Short review of Stage 1
I listened now for 3 cycles.
Cycles 1&2 were mostly 3-5 minutes.
Cycle 3 only full 15 minute loops.
The first 2 cycles I was super tired in the morning. I felt like a truck hit me. Didn’t know where or who I was for the first few minutes.
Regarding sexuality, I didn’t feel much. I was still horny and tempted non stop. Finally I relapsed and fell back into PMO and porn games.
During that time I wasn’t able to keep a regular listening schedule. Sometimes I listened every other day, sometimes there were 3 or 4 off days.
End of February I decided to listen more disciplined and started full loops. That brought the change for me.
I woke up quite normally. Not super energetic, but this feeling of being hit by a truck was gone.
Sometimes that uneasy feeling still is there but at a much lesser intensity.
Sexually it made all the difference. Since then, temptation is almost completely gone. Not one serious thought of watching porn or playing porngames. I played Assassin’s creed instead.
While gaming there was a few times the thought of checking if there is a nude mod available or if there’s videos of the female main character.
But it was always just a short thought popping up in my head. Then the rest of my subconscious intervened immediately.
Finally, I got me some accountability app for all my devices, that sends screenshots to my GF.
To me that was the last step. I now know, that everything I do online is sent to her and that thought alone is liberating as fuck.
I never “loved” using porn, especially not since I’m in a relationship. But it always got the better of me because I thought I could keep it secret. Not anymore.
We have a deal that she’s not looking at my SubSclub screenshots so I can freely journall in here.
Today is the last day of stage 1 and Saturday is the start for stage 2.
@Risky perhaps this is interesting for you.