I have no problem being open but the pattern i notice occuring for me is distortions in my manifestation.
Some parts are perfect but others dont really fit me and overwhelm me with doubts that this might not be my soulmate and that drops attraction for me.
That is perhaps my biggest fear of never really finding true love soulmate, i realize its an attachment but nonetheless a strong one to dissolve.
Its funny i dont doubt about abundence of women on khan and dont view it as something difficult but im more worried what use will it be if none of them are my soulmate, i wouldnt care if a milion women wanted me without the right one.
Feels like searching for a needle in an endless haystack.
Perhaps i need to run heartsong for a while after im done with drred