Healing myself. My sales streak brought up massive insecurity and a fear of loss… losing the success, losing the “edge,” losing the freedom that comes from being successful. I feared success and feared failure simultaneously. I blunted all of that by being less disciplined and more spur of the moment.
Social prowess… could pair nicely with commander custom
Discipline… from self love instead of “power!” … could pair nicely with commander/LE custom
Listened to a loop today, a loop on the weekend.
Not gonna report on tiny details, gonna see how this feels after a week or two, or if something crazy noticeable happens
Needless to say, I have been and will continue to follow your progress closely bro!
If you ever feel down, maybe thinking about how you inspire a stranger on the internet might help
Rather, Im simply blasting myself with a sub not ultimately aligned with my goals
It’s tough, but I’m learning things
LESSONS FROM LBFH
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Trying to fully explain them is difficult. So I’ll just be brief.
I’m learning that winning streaks burn me out, that I’m undisciplined when I feel good, and that causes me to spiral back to depression. The lesson becomes to be disciplined all year round of of self love and care, not out of greed and ambition.
Meditation is about being stoic regardless of outcomes. But while I’m stoic in the face of bad, I’m a hedonist in the face of good.
I’m learning how part of the reason I sleep in is because I was never allowed to, and now, sleeping in is an unhealthy variation of self love coming from shadow.
Instead of other people forcing me to wake up, I have to align with myself and want it for internal reasons, not external
I’m learning that the reason I’m unorganized and messy in my house is because my parents sent me the message that if I wasn’t clean I wasn’t worthy of love, and me being messy and having a fulfilling life is my way of saying “F you I am loveable no matter what”
I Am also feeling more connected to people and better able to read the room and shift emotions. I feel like more of a leader, but also like more of a friend
Haha when I go on vacation with my gf there is ALWAYS an issue that leads to a hard conversation, because being relaxed and feeling safe almost makes getting triggered easier because there is less stress on the mind distracting you from inner turmoil so you more readily express it.
Just a heads up of “be careful what you wish for” !
Those hard conversations are often walls finally being broken down, with love and connection waiting on the other side.
Sometimes feeling safe is what allows you to open up and be vulnerable about fears or insecurities that you’ve been wanting to express for a long time but have been too afraid to.
Those conversations don’t go perfect, but if navigated well, can be the connection you don’t want but the one you need
Well, I snapped out of the recon. Feeling great. Realized that I haven’t been doing ANY routines for a long time. Did a bunch today and that was really hepful.
Maybe the recon wasn’t even recon, it was just awareness of what my life was like.
But, also listened to my LE/COMM custom to boost things up today…
I will not be pushing healing subliminals (other than EOG1) on myself again any time soon… ESPECIALLY not 15 minute loops , my god.
Yep that’s what I always tell her, she dreads those conversations and they are hard and they usually get very messy.
But on the other side, we have more love, understanding, and compassion for each other. And our relationship is now stronger too.
So I lean in, and now she does too, which is awesome because she used to be scared to say the wrong thing (I can be pretty critical of semantics lol), but now she is way more comfortable expressing herself, which makes me happy even if sometimes it’s pointing out some flaw that I have to work on haha
It’s almost bed time so I’ll journal on this later but WOW the Purity Without module is hitting me hard.
Look at the post I just made above. PW has meshed with LBFH to use self love to heal cleaning.
I realized I never learned to clean because my parents as a child made it very clear that if I wasn’t clean, I wasn’t loveable, and me being messy today is my way of saying “see, people love me, and I’m messy, ha!”
I didn’t realize any of this until I was swiffering, sweeping, doing laundry, and washing, then halfway through that “oh god I forgot purity without is in my custom, damn is it working fast!
@Billions : Now this is intriguing. I actually added PW to the wealth and productivity custom that I’m about to order. Then I removed it because I thought it didn’t belong in there. What type of custom did you build?
Inner Circle (note: not running IC, just thinking about it)
Well… crazy events have been happening.
First, I signed up for Eli Wilde’s mastermind to go to his house and have a sales-focused-mastermind-weekend with him and a couple of people close to him in his organization. This is in Miami, on Friday and Saturday in Q4 (I won’t say what date for privacy reasons, don’t want to share my travel plans online.)
Eli Wilde is the #1 sales person for Tony Robbins, for context.
A couple of weeks before that, I became colleagues with a prominent online guru, who also worked with Tony Robbins, I go to his house monthly for masterminds/men’s work now, where we don’t keep it high level, we go deep into our fears, insecurities, goals, passions… vulnerable stuff, so we have a level of connection, I give him fat hugs, etc., and I’m going to his house tomorrow for his halloween party.
But it’s not like I’m close with him 1 on 1, although I’d like to be, which is the point of this post.
And
CRAZY MANIFESTATION
I just found out that the Joel Kaplan in person mastermind is in Miami, on the THURSDAY BEFORE THE ELI WILDE FRIDAY MASTERMIND.
So I’m literally gonna go to Joel Kaplan’s mastermind, then have a VIP dinner with him and the speakers and whoever else paid for the dinner, then I’m going to Eli Wilde’s house the next day for a sales mastermind.
This is only a few days after first declaring I want to build a more powerful network. Just randomly found out the two masterminds are back to back and instantly pulled the trigger on the Thursday one without even really thinking about it.
@Invictus definitely want your support on this if you’ve got tips.
I’ve always been liked but not necessarily had the deepest connections with people, especially more accomplished people.
I know you’re the master at deep connections with higher-level people.
What do I have to do/run/work on so that when these masterminds happen, I make powerful connections of people I become good friends with, even if they’re running businesses doing 2-5M per year?
