Played 30s loops this morning but my energy levels and mood are still low since yesterday.
I’m going to stay at this exposure level until I’ll restart getting the positive results of the early days on this stack.
I had another very strange dream where another thunderstorm was coming up but this time with ball lightning and at the end of the soon-to-be nightmare a crazy hailstorm.
Just finished a cleaning spree even though at first there was some kind of resistance to it. However the more I cleaned the more I wasn’t bothered by the cleaning process.
I also had a pleasant lunch with my father even though just few years ago I would feel repulsed to have an awkward meal with him.
The father-son relationship is mostly healed.
With the power of Love everything can be quickly healed.
Few hours ago, during my walking time I had an idea to revise every journal entry in its most positive/desidered version to see if it has a retroactive effect on the present and future outcomes.
Let’s have some fun😎
I have started to rewrite my past.
Because past, present and future are here now.
Very light & peaceful feelings are back and this time they hit even deeper.
I caught a lot of stares from both gender and from several women with their boyfriend/fiancé/husband too.
If I get so much attention with this stack, I wonder what will happen if I take out Genesis: Art of Happiness and replace it with New Wanted in the next cycle…Maybe the attention would be overwhelming😅
In other news, my skin looks so much better and even better than when I was on LotS.
Yesterday while I was falling asleep I realized that I can dissolve any thought with a very simple but effective self-exploring trick. The result is zero interference of unwanted thoughts and feelings.
Played 1 min loops this morning and I’m feeling the longer processing for sure.
With my nieces we went to collect chestnuts and I had a brief chit chat with everyone I encountered.
It’s definitely easier to interact with strangers on this stack as I feel a way more positive social atmosphere, so-to-speak.
I have just planned to alternate 30 sec loops with higher and higher exposure to get the benefits of both faster processing (brief scripts) and deeper ones (longer scripts).
Just finished revising the first journal.
It’s a strange but important thing I feel I have to do in order to help myself overcoming anything that’s is still preventing to be the best version of myself.
Resentment, inner-rage, nervousness, shyness, etc.
All the things I thought I have overcome they came back with a revenge.
I lost another PT client for something crazy.
I’m quite fed up with my daily situation.
I want to fulfill my dreams but I don’t see any road towards them.
Today was a negative parade for sure.
Thank God the day is over.
I just want to live in my dream reality…that’s it.
I cannot stand any situation less than that unfortunately.
Very negative self-talk today, too.
Unfortunately, it’s hurting my job & I cannot afford to be in a low mood state while I’m at the gym.
Where’s the love & joyfulness I experienced previously?
This stack isn’t working as before and probably I should stop it before it wreaks any more havoc into my daily life.
Very unsure to continue listening to this stack.
Seeing mixed results and the urge to try seemingly powerful and popular YouTube subliminals don’t help deciding what to do.
Quite frankly my life isn’t where I want it to be, at all.
One thing I know for sure is that subliminal programming isn’t producing the life-changing results I have been looking for since I started using them.
It shouldn’t take years to solve issues and transform your life if something is working for you.
Why am I still trying to force them to work though?
No real social life, no romantic life, no financial indipendence, no clear path to reach the goals I’m looking for after all these years spent trying to finally become someone who is fulfilled by those things.
This is getting old and building up less and less trust in the subliminal technology.
It looks like the core of the main reason why I’m still struggling with the same issues hasn’t been affected at all.
Is it really THAT bad or are you just thinking it is this bad? Sometimes when these kind of thoughts slip into my mind (it happens seldom and I generally think that I live a successful life) I know that this is recon. Take a washout soon and continue this stack afterwards, it will help you, I’m sure about that (and running almost the same subs in a custom).
It might help you to reflect a little: What do you consider a “real” social life? How would you spend your days if you had it? What would be the core difference? How could you close that gap between your social life you strive for and your current situation? What can you be happy and thankful about right now? Same with romance? No romantic life at all? What does romance mean to you? What is financial independence? Do you make any money? Does it support your lifestyle? Can you cover all your expenses? How much do you save? Can you find ways to save more money? How could you enjoy more the things that you have now? Being financially independent takes away the strain from having to work on other people terms but otherwise it will make life not happier (I’m financially independent and in my 50s now, I’m grateful that I don’t have to worry about money but there’s still plenty to worry about if one chooses to worry 
).
And on another note: the stack that you chose will first and foremost address you inner world. Maybe you could direct your thoughts more to your inner life and feeling whole as you are. Nothing needed on the outside and everything will fall into place.
Ah I was wondering how this stack would play out for you…
I don’t know if this will help but I underwent something a little while ago
Happened while I was using Stark, I felt like I was not living up to my potential and ended up going through a bit of an internal crisis
This is what healing does for me. It makes me acknowledge parts of myself I’m repressing
And it sucks
Not sure if you’re doing this but anything that comes up I have to acknowledge without judgement and let it pass
And I’m glad it has happened because I know its been released
I think now that you’re aware of these things its actually a good thing because now you know what you need to focus on
Might I suggest choosing one goal to focus on (and I’ve seen other members of the forum who do the same). Driving forward on one goal at a time will really make it less overwhelming
@x3m @MAkh The main problem is that I struggle with the same issues since so many years that not even 6+ years of subliminal programming (I did around 4 years of subliminal programming before SubClub) seemed to solve them.
My core identity didn’t change at all if the same daily life and problems are still here.
Yeah I get you, I have things in my life I feel like they should have happened already
I’d still have those thoughts with or without subliminals though, so that thought pattern will keep continuing until I address how to deal with those thoughts or the problems itself
The word should usually pops up for me under heavy reconciliation
When I expect something to already be happening in my reality but my reality doesn’t match what I want. I try and remember this is reconciliation playing doubts on me
Not sure if any of this helps you but I know my mind can be pretty down when in reconciliation. So, hope it gets better for you soon 
Maybe these posts will help too:
@MAkh Either way, the anti-recon tech isn’t working for me obviously.
The negativity is still torturing myself today.
I’ll take a time-off from subs but I don’t know if I’ll come back to use them.
I cannot afford to lose anymore time, money, energy and resources into something that looks like a placebo effect.
Imagine if one of my PT clients won’t see proper and permanent results in a matter of few months.
He/she will drop me as soon as she can and I won’t blame them.
What if I just realized I don’t care at all to have a standard social life?
What if I just realized I don’t care at all to be in a casual romantic relationship?
What if I don’t care at all to be financially free by having a rich networth?
Also…
What if I don’t need to regularly hang out with a group of friends but I just need some good acquaintances that I resonated with to talk and share some moments/activities with?
What if I don’t want to have any romantic relationships unless it’s with my soulmate?
What if I don’t care how I’m going to obtain the luxury items and luxury lifestyle I want?
What if my goals were just socially engineered, so-to-speak, and not authentically made for me?
Maybe that’s the reason why I did not have any success/luck/permanent results with the socially-driven goals I always tried to reach.
Maybe I’m closer to my Real goals than ever and I didn’t realized it yet because I’ve been focusing my attention/energy and resources on the wrong ones.
Maybe this is the (harsh) Awakening to my True desires that I unconsciously didn’t want to acknowledge just because they were going against the “accepted” norm.
After having this unexpected breakthrough I feel lighter.
Just played 1min GLM + 45s. LB + 45s. G:AoH
I’m going to stay at 1min GLM and add 1s. every single listening time for the remainder of the current cycle.
So at the end I’ll be listening to 1min loops.
This stack is unexpectedly intense even with short microloops so the exposure will be increased as slow as I can.
I’m feeling way better today after a night full of very vivid symbolic dreams.
At some point I was witnessing some complex road works to help pedestrians cross the main provincial road at my border town.
Also I found myself riding a futuristic electric bike around my place when in my daily I’m not interested at all in those means of transport.
Maybe, freedom and healing from my past?
This morning it’s quite easy to control my thoughts.