The first enhancements I saw were from my RAIKOV run. The night Summertime came out, before I went to sleep, I put on a playlist with some video game osts and immediately felt myself get pulled back to when I was 8 playing them. Same comfort, same thoughts, memory in vivid detail, literally like I was reaching back in time to that younger self and embodying him. Feels like a really obvious RAIKOV and Clear Sight result given it was pretty inner world heavy and I was using RAIKOV to model myself 90% of the time.
ASBR came a few days later when I was seemingly getting manifestations of uncomfortable or awkward events with running into certain people or having them reach out. Except I realized that was the point. One of the biggest sticking point of the fame scripting for me is that I’m averse to attention I consider uncomfortable or interacting with people in a way that feels faked. But this time when that happened it felt like… nothing. Like literally zero annoyance or emotional toll. Just an “oh, that happened, guess I’ll respond” or even finding humor in the fact that I feel nothing compared to what people would expect. Making me comfortable with parts of the script that were sore spots even after two years of running it.
I think the source of the memory boost I was talking about before is that parts of my body that were in tension are relaxed now, and those parts are a hell of a lot better at remembering things than the stressed parts I’m used to using. It feels like a completely different part of me has the memory and just shows me. Getting a bit into memories stored in the body territory but that’s at least how I’m interpreting it right now. Some part released its stress and it’s leading to easier memory access.
There’s still the tension between it and ASBR I mentioned the other day, but I’m still trying to get a full grasp on that. Right now it just feels like it’s trying to help me access the force of nature parts of me without putting myself under immense amounts of stress or discomfort.
So it’s kind of working on multiple levels at once. Each one corresponding with some recent title I’ve run. I still feel a few more ways it’s working, but those have been a little too subtle for me to find their outward expression yet.