i think it was some recon with some expression of my thoughts , but i think its some of those problems that ascending people face
yes maybe it has some nice additional packaging and scripting which is exciting.
but its mainly for leadership and being the CHOSEN one, and i dont feel like i fit there
- i read about some ZP in the support section yesterday*
and i have to see that it must be exciting, especially when main titles come like ascension !
about the country thing, i always get pissed from time to time about this issue and be amazed on how can people be so brainwashed and get angry a bit, and theres no where to express myself but to god,
and here on the forum for safety,
twitter is not a safe place to express yourself about disliking anything on that matter, and self expression is a big part of my soul. so i tend to throw everything here sometimes
hope @Brandon is doing much better now, sending love brother 
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Im noticing slight discomfort, and lack of energy
Id say thats some reconciliation,
Slept late yesterday and today i didnt hit the gym
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If you aren’t much of a leader, then who will lead you? I don’t see the reason to fear being thrown into a bunsh of leader roles, when a good leader easily chose what and if he wants to lead others.
But most of all he leads himself. My closest friends right now are the two horses outside my window eating grass atm, but I still listen to Chosen. Just a thought.
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ill lead myself. But i dont want to lead others, its something that doesn’t interest me.
I can lead my cats though hahahahah
But i think ascension or emperor is a better leader title for your own self rather than chosen,
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Its been a couple of days and the same issue appears again
Idk what is this, this has been happening for me for a long time
I woke up tired. Its the same cycle even if i sleep for 8-10 hours,
You body tells you that you can sleep of more hours and that you need it. Even if you slept for 12 hours
You’d probably feel sleepy also, ans that you can go for 14 hours of sleep to rest better
And I honestly dont know whats causing this,
Is this a trick by the mind? Or its really that my body needs more rest
But no matter how long i sleep, i feel tired when i wake up again
The push in the workout has disappeared, i dont notice the same push and obvious silence of the mind while im working out. from within to finish the last reps
I was trying to be more aware today of how i react when i was working out. But it feels like I reacted today the same as my regular bassline
Rather than the cool ass push from ascension.
Honestly the reason for ascension wasnt for working out, but to improve my overall life experience
So ill see what happens
Until now nothing new,
im becoming more and more scared that these subs will change my essence, and it will change that whom my authentic self is,
loving and caring and other traits ive always known myself for,
im having these thoughts that the script might influence me into another person that i dont want to be
cuz the change sometimes can be so smooth that it scares me, that i might change rapidly change and forget who my old self was like, my values, everything
what brought this up was today at the gym i was trying to remember if yesterday i worked out or not, and i couldn’t remember until a couple of mins ago, so its scary that i might change booof, and forget my old self that easy, that would scare the hell out of me
ive been doing my best God, ive been searching and looking for answers everywhere, it feels like a relife sometime that your doing the best, and striving for what means a lot of you, even if the road is very blurry espcially for me
i feel like im lost sometimes
im really hoping that these subs are the solution to all the problems ive been looking for answers to
, actually the way i found this website is through a friend that i told him that i have some problems sometimes with socializing and he gave me the link to this place
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Welcome to the club man 
this is RECON.
I have an old journal here writing the same .
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regarding spirituality fearing that I am becoming a traitor to my spiritual goals . Actually at the time my definition expanded . And looking back seeing that my meditation getting deeper and my understanding of who I am is expanding . You know according to Bashar “negativity is exclusive , positivity is inclusive” as you grow you will find that your essence has a different aspects. And you include them.
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regarding creativity , fearing that this Mogul attitude of planning and strategizing will cut me from my creative nature. Didn’t happen and I am expanded.
I have the same issue with emperor , as IAM starting to become more assertive , establishing boundaries that in the past were vague in the best case. I feared that I will lose my loving nature . actually didn’t happen .and I am still the loving appreciative man . But now people can see that not just I am loving but a strong man you can depend on . (This is f*** important in business and life in general)
Keep going man you gonna like it 
Edit:
By the way what’s your MBTI?!
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hahaha i figured
hahhaha we have similar fears, it was a thing i was super worried about when i first got into subs,
cuz ive gained a lot and helped myself through a lot, and did a lot of work on working on myself cutting out people that dont serve me and serve my journey in life, and then i play an audio and it ruins all that work ? hahahah nope
but gladly someone knows what im talking about,
yes! this is what im looking for, 
to be a loving person as who i am, and also to build that strong mentality and strong mind that goes through hell but keeps going
loving cant spare everything in life, thats only side of the story of life, the other is work and discpline
hell yeah
i am an INFP-A
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Same here 
Not strange that your journal is one of the Journals I am watching closely.
hahahaha hey wusuppppp
INFP GANG
your running emperor? how is that going for you
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No this was on the past 3 years ago I
, I played emperor around 6 months .
Now I am running rich zp and paragon zp
But daredevil , true social , HOM suits me better and are helping me well in business and life ,
Ascension is great I am really excited to play zp
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hahahah i like stark very much. so maybe infp’s tend to be more on the social side and love the people and talking
and bro trust me youll love RM, or at least me i was so in love with it, i wanna add it asaaaaaaaaaaap
but my memory is almost like a butterfly, so i need to prioritize to work with QL from the first stage till the last, to fix it
u tried ascension?
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My old journal
Of course , I have a beautiful relationship with that title . Great progress and momentum . For me Ascension is a category of its own . I can’t describe my relationship with Ascension . I love that title 
And yes I love stark .
Psit also did great with me . But not good for business meeting . HOM does better .
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this is your old account and journal?
yeah ascension felt very good when i ran it, first for the couple of days
now im not seeing anything new or let me say i feel like the results ran away hahahaha , but i feel like its a very good title from experiencing a glimpse of it , i have to give it time so no rush
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Yes this is my old account and journal .
Be steady ,
“we speak about changes that stay with you for a life”
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hell yeah im in for the journey
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im fucking lost, i dont know what i like
boy this is tough
man idk if those subs are the reason i feel very lost, or i cant find my niche anymore
what happened ?
i dont like this,