Budewr’s journal

[Budewr]

@sid

Welcome to the club man this is RECON.

hahaha i figured

@sid

I have an old journal here writing the same .

• regarding spirituality fearing that I am becoming a traitor to my spiritual goals . Actually at the time my definition expanded . And looking back seeing that my meditation getting deeper and my understanding of who I am is expanding . You know according to Bashar “negativity is exclusive , positivity is inclusive” as you grow you will find that your essence has a different aspects. And you include them.
• regarding creativity , fearing that this Mogul attitude of planning and strategizing will cut me from my creative nature. Didn’t happen and I am expanded.

hahhaha we have similar fears, it was a thing i was super worried about when i first got into subs,

cuz ive gained a lot and helped myself through a lot, and did a lot of work on working on myself cutting out people that dont serve me and serve my journey in life, and then i play an audio and it ruins all that work ? hahahah nope

but gladly someone knows what im talking about,

@sid

I have the same issue with emperor , as IAM starting to become more assertive , establishing boundaries that in the past were vague in the best case. I feared that I will lose my loving nature . actually didn’t happen .and I am still the loving appreciative man . But now people can see that not just I am loving but a strong man you can depend on . (This is f*** important in business and life in general)

yes! this is what im looking for, to be a loving person as who i am, and also to build that strong mentality and strong mind that goes through hell but keeps going

loving cant spare everything in life, thats only side of the story of life, the other is work and discpline

@sid

Keep going man you gonna like it

hell yeah

@sid

Edit:
By the way what’s your MBTI?!

i am an INFP-A

[sid]

@Budewr

i am an INFP-A

Same here
Not strange that your journal is one of the Journals I am watching closely.

[Budewr]

@sid

Same here

hahahaha hey wusuppppp

@sid

Not strange that your journal is one of the Journals I am watching closely.

INFP GANG

your running emperor? how is that going for you

[sid]

@Budewr

running emperor? how is that going for you

No this was on the past 3 years ago I
, I played emperor around 6 months .

Now I am running rich zp and paragon zp

But daredevil , true social , HOM suits me better and are helping me well in business and life ,

Ascension is great I am really excited to play zp

[Budewr]

@sid

But daredevil , true social

hahahah i like stark very much. so maybe infp’s tend to be more on the social side and love the people and talking

and bro trust me youll love RM, or at least me i was so in love with it, i wanna add it asaaaaaaaaaaap

but my memory is almost like a butterfly, so i need to prioritize to work with QL from the first stage till the last, to fix it

u tried ascension?

[sid]

@Budewr

tried ascension?

My old journal

@sergio

• as expected ascension is working well for me
• in my wholesale project i did a lot of meeting and sales visits to different customers and my product and price was appreciated

Of course , I have a beautiful relationship with that title . Great progress and momentum . For me Ascension is a category of its own . I can’t describe my relationship with Ascension . I love that title

And yes I love stark .

@Budewr

and love the people and talking

Psit also did great with me . But not good for business meeting . HOM does better .

[Budewr]

this is your old account and journal?

yeah ascension felt very good when i ran it, first for the couple of days

now im not seeing anything new or let me say i feel like the results ran away hahahaha , but i feel like its a very good title from experiencing a glimpse of it , i have to give it time so no rush

[sid]

@Budewr

this is your old account and journal?

Yes this is my old account and journal .

@Budewr

yeah ascension felt very good when i ran it, first for the couple of days

now im not seeing anything new,

Be steady ,
“we speak about changes that stay with you for a life”

[Budewr]

@sid

Be steady ,
“we speak about changes that stay with you for a life”

hell yeah im in for the journey

[Budewr]

im fucking lost, i dont know what i like

boy this is tough

[Budewr]

man idk if those subs are the reason i feel very lost, or i cant find my niche anymore

what happened ?

i dont like this,

[Budewr]

i think what im experiencing is definitely recon

if this keeps up and this feeling of being disconnected from music still persists i think i will ditch ascension

i just cant live with constant recon and not loving what i do, this will break me i literally cannot

idk, ill give it till the end of this month or something if things gets better or not

then i will see, the journey must be enjoyable idk what the hell is happening to me man,

[Budewr]

i guess the sub is stirring things up huh?

[Michel]

This is
R E C O N C I L I A T I O N.

[Budewr]

@Michel

This is
R E C O N C I L I A T I O N.

yeah i figured, its a bit annoying

i was thinking about adding 1 more loop of ascension, but i guess this recon tells me a lot

bright side is that at least the sub is stirring up stuff and working

[Tomcat]

My few coins: try practice acceptance and acknowledge of “what it is”. I know, its sound esoteric and not that easy but it is the only way…

[Budewr]

Porn isnt as rewarding as before

Thats a very good thing, now i just have to break the pattern. Cause it doesn’t satisfy at all

[Budewr]

also posture today is looking really on point,

the last 2 days werent so great, but today i see smthing better

[Budewr]

Okay a thing i noticed,

Im at the gym rn its almost 12 pm

Which is very late to whenever i hit the gym usually,

And usually when i hit the gym this late i have this feeling of the time is moving too fast and that im missing out so much time of the day

And that i wouldnt be able to work properly cuz i went late to the gym and stuff

Its about that feeling

Today however feels more ease

And no rush, like it really doesn’t matter and that feeling doesn’t exist anymore

Its really good

[Budewr]

Also a thing, I forgot my ear phones at home, and i was okay with it

Im lifting and it all seems so fine

Before id go back home and get it, but today was like meh i will try to coupe with it

Its fine