Update, ran 5-mins of this.
Something instantly feels different about this in how it hits my mind. I don’t feel sledged with an endless stream of mental impulses overwhelming my mind as I did before after running a loop and I found during listening sort of a buffer on the processing or something, it felt surprisingly easy to go through it.
Feeling as grounded as the earth itself. Its right before sleep that I am hitting this so possibly more prominent effects will come tomorrow as my body and mind go into a more active state.
A feeling of being steadfast with my purpose and will. An unwavering mental framework is what comes to mind. You know what you want and don’t flip flop around, no indecisiveness whatsoever, either you know or you don’t no middle way. Firmness of decision.
Joy being integrated within daily living not just as a practice but as an embodiment. You become the joy.
Calmness, relaxation feeling sort of a sturdiness in my body and a newfound ease of mind. Calm mind and body.
Also consistency in my work ethic and life in general.
Just some things to share with ya’ll. Pulling this from my subconscious from what I am feeling and now in my body and mind and sense is integrating in some way or another in my mind. These may be strictly my impressions though.
Also feel it is altering my speech or manner of thinking in a very deep way that will take a few days to fully understand. Like new mannerism of thinking and approach to life that resonate with stoicism. It feels more like contingent, like a door that opens only when a certain key is used, so I feel this will only activate when certain life circumstances come around where it will clearly start manifesting and also develop, a sort of stoic toolkit that will become available when needed. Our understanding of stoicism will develop over time and be applied in our lives for our growth and development.
Heck I really think this thing is packed with goodies.
My mind is processing the script I can sense many aspects but it is absolutely at ease and calm, no mental craziness at all. Definitely must be the new anti-recon stuff. 5 stars out of 5 if that is the case upon first review.
My brain impulses would go into chaos before now it just feels utterly calm. Nothing going out of hand but still very much processing probably a lot of information. Like the buffering effect I spoke about earlier.
Anyway done for today have fun with this everyone!
I have zero thoughts, I am embodying just a silent presence right now, very grounded.
@SaintSovereign anything like this in there at all or am I imagining the buffer stuff?
Edit: More thing to add before I ran programs, especially totally new programs but even after working with them for awhile sometimes I felt completely disoriented and bewildered by the internal changes. Not sure what is happening then but you can feel a railway of changes unfolding inside.
Now it is not like that. It comes more at a steady pace, I am not feeling overwhelmed at all, even though I can feel changes are unfolding, again like the buffering effect I spoke about. My mind has remained the same rhythm as it was before if not feeling far more at ease and calm. Very interesting.
May be a combination of the anti-recon stuff plus the stoicism and other aspects relating to resilience and calmness.