Main Disc. Thread - PHOENIX: A Dragon Reborn Experience (Free Upgrade Now Available!)

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#121

Day before yesterday I played a loop.

Yesterday night, before falling asleep, my mind drifted into various scenes from the past, from my early years. These scenes I believe, have played a major role in shaping how I am today.

Unfortunately, in all the scenes that automatically popped up, I was either drowning in shame or choking in fear. From a helpless 3 year old hiding under the sheets when his parents were fighting, to a 4 year old Pre-Schooler who always settled for the last toy that was left on the table, to a 5 year old Kindergartener who couldn’t stand up to a bully half his size.

I think the first scene played the biggest role and the latter scenes sealed the boy inside a Doom cycle.

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#122

The recon is not bad at all, almost non existent

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#123

Just yesterday you popped into my mind. A fleeting thought, but I was wondering how you are doing.

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#124

You are no longer that kid

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#125

Now we are talking

Thank you @Fire

Let’s go

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#126

Only you know truly

You are powerfull @James

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#127

First time I used this I had heart pain, most likely my heart chakra clearing stuff I’d assume, and I was pretty irritated

Now I listened to it for the second time 30 minutes ago and this time I experience a sense of anxiety

So the recon is pretty solid

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#128

Heartsong & LBFH are suitable for heart chakra clearing.

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#129

@James To add to this, within the past year I’ve learned a lot about grieving the past. I think for some of us we truly haven’t come to terms with our past. It always haunts us because we weren’t given the space to express how unfair it was, hurtful, disappointing, etc without being shamed. We just got told the classic American response of pull up the bootstraps and go make money to fix your problems, man up. Intellectually we understand what happened and how it impacted us, but we didn’t learn to process it in a natural manner.

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#130

I feel inner child has ways to process it and there are adult ways. We are always taught to be the adult way and the inner child gets neglected. This leads to build up of harsh emotions and bitterness etc. Without a healthy way to vent them they can continue to stick into your adult life.

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#131

True, true, true. :100:

#132

I listened to 5 minutes this morning, and I felt it quickly. I felt my body getting warmer, like Phoenix was scanning for tension and trauma links. It hung on a good 30 minutes.

The main thing I notice this morning is a subtle challenging of personal standards and “safe” norms. In other words, things I’ve used to deny reality. That constant denial keeps me in fear and anxiety since…I know, everyone knows…the truth will come through eventually, even if we want to avoid them.

And Phoenix seems like a tool to cut past these hindrances to growth. (The only con in listening today is I’m at the end of my cycle. Washout starts tomorrow. Freedom is addicting.)

I’m listening to an instrumental song now where my mind’s searching for high school memories, as I’ve lived here that long. I’ve not had that harsh burning in the chest like some have mentioned, but I sense it “heating up”. More to come, for sure.

I’d like to thank all the men and women who have shared their experiences here so far. It reminds me I’m not alone, and I don’t need to be.

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#133

I really wish to come back to this title when I have low stress around, it has left an imprint on me.

#134

That makes me happy!

Hope you’re doing well

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#135

Not being able to apply that thought in life

#136

How would the addition of Rebirth Phoenix be into a stack of Mogul and Quantum Limitless.

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#137

Or in Britain, we get told to hold your chin up. None of that actually gets rid of the problem, just buries it further in the psyche.
The real solution is also tantalisingly out of reach for those looking for it - precisely for the same reasons we get told to get on with it - traumatized little bunnies make great consumers.

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#138

Stepping stones, Brother. You can absotively be victorious :muscle:

Let the flames do the work and enjoy the BBQ

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#139

Did my first loop of 15 min today.

Had a slow but steady surge of confidence the first hour, then the fire starts burning in my.
This felt so good. I was loving with myself through old patterns and emotions that seemed no more important to hold on. Then I drove home with the bus and more fire was generated until it was at the level of the sun just burning away the shit.

Since the fire started I was in a kind of internal Extacy, I shouted in JOY to the fire in me : YEEEEAAAAA BURN STRONGER,BURN THE SHIT AWAY .

I am the cheerleader of this pleasurable fire.

Then I arrived at home and there is an Christmas market in our little village. Maybe 4 thousand people in total on the streets.

I made food at home and then I needed to go out and hunt a women (Khan Black st 4 and Diamond is my current stack)

Every time I have some insecurity it’s replaced with : I can change myself, I can do it and then I celebrate internally because I deeply believe it and act imeadiatly. For example 1 hour after the loop I was walking on a small street and a couple walks in my direction, I see her and she’s bored with her man and he has no qlue,i am on the right side an I can pass the couple but I want to pass her so I switch side and let them move to my right. I look her in the eye and exude: I want to see you so Its my right to see you.

Before the loop I would never do it but that’s history now.

So back to hunting, I open my door and set the intension: show me the ones I have great sex with, I step out of my house and 1 min later I see a girl I have a stomach reaction, I smile at her she smiles at me and we walk 1 meter apart, I turn around and she also, I walk up to her and say: hi my name is Leo, what’s your name. She ask me where I am from and I show her my apartment.
She grabs my arm and ask me if she could come up and use my toilet.

In we go

Let’s not go into to much detail but it was the dumbest interaction ever. Turns out she’s a tantra massage therapist and is sitting on my sofa and getting wet until I smell her love box scent.

Bending over a couple of times showing me she has no underwear under her skirt and telling me she’s so horny and want to fuck me but when I talk to her in erotic language what I gona do to her she pulls back and her energy jumps straight into her head. This happened many many times. She initiated and then pulls back. Then leans over and pulls back the moment I move the slightest.
After a couple of rounds telling her what I want to do with her she tells me I don’t have sex with you tonight but if you have a Frend we can make a threesome right now

No problem - one call and we made an arrangement for a another day with a buddy of mine.

Then she realy nailed it, she start telling how hot she is right now and what I want to do with her, the moment I tell her what to I want she pulls back and her sexual energy vanished again in her head - telling me no no no not today.

So I threw her out, in the door angle she starts to moan: ohhhhh Leo ohhh leo you don’t know what you want.

I looked her in her face and told her that she is soo dumb I have head pain.

Basically she wanted me to take her against her will and rape her nearly.

It not a turn on for me

But that’s how Swiss people operate in the sexual realm.

Anyway

Now I am at home and since 1 hour a storm of changes happen.

I can’t take women seriously at all so I gona play with them from now on a game of light heartedness.

I dump hard feelings

I see every detail I need to fix

I can change

I change

I step into this transformation

I learn everything I need from now on that makes my experiences better

I stip away everything that is useless and transform into the man I wana be

I see it vividly before my eyes, how I walk, talk, my internal state, how I operate and I love to change into that man.

For that : THE SHIT HAS TO BURN DOWN COMPLETELY

Whenever I feel like I hit reconciliation I imeadiatly tell the fire to burn away the reasons and it does

Fire under my command from now on

The fire is still burning more intense than ever in me

Thank you @Fire what a great masterpiece

Its time to rise- let’s go

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#140

Tempting…but if I ran this I would freak out again and Saint would need to ban me because I’d be such an insufferable nuance. :sweat_smile: