 2 cents, hope that helps at all.
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My plan was to take a break bang shit tons of chicks and have fun with $$ then build a family.
I’m in a relationship now, building toward family, I’ve had the talk with my girl that monogamy is not in my blood and that it will come back up in our relationship eventually (had that talk. literally few days ago).
I’d also want to learn new skills like piloting an helicopter. Maybe skydiving…Gotta take a bit more time to think about all of this.
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Damn, curious if it works both ways in the relationship? I don’t think in a million years I’d ever be ok with my gf getting crushed by another dude, even if I was sleeping around.
No judgment, I’ve thought about open in the past I just know I wouldn’t be able to handle it if it happened back to me.
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She doesn’t have interest in other dudes for now, or at leasy it wasn’t on the table. She’s very traditionnal.
I feel tho once I get multimillionnaire, good shape (I’m also a good looking guy) and a good dad (also more masculine ofc with Khan) I’ll have more self confidence so it probably won’t be as threatening… Like she’s gonna leave me for who? I won’t be reached by 0.01% of guys hahahaha
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The thing is the more people you sleep with or your parthner sleeps with the more attachments, imprints and connections there are which makes it harder to make one bond stronger focused and take it to higher level.
I craved more when i was younger but realized im sacrificing a higher pleasure for a lower one.
So this aspect of khan dont want to focus on except for one person.
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Funny thing when intuition clicks with a subliminal and its sort of confirmed inside you that its inevitable reality, already feeling sword of khan energy running to me without playing it.
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My exact thoughts. Why would I want my wife bringing home another man’s sexual energy, to then mingle with my children? Energy sticks to you, even just by hanging out with someone, and now imagine you had sex with them… lol no way.
I’ll leave it there, not trying to derail the thread or go too off-topic.
Bringing it back to Khan, the Genghis thing to do would be have multiple women who are exclusive solely to you.
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