just started my second cycle paired with my custom(lots core , spartan core and empfit stage 4 core) and things are slowly falling into place . I’ve been attempting to get myself ordered in a lot of different areas of my life . I’ve started being more meticulous with my grooming and have actually been looking to develop more emotional intelligence and social skills by through books . I’ve been meditating more consistently and always make sure to get some form of workout in . I do feel myself becoming better socially and am trying to form deeper connections with people . I’m trying to be less immature and more empathetic which is working very well . I do find that there are a lot more social situations being thrust upon me when i listen to emperor . More people inviting me out , friends calling me to just talk . The self talk has become very interesting since spartan does have an influence less drill sergeant like but like a crazy karate master that tells you his techniques can split a boulder .
my physique is shaping up pretty well even though my diet is trash but my arms ,shoulders and traps are getting bigger and I’m getting compliments from some coworkers . Like one guy said my traps were popping out of my work uniform . One girl i work with began saying that i looked different and couldn’t exactly place what it was .
physical shifting has been nice and im getting more jacked by the week . I’m noticing how being really physically fit does affect other areas of your life . Being more consistent with excercise is making me more hopeful for the future and I dont really have to do alot of negotia tiom
Another result i noticed how easily I can tap into the winner effect albeit in a non productive way. I play Apex legends with my friends and im not particularly good at it but eventually a couple games I began to be very comfortable getting kills and then it felt normal for a bit then i became scrambled .
This brings me to the realization that I never really knew how much internal work I needed to actually be in a good place in my life and how integral it is to actually growing up as a man . I’m always reminding myself of the progress I’m making because sometimes i can get caught up with big in your face stuff without picking up on subtleties .
I’m tired of being the guy with potential he can’t actualize and emperor has been allowing to me to become that guy less and less every day.
