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Just finished DRR ST2 and here is a quick summary so far
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I was hoping to get into Alchemist however Iām waiting for the updateā¦ DR Gold seems like it will change me on levels Iām unaware ofā¦ looking forward to it. Itās like Iām healing so I can heal more lol.
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The cycle of DRR2 is done (including the washout) and I thought I would share my experience of it before moving on to DRR3:
- My journey through stage 2 of DRRED was largely healing of things that I feared the most while when I look back at stage 1, that stage was healing of things that made me sad.
- It took some time to realize the difference between ST1 and ST2 (for me) since the recon was so strong during those cycles that only during the ST2 washout bloom could I reflect on the results.
- Things I was sad about were my lack of freedom of movement, my disabilities, financial situation, need for validation, etc. These were things ST1 released through recon and working through them.
- Things I feared the most where jail (an extreme loss of freedom), dying without leaving a legacy (extreme case of not being validated), not being able to afford to go where I want to (extreme financial issue), etc. ST2 helped release a lot if not all of these.
- From the last two points (3 and 4), I could make out how deep the second stage went into me. It dug into the abyss to bring all the ugly things out and there were times when I had to put on a brave face to not show the emotional turmoil I was going through.
- And the fear was so great that I also had to make a custom midway through the ST2 cycle to offer myself some protection. Made myself an LBFH + Survival Instinct X custom to make me feel safe in case someone comes to deal me serious harm.
- That last point might feel extreme but something happened to me around the same time Invictus was dealing with his jail issues and I almost ended up in the same space (in a different country). And there is still a possibility that something could happen if I am not careful.
- And itās not like I even did something illegal but India doesnāt have a good record of doing things right which is why I took my time to make a decision regarding it thanks to ST2 when at first I didnāt know what to do and felt sure that I made the right decision after I did so.
- Am being purposefully vague here but the important thing to know is that DRR will help us to make difficult decisions and what to do to protect ourselves from the dangers of the world. The growing maturity also helps us to be realistic rather than idealistic about things and treat the world for what it is rather than what we want it to be. And then make choices based on that knowledge. Most probably all this fear will be nothing but shadows in the cave but now am mostly at peace with myself no matter what happens.
- I had also made a LoTS + PC custom to keep myself in good health and will be running the two customs I mentioned in this post along with my cycles of DRR3 and DRR4.
- Am looking forward to DRR3 making things easier for me in terms of my mental state since it has scripting that will give us a larger view on life where our troubles and challenges will feel insignificant compared to the greater universe and help us see that things arenāt so bad (nor too good) as we go about life.
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This mirrors my experience with 2 cycles of stage 1, sadness, loneliness, loss and a lot of melancholy.
Yesterday I started stage 2.
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Thatās right. Feels like we are living in some drama movie with the sad music and all lol.
All the best, bro 
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I realized i was in some kind of partially self imposed dark comedy for a while back during phenixā¦
@Lion anyway thanks for sharing your experiences and results with dr red really puts things in perspective and understanding.
With start of dr st3 i had some really cool manifestations of gifts, even tho my financial situation has been fked for a long while, things i needed still came through even some positive surprises.
One recent was more of a khanblack manifestation which i stopped listening months ago.
Its crazy unexpected, how people in our circle may have suprising knowledge and skills that can help us.
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Thatās very interesting. I had run Phoenix for a cycle and it was surprisingly uplifting for me except for a bit of recon similar to the one you just shared.
I also noticed a lot more empathy of others from Phoenix. I love empathy scripting since it helps us deal with othersā emotions and those of our own too.
Thatās awesome!
I just began my cycle of DRR3 with the first loop of it. Hopefully I can experience something similar.
I already feel lighter after my first loop so thatās a good first impression.
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Actually when i think about it, i ran phenix some time after that, one of the harshest recons was from the gaming sub because it tapped into a long stream of dissapointments and darkness that carries.
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One of my fears too.
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We might need Dragon Reborn for Gamers : P
Couldnāt function for some days because of this fear. It kept looping in my mind like a mental version of the groundhog day movie.
Thankfully, am feeling fine now.
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Oof this is how I felt on DRR1 and the recent DRR2 bad day, although my thoughts are more dramatic like:
Wasnāt sure if I was building negative beliefs or shedding false optimism.
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LOL! I did feel some sort of rage due to the unfairness of it all. And even felt like exacting revenge.
But empathy and forgiveness prevailed. Also, it wouldnāt suit me to be vengeful. Nor would it be good for me.
I do think we are all one. And harming others would just be working against myself.
A very good point. I do think it is both.
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Im curious how new drr4 will be as that was the best stage of the previous versions.
Tho im running it hardcore with khan st1, so recon and healing is intense from both.
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Iām glad my stage 2 is almost over. Itās been a rough month financially. Idk every 4 stager I run ST2 is always the hardest one for me. Stage 3 this when things pick up like crazy
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Iām doing a washout right now which has actually been far more beneficial than I initially anticipated.
Iām not sure if itās from focusing so much on healing since Dragon Reborn was first released almost four years ago but I am finally starting to feel like I can let so much go. I know thatās probably if not the entire purpose of the Dragon Reborn series yet I wasnāt expecting quite so much purging like I have felt the last several days.
Itās as if my subconscious was waiting for this rest period to process everything I exposed myself to for so long without considering how much overwhelm I was putting myself through. Reading this back it all sounds incredibly cliche. One of my goals for the future is to work on increasing my vocabulary so what I say and how I express myself doesnāt always seem repetitive.
Iāve been reading The Ego is the Enemy by Ryan Holiday and learning about how I have allowed my ego to be out of control. Itās really done a lot for understanding how and why I have been interacting with you all on here. Always comparing myself to others in various ways. I was becoming increasingly concerned that if I didnāt do something that I would eventually become narcissistic. Something I never want to be anything close to as I have dealt with enough of them in my life. Iām not using my ego as an excuse for anything. Itās a starting point for the growth and understanding that I have looked forward to for most of my adult life.
Iām still working on figuring out exactly what it is I want out of life . Iām not in a hurry anymore though.
I actually want to take my time now so I donāt make the mistakes that have caused massive regret in the past.
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Its the 444/444 post perhaps a sign for a 4stager dragon reborn experience 
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I had reached the same conclusion as you, my ego being an obstacle. What I found is that ego is made of set of subconscious beliefs and programs. So any healing title will naturally heal your ego. Currently I am doing Regeneration and I found it pretty good for me, I am not being an avoidant anymore.
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Thank you so much for the reply. I was thinking the same thing that any healing title should help.
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