I’ve been thinking about this a bit and why Summertime seems to work so well for me.
I intellectualize a lot. I guess that’s my comfort zone. The act of just doing or being can be a scary thing for me. And I’ve tried to be more present in the past but then i started thinking about how to be more present vs actually being present.
Summertime sort of puts me in this headspace and state where those little rabbit holes to escape into more intellectualizing don’t work, but not in a threatening way. Which I think is the most important part because taking a survival mechanism offline or toning it down without an actual feeling of safety behind it is probably considered suicidal in my mind.
So DRR definitely helped me, but in an odd way it did feel more “activating” with that overthinking side of my mind. It’s like “yay we’re healing!” and then I get to the real system of safety and it’s like “well hold on a sec, we aren’t gonna change that” lol. It’s almost like an internal negotiating where two sides are skeptical. Whereas summertime is like bringing the comfort and safety and joy to that other side and then helping them expand outward too. It feels like a good friend who wants the best for me, but isn’t shaming me or judging me to get me to expand my comfort zone.
