Sounds like recon you went through. It’s crap, frankly and you’ll question your own existence if you’re not careful.
I tend to see “why” type recon as the exciting breakthrough - usually something amazing/profound/life changing happens afterwards. On a foundational stack like LB/Joy it is perhaps not surprising…
Yes, it was very intense and I thought I lost all my “growth” progress.
It does make sense due to the fact Love, Peace & Joy frequencies are the highest ones and so they are the most powerful too.
So I guess it was another outdated version of myself dying of the most positive frequencies.
Now I’m on the right track once again.
I don’t know if you noticed, but in your previous journals, you’d start stack, start getting initial results, then you’d get recon like with this one, and usually you’d quit the stack
Not this time. That’s one of the signs of growth right there. I’m proud of you, man, keep it up
Thanks for your kind words and support (Love Bomb strikes again)
I had the urge to start painting with some watercolors today and I acted on it.
It was a very long time since I unleashed my creativity on paper. It was fun and relaxing too.
Yesterday’s was one of the biggest shifts so far.
Something very deep changed in myself.
I’m on Love Bomb as well so it strikes for me too haha
This stack isn’t helping me with the financial side that I really have to fix once and for all.
I’ll finish the current cycle and then evaluate if it will work indirectly on that matter the upcoming last 3 weeks.
If not I’ll replace AoH with EOG1 and start working on the mindset of making money.
Love is an inside job.
Godlike is a lifestyle.
Godlike Masculinity…Godlike Mindset…Godlike Identity.
I’m the God of my Reality.
Let’s Embody the Ultimate & Most Real Identity then.
Whatever I think, say, believe, act is going to work for or against me.
So the choice is a no-brainer.
Strange situation after yesterday’s powerful identity breakthrough.
I feel charged with some very high energy that made this night of sleep worse. Negative thoughts and feelings are contained into my awareness and I don’t want to express them but see through them.
I’m experiencing less positive external results, my finances are at the lowest, the warmth and attraction from people is a thing of the past but I want to believe another way better path is waiting for me.
Today was a nice a day overall with plenty of warmth, openness and another quite shocked compliment about my physique by a friend.
Also I’m thinking to grow my hair pretty long as looks matter way more than I thought, in order to be successful in everyday life.
Why? Because I have just seen a social experiment in which there’s the undeniable proof of that.
If I want to play the game I need to know the real & hidden rules behind it.
Now hold up, growing is only part of the process. Be prepared to spend a lot of time and money on caring for, maintaining and styling. I’ve only been having my hair for a week (same atack, similar changes), and I’m spending an hour throughout the day just on hair. If you don’t have the passion for it, it’ll become a chore.
More beauty requires more maintenance as well as keeping an aestethic physique.
Today I’ve been in a state that is quite difficult to describe as it’s a brand-new kind of thing alltogether.
It seems I’m returning to my natural and forgotten self-sovereignty but it’s not what I envisioned to be.
Just because a lot of false assumptions were cleared up in order to experience it as real as possible.
It’s a state of acceptance of your current external reality while embodying more and more the identity of the one who’s the master of his reality.
Quite paradoxical from a logical point of view which is obviously flawed.
What do I want right now?
How do I want to experience this moment?
Let’s shape my reality as I want it to be.
I’m immersing myself into the topics of Happiness, Aestethics, Love and Wealth by focusing on the words “Happy, Beauty, Soulmate and Millionaire”.
Let’s saturate my daily life with the things I really want.
Powerful urge to start a YouTube channel and then develop a business around it.
I have already outlined some content for the first two videos, and tomorrow is the day I’ll start working on it.
Also, today I watched several videos on how to start a business properly.
So it’s time to put myself out there & build something powerful which can empower others.
Hiding isn’t an option anymore.
More & more signs that a financial breakthrough is inevitable. I have remembered I own a lot of stocks in a company & I’m selling them.
I predict I’m going to be a solopreneur and I want to assume I’ll be a successful one.
I tried to make a decent video but after the 15th take, I quit out of pure frustration.
Also I lost another client who is/was a friend too.
Today is one of the worst days I remember, mood and negative thinking-wise. It’s so bad I just want to not exist anymore.
This extreme highs and lows are draining my hopes I’ll solve my problems once and for all.
It’s pure torture at this point.
What I did so wrong to experience so much suffering?
I cannot help myself alone. I asked for help to the Universe.
It looks like I treated myself as a Guinea pig after all these years of subliminal programming for experiencing what, at the end of the day?
More self-inflicted suffering out of believing some kind of external authority is the answer to solve my problems.
I cannot go back and forth like this anymore.
This nightmare needs to end.
I gave the new seemingly anti-recon tech a chance to prove me wrong about my growing skepticism on the subliminal technology but it didn’t work in lessening the amount of psychological pain.
Also I cannot afford to ruin my daily experience of life with even more suffering because it already affected my relationships both at work and outside, with a loss of too much clients.
I should stop banging my head to the wall while hoping it won’t break.
That’s not smart at all but against my real growth process.
I’m taking an extra day off.
My outer reality is still reflecting the following limiting beliefs:
“Money is hard to get.”
“It’s hard to find my soulmate.”
“It’s hard to get laid with someone I like/love”.
“It’s hard to make good friends in my neighborhood.”
“It’s easy to fall back into a negative spiral”.
“I’m not good enough.”
So I should replace them with their opposites by working with them consciously.