I didn’t get recon from the virtue scripting, but I also aggressively microlooped HeO for the first 2 cycles before I realized I could run 15m just fine. So maybe the recon was squashed in those initial cycles before it had the chance to manifest.
And HeO will give you a good foundation to stand & take on said higher path.
You’ll be properly guided so that you end up in the best position to carry it out.
It will feel less of a sacrifice because you know you do it for something higher than yourself.
The most important thing is to remember that you’re in full control over yourself. It’s an SC sub after all.
If you don’t want to take that “loss”, you don’t need to. Some things I just don’t give a fuck about and I’m not in recon because of it. Everything depends on your focus, values and how you want to carry it out. It’s not guiding you to lofty ideals outside of your reach, it’s guiding you to be a better version of yourself. And maybe you’ll see the value in taking that “loss” one day.
You don’t have to be completely selfless either in pursue of the virtues. I’m as selfish as I’m selfless in it. HeO will guide you to the best practical path you can take to follow the virtues.
Once the virtue scripting has seeped in & built a good foundation, it will feel as if it’s the most natural path to take. That’s why I said it’s a long term sub. It will take time for this to properly take place within you. But once it does, HeO will be the best sub you’ll ever use. I can’t convey it through words, you just gotta experience it yourself to understand the values of what it can bring to your life.