Luther's 2023 journal

Starting Monday I’m cooking. Got a list of 10 recipes, going to knock them out every day.

I’m also currently in the best shape of my life.

Me and my partner can’t keep our hands off each other and… I think I might be in love.

I think I’m beginning to understand the hype of monogamy.

I’m honestly in love with everything right now. Well not everything.

I quit gaming. I can’t do it, I need to jump into a lake. I can’t sit in front of a screen and get cheap dopamine hits from pixels. My daredevil nature is going berserk, I just fucking can’t. When I play games, it feels wrong. I need high quality dopamine. I need adventure, I need zest. I need badassery. I feel so empty when I’m gaming, like fuck. Something about it feels depressing and disconnected. It feels like a coping mechanism or an escape. Even when I play with someone else, something is just missing. I refuse to become a screen-zombie. When I play FPS shooters, I can literally feel my limbic brain kick into overdrive. When activity is high in that region of the brain for prolonged periods of time, it lowers your IQ and makes you more suggestible. I’ll stop there.

This is all just my opinion. I really tried to make it work, I really did. I let the internet influence me too much there lol. Whatever.

Either way, I have too much potential. I need to take my social life to the next level. I need to make amazing, unforgettable badass moments with beautiful people.

I might go back to increasing my status. I seriously might. I have access to people that I can use to get my foot into the door in terms of social media status but that might be too extreme.

I really don’t want fame and this is why I stopped Stark. I have so many ideas in my mind all of a sudden.

I think I figured out my gaming/social life. Going to quit gaming and manifest a close group of gigachads and gigagoddesses. I have a few people in mind, lol.

I’m so thankful for this clarity, it feels amazing.

Time to sell all this gaming equipment.

I’m also going to take up dancing and learn how to tango.

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3 minutes left and I’m out.

Dear Reader, get motivated and meet me up there.

…what are you waiting for?

Meet me up there. You know where.

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House of Medici would get you those high quality experiences with amazing people and a raise in status without the fame focus of stark.

Especially when combined with inner circle or something like daredevil

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Let me copy this before you delete it! :stuck_out_tongue:
Like always this is very inspiring, thanks.

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Either no one is special and and we’re all just mere little humans.

Or

Everyone is special and we’re all more powerful than we’ve been ever taught to believe.

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I’ve had some cool manifestations. Surreal stuff, really.

Thought about cheeze pretzels and they randomly popped out of nowhere the next day.

Is that me? Is that scenario, by itself… the end all be all.

Or is there more to the story? Is that the tree, or a small branch?

Is that the picture, or just a small piece of the puzzle?

Just how far does this rabbit hole go?

Who am I really?

What does everything mean and what is the context?

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You are still here. I thought you moved from Canada to Chile and ended this journal. I am glad you are back :slight_smile:

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Ahhhh, I had to turn down my brightness on this one :laughing:

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Lol, I was just focusing on my goals and blocking out distractions.

I should get right back to that actually, thanks for reminding me. LOL

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Great. So no Chile.

Why not have a loving wife brother ?

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Doesn’t appeal to me lol. I don’t like the label of having to tell people that I’m married LOL.

If I’m living with someone and we’re having sex, doing teamwork and etc. Pretty much living like we’re husband and wife but we term it as “partners”. I much prefer that. Also, there doesn’t have to be a wedding and all this other hassle.

I also don’t believe in having sex with only 1 woman. I can fully commit to one woman but if I meet another amazing woman, it’s like “why can’t we also share a positive connection?”.

I don’t believe in robbing me and another person of a genuine connection based on some unwritten rules of society.

It’s funny that you bring this up, lol. I haven’t journaled about it but I’ve pretty much dropped monogamy completely. On Friday, I had my first threesome ever.

I journaled it offline but Khan is officially my favorite subliminal product made by Subliminal Club.

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I debated putting this in the forum journal but fuck it.

This is all from Khan Stage 4. I just ran the sub and took action, I’m not special.

january 28th

Khan is the best subliminal ever.

Last night I had my first threesome ever and I’m quite rattled. This was out of fucking nowhere lol.

I didn’t plan for this, visualize for this or anything - it just happened out of nowhere. I wasn’t even thinking about this. Many months ago I was discussing with my partner about threesomes, attempting to get her on to the idea. I eventually dropped it because it wasn’t going anywhere and I had a lot of fears surrounding it.

Many months later and it’s just manifested out of the blue. The first time I go out socializing this year and it ends up with a threesome. It’s 1 month into 2023 and my mind is already blown. What the fuck.

First of all, I am a complete idiot for going monk-mode. Last night was a huge reminder for me, not to steer away too far from who I am.

So we all show up to my buddy’s house. It’s me, my partner, 2 of my buddies, their girlfriends and 2 other female friends of mine.

I haven’t seen these people in literally over a month. I haven’t even gone out much ever since monk mode but man did it feel good to be back. I really missed these people.

Had a blast playing poker (I am fucking beast at Texas Hold’Em lol). We all caught up and then went to a high-end Italian restaurant. We didn’t really plan any event beforehand except dinner, it was just an on the fly meet-up. All my idea.

My partner didn’t even know that Loudmouth (her new name LOL) was coming. She texted me “maybe” and then told me to pick her up like 20 minutes after we showed up to my buddy’s house.

Loudmouth is the weakest link of the group, but she’s just an awesome person in general. She’s also really hot which is intimidating to some people and I like having that energy around LOL. She’s a pure soul though.

So boom, I pick her up and introduce her to everybody. It doesn’t help that all of my female friends are women that I’ve slept with but yeah, shit was awkward at first. My partner has never met her before but I did my best to make everyone feel included and comfortable despite all the weird energy flying around.

My buddy has a foosball table so we were doing 2v2’s. Speaking of my buddy, he’s been growing out his beard and it’s fucking monstrous. He pulls it off way better than I do, I’m glad I shaved that shit.
My face just isn’t meant for it. I also enjoy not having my partner threaten to shave my face while I’m sleeping so that’s a plus lol.

So while I’m showing my other buddy my Viking music (he does powerlifting for fun), I noticed my partner and Loudmouth vibing it out which was a good sign.

After foosball, we all leave and go to the restaurant (we have reservation). Loudmouth is in the backseat and my partner is in the front. The whole time, they’re talking non-stop and I’m just zoned out focusing on driving.

We enter the restaurant and it’s busy as fuck. Everybody eats like a champ and we’re all joking about how full we are. The entire time from the moment we sat down, my partner and Loudmouth were acting as if they were best friends. Talking loudly, laughing, vibing, etc. There was so much food, I ate my whole meal as well as some of my partner’s meal and still was too full, so we just bagged the rest for home.

We watched some of the Canucks game and then we all kicked it.

So as we’re going to the car, I tell Loudmouth that we’re going to drop her home first. Unbeknownst to me… my partner had already invited Loudmouth over without even asking me. Partner goes something like “she’s just going to chill for a bit”.

I’m like cool whatever, so we get in the car. My partner tells Loudmouth to sit in the front and Loudmouth refuses so they both end up sitting in the back.

So basically, I’m in the drivers seat and these 2 are in the back like children, lol. I’m driving home and they start annoying me, pestering me, etc making fun of how I talk and walk. Pretty much ganging up on me. All of it was playful but still some weird shit.

We get home and go inside, I ask Loudmouth if she’s going to need me to drop her off later or if she can have someone pick her up because I was planning to hit the Viking Rack and have a quick workout.

Loudmouth jokingly goes “can I watch you?” and then I panicked a little and looked at my partner to see her reaction. Instead of giving me a dirty look, she was looking at me with the same smile she gives me before initiating sex lol and then said “he works out in his underwear”.

I don’t know what came over me at that moment… I’m 90% sure it was Khan but I said something like “nothing you 2 haven’t seen before” then I turned to Loudmouth and said something like “make up your mind, do you need a ride later or are you sleeping over or something?”

That sleeping over part came out of my mouth on autopilot. Might’ve been the best thing I’ve ever said this year lol.

So she tells me she’ll have someone pick her up and I hit the home-gym. For a good 45 minutes I work a sweat while blasting viking music.

I finish up and go to the kitchen for a banana (quick energy source) and I call out to see if Loudmouth is still here and she was. They were just hanging out in the living room so I go whatever and go upstairs to take a shower.

I take a good 20 minute or so shower and freshen up a bit for the partner because when Loudmouth leaves, it’s about to get steamy. I leave the bathroom and enter the bedroom… and boom.

**WARNING: NSFW**

I’m in nothing but a towel and I walk into the bedroom, my partner goes “SO, we’ve decided something.”

I turn to see my partner sitting on the bed in her nightgown (she doesn’t wear anything underneath) and Loudmouth lying next to her on the bed wearing her bra and legs spread out with no panties.

This image is etched into my mind forever, lol. I didn’t even say anything, I just… took action LOL.

Last night is going down as one of the best nights of my life. Loudmouth left and my partner is still in bed. I’m still recovering as well.

I don’t know what that was but I feel like a different person. I texted Loudmouth telling her about her new name and I also wrote “I don’t know about you, but I really enjoyed last night.” and she hasn’t replied yet.

I think what surprised me the most is how much my partner enjoyed it. She really surprised me lol. I have my fingers crossed that this becomes a regular thing but I don’t know. It’s really up to them, most importantly my partner… but I have high hopes.

One thing is for sure… I’m never dropping Khan. Like ever, lol.

Subliminal Club Zpv2 is crazy. I’m not on Libertine, WANTED, PS, Diamond or anything. This is all mainly from Khan.

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No wonder I am back on Khan now. Synchronicity…

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Yeah, I’ve been seeing a lot of them too lately

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Thought about making a custom, lol. Spent some time theory crafting but I might just stick with Khan + Chosen for now

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Inhale courage, exhale fear lol