Interesting, I’m more and more torn on Khan- I just took a 5-day washout and am seeing things more objectively.
I had a brief period of absolutely crushing it on K3 and brought some amazing women into my life- who have since become increasingly challenging to maintain relationships with- moving on K4. I don’t think it was K4 -just generally -a few of these women were very high-powered careers; the relationships were very rooted in crazy sex and fun, but no talk of future or alignment outside of that. I seem to have a sticking point here as well. As increasingly they just don’t have time or engagement to keep things rolling but seem to verbally express one thing and their actions another
The kind of woman may have been a combo of C&C and Khan together.
The experience of having this level of success in this area is hard to go back from, the same way it was once I got a taste of the financial success I have -it will be impossible to go back. I don’t feel nearly as confident in my ability to manifest and make happen romance with the woman I am with finances. I believe by continuing to run K4 I will deepen in this.
I am quite bothered by how things have unfolded, although nothing is over yet, technically
I’m both bothered by the challenge and by my reaction to the challenge, but after my washout I am more curious
I’m increasingly thinking Khan- while definitely incredible for growth- has some serious drawbacks with how I’m running it- potentially not enough K1 this round. My sales and income have gone up on Khan and my stack, but there is an intensity to Khan that I have not managed well yet. Where Emperor and Emperor Reforged (from my brief run) feel instantly integrating and cohesive, Khan seems expansive and edgy. Like riding the tiger. This makes sense when the external results reflect this but when they don’t and I’m feeling this it is a hard sub for me to feel internally sourced on.
K4 on previous versions was more powerful sexually to me- generally-pending exceptions- meaning every time I ran it, that was the most pervasive note–Khan: Love and War seems way more dominant than sexual to me, and the dominance feels like recon try-hard or aggro- not deep, masculine, self-controlled real leadership, etc. Running more K1 or even Emperor: Reforged could resolve this. And I have had glimpses of brilliance on Khan when I feel more settled on it.
Whereas WB or Emperor variants seem to create attraction generally, no matter the woman I am engaging with. Khan is harder to navigate; the attraction is very strong and creates total passivity- on Love and War people seem to easily ignore it or write it off, or I have to keep moving things forward, whereas some people seem absolutely enamored and engage equally; usually it requires a lot more effort on my part.
I take full responsibiltiy for my results on it, and am figuring out if it makes sense to continue, to run reforged and/or K1 first before picking it up again. I’m very interested in getting certain issues internally and externally handled/evolved here.Other subs k1, Reforged, WB, and Wanted may address things more directly and set me up for a better run of K4 in the future.
