Alright guys, fresh subliminal = fresh journal: StarkQ edition. As a recap for new readers, I’ve been running subliminal audios for a few years, and began my SubliminalClub journey last February, so I’ve got a bit over a year under my belt. I have listened to: Sex and Seduction, Primal, Emperor (ooF!) Khan, Emperor V4, and the Commander.
Reasons why I’m running StarkQ: In general, becoming more social. The past year running Emperor, while given me great drive, also contributed to me being a recluse. I’m already a super introvert (and depended on alcohol to extrovert and lessen my social anxieties, a habit I quit last year). I’ve also realized that in order to reach my wealth and lifestyle goals, i must network. I originally switched from Emperor to Khan in hopes it would give me a social edge, but while Stage 2 and Stage 3 gave me the most profound tangible effects, Khan Complete didn’t quite hit the mark for me. To be fair, I should have been taking more action, and would probably benefit from running the whole program again. But at the end of the day, I just wanted to run something new. The emphasis on learning and fame generation are really exciting to me and I look forward to those manifestations.
So what have I noticed so far? Well I began running StarkQ on April 16th for 3-5 hours masked daily during daytime, and some ultrasonic at night (though I usually only ran 1 or 2 loops at night before waking up and turning it off). I haven’t really stacked it yet, but I have played a few loops of KhanQ with it, hence the [stacked] tag in the title. I’ve also been consiering purchasing Iron Throne Q.
The 2nd day running StarkQ, I got an email for a job I applied to, that I’d been hoping I would be able to get for months, .The email said that I had been accepted! It’s a temporary position, but I will be moving up North again but this time actually getting an apartment, and the salary is very dope.
In general with the money situation with my current job, the pandemic has forced me to cut back hours, but over the past 2 weeks running StarkQ, I’ve gotten random influxes of money. 2 friends I hadn’t seen in a while hit me up for doing them favors in exchange for some cash. The first friend dipped out on me for now, but I’ve been making money help my other friend remodel a house. When this is all done and over, I have a suspicion I’ll be making more money than if hours at my regular job were the same.
Been doing a lot more of penny manifestation as well, it’s a game that I’ve played since I watched Greg Kuhn’s video on wealth manifestations using pennies 2 years ago.
Around the 7th or 8th day, I decided to get back on the ball and quit smoking weed again. Actually, it was because the job I had just been offered said I would be drug tested in a few months.
The 10th day it hit me like a brick, I woke up early, cleaned the fuck out of my room, did all my dishes and pulled out sleeping bags and blankets out of my cars that I’d been procrastinating cleaning for months. I went back and finished writing up my Khan journal as well. I felt I HAD to be productive. I set a game plan to tackle my web development course I had started back in October, but stopped due to work conflict.
Oh I also kick-started my fitness routine. Ideally I do an hour or several of cardio a couple times a week in addition to calisthenics or weights every other day, but I hadn’t been as active the past 2 months. So I kick-started my fitness with a 2 hour run, and I haven’t run past 30-40 mins the last few months.
I haven’t felt this level of motivation and need to be productive since running Emperor V2/V3 a year ago . Khan Stage 3 doesn’t touch it either.
Dreams: A combination of quitting weed and occasionally taking melatonin to regulate my sleep schedule have led to quite some vivid dreaming. Here’s a few notable ones that I wrote down:
- Avengers theme on April 27: I think this one is actually coincidental because I saw an Ironman meme the previous day, but in the dream it felt like I was the actor playing Spiderman, but as preparation for the movie, I had to do a whole lot of fighting on increasingly more difficult levels. In one of the levels I was fighting a robot-animatronic bear.
On the same night, I dreamed about frantically trying to pack my red Lamborghini, getting all the possessions from my sister’s house. It felt like I was escaping being accused falsely of a crime I didn’t commit, but my sister wouldn’t believe me so I had to pack up and go.
- 04/30: I had another fear-based dream/nightmare. I was driving a car with my roommate in the backseat, and we pulled into a gas station. He went into the gas-station while I waited, and a huge buff 250 lbs guy wearing a wife-beater approached my car and started whining about needing a ride. I didn’t want to, but he pleaded so much with me that I allowed him into the back seat of my car. My roommate comes back and I have to let him know super quick that I’m giving this guy a ride. He give me a WTF look that said “bro this is a complete fucking stranger what are u doing”. Then we drive up to a vacation home/mansion that we’re staying at. I remember my other roommate taking a shower. Eventually turns out this guy I picked up is a murderer and starts going on a rampage. I try to call 911 several times, but my phone keeps going to a random webpage instead. I try to run away but the dude closes in on me about to kill me; I wake up .
Anger/Reconciliation (Power Can Corrupt at play?) :
-After my 2 hours of running when I kick-started my fitness plan, I was dead-tired and went to the grocery store. Upon leaving, I drove past a guy with a sign, and the feeling of tiredness being fresh in my mind, I have sympathy, turn around and drive up to hand the guy a bag of chips and juice. Instead of just taking it and saying thanks, dude leans into my car from the passenger window and starts having a full-on conversation with me, talking about an asteroid about to hit earth and conspiracy theories. At the end he didn’t even thank me.
I play it cool and indulge him, but later that night I couldn’t sleep and was INFURIATED that I let that dude do that to me, breathing into my car when I’ve been so careful going out, and not even thanking me.
- I got into an argument with my Mom; gonna spare the details, but I felt she disrespected me and was throwing negative energy at me.