Stormy mind and emotions today after playing 2 minutes loops.
They were about rebellion against authority and the fear of not having my wishes and desires fulfilled ever again.
Also I caught way less stares and got less warm attentions and behaviors from others.
That stormy dream I had the other night was a premonition for sure.
Very nasty recon today.
No more loving, joyful and full of positivity inner landscape.
I wonder why my life is still where I don’t want it to be after all these years.
My major wishes are still unfulfilled dreams and the depressing thing is that I’m turning 40 in a month or so.
I just don’t want to get old and then see my life as wasted time.
The truth is that there’s still no inner push to act on those major goals.
The same issues are still there covered with a veil of “positivity”.
I guess it’s just a band aid to cope with certain things that are bothering me since too many years.
Everything I did to pursue my dreams didn’t work out as intended.
That’s why I don’t have any more reasons to act on my desires because it all goes down to the drain sooner or later.
I guess no matter what you do, you’ll get a certain set of cards from life and then, if you’re lucky, you are equipped to reach your dreams somehow…someway.
And here I’m shedding a lot of tears of hopelessness because life will do whatever wants to do with me.
All the hopes of controlling what will happen are gone.
Unfortunately, there’s an uncomfortable pattern at play that I refused to properly acknowledge even though I had already observed it many times.
The higher the peaks, the lower the valleys.
Every single time I felt I was going to finally break through by experiencing seemingly life-changing moments and occurrences, then something happened to bring me down into a very negative spiral.
That’s not how I want to live because there’s too much contrast between those happenings that destabilize me a lot.
I think Godlike Masculinity will help you to learn and live exactly by overcoming that. It might just take a bit of time for you to adjust. But it is very possible. I am speaking from experience.
Hang in there, you got this!
My mood is getting worse.
What’s the point of making progress and then some steps back?
Reverse results are the worst thing that can happen when you seemingly start getting some traction.
They defies the point of keep going on.
This back & forth needs to stop.
Probably it’s too late for getting things right in my life.
Maybe if I was in my 20s there were a good chance of transformation but at this point I don’t believe in it anymore.
If anything I need a miracle.
I would pay a fortune for a complete and effective reset button to have all the cards needed to fulfill my dreams.
…because how can you thrive and be truly satisfied if you don’t get what you really want?
I always tried to be like everyone else.
I always tried to fit in.
Until I discovered I cannot be like anyone else.
I have special needs.
I don’t want to have a family.
I don’t want to get laid just for sexual pleasure.
I don’t want to work under someone else.
I don’t want to adapt to get accepted by people.
I don’t want to do something that I don’t feel like doing.
I don’t want to behave in “fake” mode, even in work settings.
I just want to be genuinely “me” without any compromise.
I want to be the King of my Reality.
Nothing less would mean I’m wasting my precious and irreplaceable time.
My real only interest is my own happiness, joy and peace.
If other people happiness, joy and peace is going to contribute to my own joyous inner landscape, then I’ll do my best to make it happen.
As Erik would say: “I’m Love, I’m Perfection, I’m Always Chosen, I’m Everyone’s Top Priority, No one is better than me, No one compares to me”.
Few hours ago when I started to tear I opened my SoundCloud account and the first song I pulled out was the following one about Perseverance which moved me to a flow of tears.
Also I opened my YouTube feed and now I’m watching a video about being stuck in the observer loop and how to get out of it.
They aren’t coincidences…
Healing is a spiral, not a straight line. Life itself has seasonality - cycles are baked into our every day, month, and year.
See your progress less like going back and forth, and more like you’re revisiting past themes with new eyes in a wiser cycle.
Also, prioritize peace over the highs and lows of the valleys. This is best achieved by thinking less and being in the moment more (whether that’s via meditation or getting lost in the flow of what you enjoy).
You can’t change the past or directly predict the future, but you can influence the only moment that truly exists: right now. Relax into it.
You’re much further along than you might think.
I need to go back to the exposure levels which helped me embody (and so manifest) the groundbreaking things and occurrences of the first week of this stack.
3x the exposure from 1 minutes loops was too big of a jump.
So I decided I’ll go back to 1 minute loops tomorrow and then, if recon will be pretty much irrelevant, I’m going to increase the exposure by only 30 sec. the next listening time.
If not the chance of quitting my subliminal journey (due to very high recon levels) will be pretty high.
Let’s slow it down.
Smaller, steady and sticking progress is way better than big but unsustainable ones.
During the first week something very deep and powerful shifted to seemingly manifest quite effortlessly but adding even more power to that level of identification & embodyment unbalanced me big time.
I guess too much power increase too fast can generate reverse results due to something that’s still weak deep down.
Today I had mixed feelings about the impact I was having on my environment at work and people behaviours towards me. So I started to question why is that all of a sudden the love I was feeling was gone and people interacted and showed less positive warming signs to me.
Noticing less external results could be due to the self-validation scripting working under the hood to test if I can hold my frame while I cannot experience them.
In other words, If I can’t reinforce my inner state through highly positive and somehow addicting experiences then I need to learn to validate my worth by myself.
I think GLM is raising the bar with the challenges scripting.
Of course I got my fair share of warm behaviors but just the bare minimum to not be able to attach my self-worth to the positivity shown by others.
In fact now I feel in a very strange state that’s likely between 2 timelines: the old version of myself and the brand-new emerging and slowly taking over.
So far I’m feeling a raising new self-reassurance which isn’t outcome dependent and that I’m consciously remembering who I truly am.
I guess there’s a really deep restructuring on the identity level because today’s overall theme is about that.
This morning during my usual stroll I was in a paradoxical state where I felt both vulnerable and consciously joyous. So I experienced both sides at the same time and I don’t recall it never happened before. Very strange occurrence…
Then I felt better after I had my meal and even better the next hours without the uncomfortable vulnerability.
I guess, another invisible inner armor has been dismantled for good and so I experienced an higher sensitivity to my environment.
Tomorrow I’ll play 90s loops instead of going back to 2 minutes and see how it goes because the recon wasn’t very low overall.
If the recon will be on the lower to medium level I’ll stay on 90 sec. loops though.
Why all of a sudden there’s a surge of pretty & attractive girls booked to get my training schedules and join my courses the next week?
Yesterday another inner block has been unlocked about the confidence of selling myself.
Thanks to a proper script, I found myself steering the conversation with few clients with the purpose of selling my PT service.
Selling is an historical inner tabù of mine because I always associate it to some kind of negative manipulation.
However if you treat it as a way to genuinely help others, it’s a very positive tool in the skill-set.
I’m going to test it from today on.
In other news, a client of mine complimented my body and he was impressed on the gains I had in just 2 months as he kept looking my upper body.
Keep going brother 
Seeing your progress is awesome, and I wanted to say – don’t give up on your dreams.
Your dreams and the secret wishes of your heart exist for a reason. They are part of what makes you unique. Don’t give up on your self. Even if it is baby steps, even if the progress looks imperceptible to outside eyes. Keep moving, keep pushing, keep going.
You got this brother 
Also, lowering exposure seemed to help, that was a valuable insight from your intuition! Follow that!
@Prioritas Thanks man for your kind and supportive words🙏 I always get my daily dose of warmth & kindness from people and this is one of those instances.
I’m very grateful for it😉
That’s what we’re here for bro!
I envision this forum as a place of respite, a welcoming vibe where we can rest our minds and find support amongst people who are similarly pushing for self improvement in their own lives
I’m happy to be someone attempting to build that not only here but within myself too
Be the warmth and kindness you wish to see in the world!
I think that’s part of my own results from GLM as well haha
Just lost my temper at the gym after a very long time.
I’m just human after all and not a machine who’s going to not react to certain unacceptable behaviors.
Now I need to love myself more than ever because certain boundaries cannot be trespassed.
Also I need to be more assertive and not confuse love for softness.
Love is hard when it’s needed.
It happens. When you have self love you have self respect and this sets healthy boundaries in you. The same happened to me when I was using Love Bomb for Humanity and Chosen - no more keeping up appearances for others at my own expense, no longer torching myself to keep others warm.
Yesterday’s 2 minutes loops were still too much as I’m more nervous than usual and quite fed up by my situation at my job. Also I don’t want to interact with anyone but only the people I like and I vibe well with.
However whenever I walk or enter a space I catch several stares and yesterday I caught an attractive woman inside a cafe literally turning her head while I was passing by on the sidewalk.
Mixed results for sure.
I’m tempted to stick to 30 sec. loops indefinetely because I got the most evident results with that exposure so far and if I increase them I start to get diminishing results.
Maybe I just need a sort of reminder, if 30 seconds are better than longer durations.