Field Report:
Really unexpected result last night. For context, I’m running KB1 and DD with the intent of healing sexual blocks / using the free’d up / sexual energy for transformative and connected lovemaking with my partner.
This was our 2nd time listening to the sub together right before being intimate. Our intimacy session itself wasn’t particularly different. I felt the availability and capacity for more connected/passionate $ex, but she didn’t seem to be responding the same way (there are long-stemming traumas causing chronic arousal and avoidance issues that we’ve been working to resolve)…
While penetrating, I did feel heightened sensation which would’ve resulted in quick ej if I wasn’t modulating the energy. With the sub, however, modulating the intensity and circulating the energy seemed to be an enhanced skill.
The central channel felt more “open” for sexual energy to rise into. Not exactly a free-flowing highway, but more than usual. I intuitively was able to bring cool/water energy down into the sacrum/genitrals to cool the fire, delay climax. When PONR was near, again, without thinking, was able to squeeze the PC with the right pressure. Was NOT thinking or intending to draw it up the spine a la Cool Draw.
Moments after when we concluded (non-ej for me); upon relaxing and lying down, I started to feel trembled/quaking from within my torso and abdomen. Kind of like the feeling one would get with those ab-belt vibrators that were supposed to get you six-packs in the early 2000’s. lol
The quaking intensified - maybe getting to a 6-7/10 - generating slight-ish feelings of bliss, pleasure and laughter with some verbalized “holy fucks” which caught my partner off-guard cause we were no longer engaged. She thought I was pleasuring myself (I was not).
The waves/quakes weren’t overwhelming, and I sense there was still significant armouring in my belly/solar plexus that prevented stronger ripples and sensations.
They continued for about 45-60s, leaving me in what felt like a light altered/transcendent state. I didn’t care about the $exual dissapointment with my partner (her capacity has been a constant sense of frustration for years). It felt like I had discovered an endless reservoir of awe/ecstasy/pleasure within my own body that was exhilarating to tap into. I’ve learnt a fair amount about non-ejacualtory orgasms over the past 10 years - but never really committed to the practices. Still not sure what my experience would be categorized as (maybe the precursor the a NEO?) but still felt awesome.
Later on when sharing experiences, she confided that there was an unlayering of her trauma - but the protective shield of anger/rage/terror became intense in her experience. I reckon that this was DD working on a healing component for her.
I view both our experiences as neither a failure/success - just necessary steps in the process of transcendent union. (even if that union is experienced initially solo).
Deep bow of gratitude to @Fire and @SaintSovereign for this gem - and this epic community for the strong dose of motivation and insight I receive everytime I hop back in. Not a very active forum member - but I’ve had nothing but incredible results with these products over the past 3 years.
