Emperor has lead me to certain situations that point out where I am lacking in my current development. when im dead alone at night or just walking alone after work my mind becomes very surgical in the way I look at myself . First off my obsession with sex is not even about the sex itself its the validation of the act and realising that with the things I want to achieve I can not be overly obsessed with female validation the way I am now .
Another interesting thing I had two close friends give me their honest opinions about me and it was mostly good but the biggest criticism is that I act like a boy sometimes instead of a man and some other childish behaviors. While they were giving their opinions I didn’t get sad or defensive I sat there and accepted it .